Honey's P.O.V
My body is about to shut down on me. I don't know if I can keep this up. My legs hurt my hell, my heartbeat is beyond abnormal and my breathing is completely off. Hell, I don't know what's wrong with my body all I know is I CAN NOT STOP.
"Honey!" I heard him behind me, what fool would turn around and answer, "Honey, stop this nonsense right NOW!"
I didn't turn around; I didn't even acknowledge him. But it was strange, the sound of his voice, the way it hit my ear. Here I am running like a mother fucker to get away, but it seems I'm not going anywhere. I stopped.
I turned around and waited as he slowly made his way towards me. The closer he got the more my body tensed up. I cannot stand even the slightest thought of him, let alone looking in his goddamn face. Once he made it to me, he smiled.
"Why don't you just leave me alo-" I felt a sting on my face.
"Who the fuck do you think you're talking to?" I lowered my head. I didn't answer, that might not have been the right thing to do but hell what is? Not answering is a hell of a lot better than the wrong damn answer. "Now why are you running from me?" He asked trying to remove the hair stuck to my face from sweat.
"Please" I winced turning my face.
"Ah ah ah" he used his index finger and thumb to direct my chin back to face him, "Don't you know I love you; I would do anything for you."
"This isn't love." I semi yelled.
"Girl" he managed to get out through gritted teeth, he unclenched his fist and smirked, "Honey Bee, I gave you a warning already. Don't be stupid and make me show you the error of your ways."
My body stiffened, "Ok."
He put his hand around on my throat, "I know you know better."
Tears started to form in my eyes and there was a huge lump in my throat, I knew exactly what he wanted me to say it disgusted me.
"H" he sung, "E B" he removed his hand backed off a bit and did a tiny dance where he stood, "you mean the world to me. Oh, promise promise me. You'll never stop loving your daddy."
A tear escaped; I use to love that song. He sung it to me almost every night before bed. I fucking hate that stupid ass mother fucking song.
"I'm still waiting baby." He caressed my face.
"Yes daddy." I muttered. Even a blind person could tell he got excited. He charged straight at me and tackled me to the ground. I was screaming and swinging but it did me no justice.
"NO"
I woke up from another terrible dream. This is the 3rd one I had this week. Maybe it's because he's coming back, I wish he wasn't I hate him. "Honey, did you hear me?" I was snapped from my thoughts by my mother.
"I'm fine ma." I said flashing a faint smile.
"Ok baby, if you need me, I'll always be here." she said kissing my forehead and leaving.
I rolled over on my back and looked at my phone to check the time. Ugh it's time for me to get up. I got up, took a quick shower, brushed my teeth, and went to my closet to get me some clothes. I grabbed my red crop top, white high waist jeans, and my red converse. I put my hair in a high bun.
I reached for my phone to text my best friend, Racheal. Racheal was my best friend in the whole world. We've been best friends for about 5 years. I've known her my whole life though, we were friends just not as close. Right before I unlocked my phone, her name flashed across my screen.
"Hello?"
"Hey girl."
"Hey" I laughed.
"You was about to call me huh?"
"No, I was about to text you, but how you know?" I asked.
"Cause you laughed for no reason, and because we best friends I just felt it and wanted to do it first."
"Shaking my head." I said shaking my head like she could see me.
"Yo stupid ass shaking yo head huh? Dude, you really retarded!" she laughed.
"So!" I screamed back.
"What you wearing?"
"Red and white."
"Me too, stop stalking me you weird bastard!" she yelled.
"Bitch, I thought of it first!" I protested.
"No, you didn't, you picked it from yo closet just now."
"So! Come get me in about 5 minutes, I need to get dressed and clean up my room a bit."
"Alright, see you later."
Racheal got her license last year after her dad bought her a car for her 17th birthday. She was a daddy's girl and got everything she wanted. I'm not getting a car until I make my 18 next month.
