No one really understood this until now. No understood what i meant. No one thought i would do it. I did. I for filled what they thought impossible. I accomplished the unexpected. Let me explain how this all became.
It all started Christmas day, we had the typical family, typical house. That was all. You see every year we would sit down and have Christmas lunch together and generally just having fun. But you see deep beneath the surface i had no fun. See i don't enjoy Christmas, personally i hate it. People are brought up believing in it but when you think about it, did it ever make sense I mean for a child parents forced you so be someone your not meant to be. So i drew a line in the sand and never celebrated Christmas again. Since then i moved out and lived by myself in an apartment near my university. When i was a kid i was bright and got really good grades, i passed all my GCSE's and A-Levels and suddenly i was alone. When i was younger i had met this really nice guy, we had an on off relationship but things seemed ok between us. We were friends no matter what happened and it just seemed right. I lost all that, somehow it faded when i moved away. I used to speak to all of my friends multiple times a day, but to this day. Never. I was alone in my apartment, crying myself to sleep every night hoping the next day could be a little better