I got dressed, cleaned up my room little, and went downstairs to the kitchen waiting on Rach. As soon as I opened the refrigerator to get some yogurt she came through the front door, "HEY MAMA, HEY HONEY!" her loud ghetto ass yelled.
I closed the refrigerator, went outside, and got in her car. She took FOREVER to come out. She got in the car and buckled up, "Ready?"
"Yeah, I'm ready, I was waiting on yo ass."
"I was in there for like 2 minutes" she said backing out the driveway.
"Felt like forever."
"I'm sorry dear" she said tryna be funny.
"Don't play with me."
"Well stop yelling at me like you're my wife." she laughed.
"Where we going?" I asked as we passed up our school.
"Shit, McDonalds I'm starving. Don't act like you ain't hungry you eat all the damn time."
"I ain't acting like I'm not hungry, I just asked where we was going."
"What you want?" She asked as we pulled up.
"Same thing you getting." I replied.
"Not coming in?"
"No"
She went in McDonalds to get our food cause the drive-thru line was too long. As soon as she got in this Black Suburban pulled up beside us, and this fine ass red boy got out and started walking inside. He turned around and it looked like he was looking straight at me, so I ducked.
I popped my head back up and it seemed like he was talking to somebody, so I looked out the window and saw this fine brown skinned dude walking toward him. I grabbed my phone and called Racheal.
"What the hell you want girl?"
"They got some fine ass niggas bout to walk in there."
"Girl I don't see no-I see em I see em!"
"Don't cause a scene!" I yelled.
"They coming my way, oh shit. Come in here Honey."
I quickly got out the car and ran inside and went where Racheal was. They were talking and smiling, "Honey, I think they called our order." she said looking at me. Both of the boys turned around and the red one licked his lips. I don't know why but I love it when boys do that, especially if they got some sexy ass lips.
I walked away to go get our food, I turned around and saw her next to them and signaled for her to come on. We left and got back in the car, "Girl, they was fine as hell." she said as we headed to school.
"I know, but right now all I'm worried bout is this food." I said reaching for my food.
"The brown skinned one was so sweet, he was about to ask for my number until you called me out, damn cockblocker."
"Whatever, you'll see him again, but what you won't see forever is this food."
"Girl just shut up and eat greedy bastard."
"So!" I said with a mouth full of food.
"A lady doesn't speak with a full mouth." she said in her version of a sophisticated voice. I just rolled my eyes and continued eating. I finished right before we pulled into the school.
"Damn girl, McDonalds down the street."
"Bitch don't act like I had a lot; it was only a sausage biscuit and a hash brown.
"Whatever, gimme my food so I can eat." she said parking her car. We sat there until she finished eating, as soon as we got out, I saw the same black truck them boys came out of parked behind us.
"Rach!"
"Huh?"
"That's the same truck them boys came out of this morning." I said, "Don't turn around they might still-" I couldn't even finish my sentence her stupid ass turned around. They got out the truck and walked towards us.
"Hey ma." the light skinned one said to Racheal.
"Hey Chris" she said blushing.
"Hi......" the other one said to me.
"Honey, and Hi" I replied.
"Shawn" he said reaching his hand out, I shook his hand and I looked down and notices my shoelace came loose. I was about to bend down to tie it when he said, "I got you ma, reach yo leg up."
"No, I couldn't, your pants will get dirty." I replied, he had on white pants just like me.
"Well, I'll just go down then." he said bending down and tying my shoelace back.
"Thank you." I replied, that was so sweet, no boy had ever tied my shoe for me voluntarily.
"It's good. So, Honey, how long have you been living here?"
"All my life." I said looking over to notice Racheal walking in the school with Chris.
"Our people left us" he said laughing.
"Yeah, well see you later" I said heading for the school.
"Wait up Honey, can you show me to my first class?" he asked handing me his schedule.
"You take homeroom with me, come on." I said directing him to our class.
I walked in class and Chris was sitting in MY seat. I walked up to my desk, "Nu-uh baby you gots to get up."
"This yo desk?" he asked.
"No, I just don't want anybody sitting here." I said sarcastically.
"My bad shawty." he said getting up and going to the back where Shawn was, Shawn was laughing really hard.
"My name is Honey." I said sitting down.
"Why you had to diss my dude like that?" Racheal asked.
"Yo dude? Girl, we just met them niggas." I said starting on my work.
"He still mines." she mumbled.
"I heard you." I said.
"I don't know WHAT you talking bout." she said trying to be serious.
Our principal came in out room, "Mrs. Green will be out today, she left you guys work on the board, we couldn't find a sub so I'm sure SENIORS could handle class without a teacher."
"Yes ma'am" they said in unison.
She left out the room and 2 or 3 people left, some started on their work, and the rest just talked. I started on my work, this my last year and I'm NOT tryna be here any longer.
Chris called Racheal and she went to the back and Shawn came by me. I didn't bother looking up, I just continued doing my work.
"Do you have another pen? Mines bust." he asked me.
"Yeah sure" I said giving him my pen and getting another one to finish my work.
"So, do you know how to do this shit, I don't get any of it."
"Why are you cursing, we're in school." I said, he looked at me like I was crazy.
"You don't curse?" he asked.
"Yeah, just not a lot." I replied.
"So how abou-"
"Can I please just finish my work?"
"Yeah, I didn't mean to upset you."
"You didn't, I just would like to finish my work."
After half an hour I finished my work, "You finished?" He asked as I put my pen down.
"Yeah"
"Is it right?"
"Yeah"
"Your name's Honey?"
"Yeah"
"May I copy?"
"Yeah-wait no!"
"You said yeah, too late." he laughed.
"No, you can't copy." I said.
"I'm finished anyways, don't nobody want yo ratchet answers."
"How are answers ratchet?" I laughed.
"When they ugly and wrong they ratchet!" he yelled making people look and giggle.
"You ratchet!" I yelled back.
"Nooooooo" Chris hollered from the back.
"Dude you shut the fuck up, nobody was talking to you."
"Aye Honey, tonight we having a party, you should come through."
"No thanks I have stuff to do tonight."
The bell rang, then I grabbed my stuff and headed straight out of class. I think I heard Shawn call my name again, but I didn't care. I went to my locker to get my book, when I closed my locker I saw Jessica all over Shawn, he didn't mind either.
They were hugged up on the wall, then she began kissing him. Sucking and biting on his lip and all. I can't stand that girl, I hated her ever since we were in elementary school. I caught her kissing my boyfriend behind the slide. She has, and always will be a hoe, but I'm not worried about her.
I rolled my eyes and went to the restroom to fix my hair, I had a feeling it was messed up. I went in, fixed my bun, and when I came out I saw her and Shawn going in the Boy's restroom. I already knew what she was bout to do, I just shook my head and went to class.
When I got in class I sat straight by Rach, "So you got invited to the party too?" she asked.
"Yeah, but I don't want to go." I said rolling my eyes.
"Why? What did they ever do to us?" she asked, she really wanted to go to the party, but if I wasn't going she wasn't going to go. Not because I make her, because she doesn't feel right going to parties without me.
"Well, I just don't feel right about him, he seems off in some way. He's sweet and all but like...I don't know." I said shrugging.
"You feel that way about everybody Honey, you never really have fun anymore since....." she stopped.
"Yeah, I know" I sighed.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to bring it up. I just want you to have a little fun. I mean it's our SENIOR YEAR."
"I know, I know" I laughed.
"Sooooo...." she said shaking me.
"Fine, stop shaking me." I said.
"WHOOOO!" she said putting her hands in the air, everybody looked and her and laughed a little. They didn't really say much cause they knew that she was crazy already.
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After School
I was outside waiting by Racheal's car, and out walked Shawn and Jessica holding hands and heading for their truck, "Hey Honey" he waved.
"Hey Shawn." I waved back.
"So, did you change your mind about going to our party?" he asked. Jessica was mad, she was rolling her eyes at me and whatnot. I paid her no mind.
"Yeah, Racheal talked me into it."
"Good, can't wait to see you tonight." he said heading for his truck.
"What the fuck was that?!" Jessica whispered.
"Girl get in the damn truck!" he yelled at her.
"Whatever" she said getting in.
I laughed as they pulled off, she out her mind. I didn't see Racheal and Chris come up behind me, "I told you she was crazy" Racheal told Chris.
"No, I was laughing at Shawn and Jessica."
"Yo he with Jessica, that's fucking nasty" Racheal said making a face.
"What's wrong with Jessica, she pretty" Chris asked looking confused.
"If you want a ride in MY car, don't be calling that hoe pretty. She a whore, all she do is fuck everybody and suck everybody. I'm surprised her ass ain't catch nothing." Racheal said seriously, I giggled.
"So she just do any and everybody?" he asked.
"Yeah."
"Oh" Chris shrugged.
"I saw him going into the bathroom with her after 1st hour."
"Well." Chris said shaking his head.
"So does he try to fuck everybody?" I ask.
"Why? You got a crush on him?" Chris asked laughing.
"NO, I was just asking." I said blushing.
"Yeah, yeah, but honestly...he's not really one to settle down." Chris shrugged.
"Oh." was all I said, I guess he AIN'T worth me trying to get at now. I ain't giving none up anyways. I don't see what's so great about sex, why does everyone try to have it.
"And you...." Racheal asked.
"Me....when I love...I love hard!" he said making her laugh, "No, but seriously, I'm not like that at all. Me and him are different, I don't see how we became friends, but we are."
"Well you guys are just a weird pair, me and Honey are JUST alike." she said.
"Yeah, I've noticed the matching colors." he said looking at us.
"No, that's just because Racheal don't know when to stop copy catting." I said.
"Whatever girl." Racheal said laughing.
We pulled up at this big house, "This your house?" I ask Chris.
"Yeah, me and Shawn live together. Our moms kicked us out, we got our own place. Then after a while we moved down here and it was hard to find two houses... well two good houses for the both of us, so just bought this one for the both of us."
"Oh, I didn't ask all that I just asked was this your house." I said.
"Well, excuse the shit out of me." he said kissing Racheal on the cheek, then getting out the car.
"Bye Chris, see y'all later." I said. He flipped me off and kept walking into his house.
"That's why he gave you the finger and I got a kiss." Racheal teased.
"I don't care." I said rolling my eyes, "Come on and take me home so I can get dressed."
"Fine." she said pulling out. It was quiet on the way home, I was still thinking about Shawn for some reason. I don't know why I just was.
We pulled in my drive way, "Bye girl, I will be back around 8." she said.
"Alright bye" I said getting out. I went inside, went in my room, and laid down. I was going to take a nap, I was really tired. As soon as I started to drift to sleep I got a text message.
???: Hey Honey
Me: Hey, who is this?
???: Shawn
Me: How you got my number?
ManWhore: That isn't any of your business. Why you so nosey?
Me: What you want?
ManWhore: I was wondering if I could come over and chill
Me: Don't you have Jessica to keep you busy?
ManWhore: Are you jealous?
Me: No, why would I be?
ManWhore: You still coming through thoo right?
Me: Yeah
ManWhore: Cool, see you tonight
I read his text message and went straight to sleep. I know nobody but Racheal gave him my number, she get on my nerves. I'm so tired, all them nightmares....
"Honey come back here NOW!"
"NO, leave me alone!" I ran as fast as I could. Who is this man and why is he chasing me?
"You better bring yo ass back here!"
"You are not the boss of me!"
"Yes I am, I'm your father and what I say goes. Now come back here!"
It felt like I've been running forever, I stopped realizing what he just told me. I turned around and came face-to-face with my father, "Why were you running from me baby girl."
"I don't want to talk to you."
"You know you don't mean that. We're in love and that's the way it's going to stay." he said forcing a kiss on my lips. I pulled away and slapped him, "We are NOT in love, I'm your daughter not your wife." I screamed before running away.
"YOU WILL COME BACK HOME TO ME SOON ENOUGH. WE WILL MAKE LOVE AGAIN AND AGAIN HONEY!" he yelled behind me.
I woke up just a little while before Racheal was suppose to come. I got up, took another quick shower, brushed my teeth, and went to find something to wear. I was looking for clothes for half an hour before my mama came in, "Honey, Racheal's downstairs waiting, what are you doing?"
"I'm still trying to find something to wear." I whined.
"I'll go get Rach"
She came back with Racheal, "Why aren't you dressed?"
"I can't find anything!"
"Girl, you got more clothes than me and you have nothing to wear?"
"No!"
"Move out the way!" she said pushing me walking into my closet. She was in there looking at my dresses for a moment, then she grabbed one and some shoes, "Was that so hard?" she said forcing the clothes in my hand.
She pulled out my olive dress and nude heels. I can't walk in them damn heels, I just bought them cause they were cute. I guess I'm trying tonight. I quickly got dressed and ran in the bathroom.
"What you doing now?" Racheal asked aggravated.
"My hair, I wanna wand it."
" Know damn well you see my hair is wanded. Better leave yo little bun in yo head."
"No, I already plugged it up cause I planned it."
"Oh well, I'm ready to go! Fix yo bun and grab yo earrings, a necklace, and watch so we can go!" she demanded. I didn't argue I just did as she told me and went outside to her car where she was waiting.
"About damn time girl its 8:36, next time I'm going to leave yo ass."
"No, you not, now come on."
We drove to Shawn and Chris house; they have a lot of people here. For some new kids, they sure do have a lot of friends. Well, I guess that's what being cute gets you. Me and Racheal got out the car together, "Don't leave me, I'll be lost and YOUR my ride home."
"Girl you 17 years old, you can handle yourself. If we just so happen to split up just meet me in the front over there by the roses."
"Fine." I said waving my hands in surrender. We went inside and they were playing twerking songs. They had girls twerking on some dudes, and when I looked to my left, I see Jessica twerking on Shawn. Racheal starting walking toward the kitchen, so I followed her and there was food everywhere.
I grabbed a plate and grabbed some food; I didn't grab too much cause I didn't want to make it seem like I'm a pig. I don't like eating in front of a lot of people I never did.
After I finished eating, I looked over and Racheal wasn't by me anymore. I can't believe she left me, I threw my plate away and sat down on the couch.
"Hey Honey." I heard someone speak from behind me. I turned around and Chris was right there, "Hey Chris." I said getting up and hugging him.
"Where's Racheal?"
"So, you come over here looking at me being bored as hell, speak, and ask for Rach. You hurting my feeling Chris."
"I'm sorry Honey, why aren-"
"I don't want no conversation now...anyways I don't know where she went" I said interrupting him.
"She left you?"
"Yeah, I was eating, I guess I was all into my food, so I didn't even notice her getting up and leaving."
"Fat ass!" he mumbled.
"I heard you" I said making him chuckle.
"Hey Chris!" I know her voice anywhere.
"Where you went?" I said eyeing Racheal.
"I had to pee; can't I go potty without permission?" she said giggling.
"That wasn't funny." I said while her and Chris were cracking up. I don't see why they even laughing, that wasn't funny. We were talking for a while, then Shawn came over dragging Jessica behind him. He sat on the other side of me, there was no room for Jessica on the couch, so she tried to sit on his lap, "Girl move, go sit on the other couch. I ain't tryna mess up my pants."
Chris and Racheal started laughing and Jessica gave them a nasty look. I giggled a little, "What the fuck you laughing at?" she asked.
"Who she talking to?" Racheal asked.
"I'm talking to miss giggles right here. What the FUCK you laughing at?"
"Bitch you got me fucked up. Don't make me beat yo ass again!" I said.
"Whatever, you just mad cause you can't keep a man."
"Bitch you don't even HAVE a man, all you doing is fucking him, and don't worry about me if I wanted one, I could take your so-called man."
"Shawn is my man, ain't that right bae?"
"I ain't even say all that."
"Earlier you told me you wanted me."
"....To suck my dick" he added.
"Mane fuck y'all!" she said getting up and walking away.
"I think she mad." I said making them laugh really hard.
Shawn's P.O.V
Let me find out Honey a thug. She cool people, I'm still tryna fuck though. I ain't never gone settle down, that ain't me. I just need my money, drugs, and pussy. I'm not worried about having a family right now.
"Honey."
"Huh?" she said still laughing from the situation with Jessica.
"Come with me" I said grabbing her hand and leading her upstairs into my room.
"What are we doing in here?" she asked.
"I just want to talk."
"Ok, talk..."
"Why are you so mean to me?"
"I'm not mean to you; I just don't know you or what your intentions are so I'm not going to be all in your face like these other girls...next"
"See what I mean, your being mean!" I said pretending to tear up, "You don't understand what it's like to be a thug." I said plopping on the bed with my face in my hands.
"No, I don't. I'm sorry" she giggled sitting next to me and rubbing my back encouraging my bullshit. I moved my hands from my face and kissed her, she didn't push away so I guess I can go further. I began to deepen the kiss and she opened her mouth a little for me to enter.
I got on top of her and she wrapped her legs around my waist. I took off my shirt and slid my hands up her dress. I was almost to her area, then she pushed me off, "What are you doing?" she asked looking at me like I was crazy.
"I thought you wanted me to."
"I barely know you, is that what you think of me? Do you think I'm easy like Jessica?" she asked getting mad.
"No, Honey I'm sorry!" I said as she stormed out the door. I went out behind her and I heard gun shots and screaming. I know ain't nobody shooting in my mother fucking house. I look down the hall and Honey is on the floor with blood running from her. SHIT!
I saw a dude running down the stairs, "Yo C!" I yelled trying to get his attention, but he couldn't hear me over all the screaming. I don't even know why I tried. I called 911 quickly, "Come on Honey, stay with me now." I called to her.
Racheal and Chris were nowhere to be found! I called his phone, he didn't answer so I called again, "Yo!"
"Where the fuck you at?"
"In the room, I know you heard them damn shots!"
"Honey was shot and the dude got away!"
"What!"
"Come upstairs by my room!"
Chris and Racheal came, she screamed holding Honey, she didn't seem to care about all the blood getting into her hair and stuff. The ambulance came in and got her, Racheal called her and Honey's moms and told them what happened.
Why the fuck did they come here and shoot? And out of all people shoot Honey! I wouldn't care as much except for the fact I ain't even get to fuck yet. I know that's cold but shit I DON'T give a fuck. That bitch was bad, damn, I hope she alright so when she come back, we can start where we left off.
I can't wait to find the nigga that shot in my fucking house. They got the game fucked up coming into MY shit and shooting! I called my boys up, "Yo run the security cameras back and find out who that lil nigga was that shot in my house, get as much information as y'all can!"
"Iight"
"We gone do what we can Shawn."
"We going to yo shit now!"
They all replied, when I catch this nigga, he will NEVER see daylight again. I bet it was them Gboy's they been beefing with us ever since we moved down here, my business was better than theirs, so they started hating. They probably got a hit out on me, but, again, I DON'T give a fuck. Nigga better have said all he had to say to his family, cause when I catch him his life is over with.