APRIL
He found me.
I don't know how and I don't get why. I left him behind for a reason.
He found me.
It had been six years. I thought he would've given up by now. How could you search for someone for six years and not realise that maybe they don't want to be found. I didn't want to be found, its why I made it so hard for someone to find me, especially Harry. I couldn't have anyone finding me, even if it was the love of my life. I had to live without him, to be safe for myself and for William.
But he found me.
Six years I had got away with it. Got away from my old life that I didn't want, not only for me but for William. He didn't deserve the life I had, I just couldn't do that to him. It was the worst thing ever and I want him to have a normal life, well as close to normal as he can. So far it was going good. I had lived six years with no stress of being found or having to protect me or my son. I had six years of what it would've been like if I weren't in a gang to begin with, and I loved it. I loved not having to worry or stress about things. I loved it so much that I thought that this was going to be ok for me. But of course I have such bad like because my old life is now catching up with me again.
Everything was fine.
Before he found me. Before he made me and my son known to my old life, something I didn't want to happen, ever.
Everything was fine.
There are still people out there for me. Harry may not know this but I know it. They contacted me a month before I gave birth and that's when I disappeared and came here. Since then no one has contacted me or found me. However now, now Harry knows where I am which means they cant be far behind.
Everything was fine.
As I drove me and William home I was so lost in my thoughts. I didn't know what I should do. I cant let William have the life I had. I will protect my son no matter what and that's what I'm going to do.
I know it might sound dramatic but if Harry found me it will only be a couple more day maybe even a week before the people who are after me find me. However unlike Harry who just wanted to be reunited, these people want me dead.
"Mummy?" William asked confused.
I looked at him and noticed I had parked outside of our house but hadn't moved.
"Sorry honey, lets go in yea?" I smiled at him as he nodded, jumping out the car, running up to the door.
I slowly got out the car and locked it behind me before looking around. Great. Now I was stressed and worried like before. Once I realised no one was here, I walked into the house with William.
"Get ready for bed Will!" I shouted up at him as he darted up the stairs.
"But Mum." He wined and I gave him the mum look I had adopted since I had him.
"Now" I said.
He slowly shrugged off to the bathroom to brush his teeth before getting changed in his pyjamas. I sighed as walked into the kitchen getting a sandwich ready for us, for dinner as I didn't realise how late it was now.
"Mummy are you ok?" I heard his delicate little voice call from the kitchen doorway.
I looked down at my hands and only just noticed how aggressively I was chopping the ingredients to go in the sandwiches.
"Of course I am sweetie" I said, putting the knife down and turning to look at him.
He stood there in his superman pyjamas looking so tired, making him look even more innocent. As he rubbed his eyes I couldn't help but think of Harry. He resembles him so much, sometimes it hurts me to look at William. He has Harry's curly locks and green eyes but seeing him standing there all tired just reminds me of Harry in the mornings. How his voice was so raspy and how he would always rub his eyes before opening them. He looked so cute when he was tired and I couldn't help but think his son looked the same.
The same son that he doesn't know about. The one that's growing up without a father.
"I'm too tired to eat mum, can I just go to bed?" William asked and I nod with a sigh escaping my lips.
"Of course honey" I said walking with him upstairs to tuck him in.
He laid down on his single bed as I put his blue cover over his tiny body. I kissed the top of his head and his cheek as I made sure he was tucked in nice and tight.
"Goodnight sweetie" I whispered as his eyes closed. "Mummy loves you" I said the same three words I've been saying to him since he was born.
"Love you too Mum" William whispered back as he finally dropped off to sleep.
I made sure he was far gone in sleeping before turning off his light and shutting his door. I made my way down stairs and finished the sandwich for me before sitting in the living room with the TV on low. I was too caught up in my thoughts anyway to even notice what was on the TV.
I was paranoid again. I was stressed again. I was worried again. I was all the things I was when I was living my old life and I hated it. I was starting to love my new life with William. Not having to worry about anything but him falling over and hurting himself. But now, now Harry was back and that could only mean so was my old life. I didn't want to be this person again, not now I have William. I hate the person I was before and I don't know if I can come back from that again, as well as I did the first time. I've turned into a good person for William right now and I'm scared if my old life catches back up with me, I wont be able to come back to this person for William again. I'm scared for whats to come, not to me but for William. If the people who are after me find out I have a children, they are more likely to go after him to get back at me than me. Over my dead body will that happen. I will do anything to protect my little boy.
I got snapped out of my thoughts by a car outside my house. I turned the TV off and listened. Hearing it drive past before coming back again. It did this twice as I looked out the window at it. It was a black jeep. I didn't know anyone who owned a black jeep. I turned thr living room light off before walking into the kitchen to get the gun I had hidden in a cupboard for safety. I patted around in the cupboard for a minute before my hand held the familiar shape. I pulled it out and kept it by my thigh before walking back towards the living room. I peeked out the window and saw the car had now stopped in front of my house. I looked at the number plate but I didn't recognise it. Suddenly I saw the figure jump out the car and lock it before heading up my drive way. He was quite small for a man but had broad shoulders. He was wearing a white top with a black jacket and jeans. I would of thought this was Harry if the mans hair wasn't straight and short instead of Harry's long curly hair. He looked around him as he walked towards my door and that's when I stepped away from the window and stood in front of my door. I didn't know who this man was but with how many times he drove past my house, it seemed like he was looking for something, or someone. William was just upstairs and I don't want him to be involved or hear anything for this, so as the man knocked I didn't open the door, hoping he would just go away, realising its late. However he didn't go away because when he realised I weren't going to answer, he knocked again but louder. I didn't want William to end up waking up, so I walked closer to the door with my gun starting to rise. I twisted the handle and opened the door, holding the gun now in the mans face.
"Wow, April put the gun down its only me, no harm!" The man said putting his hands up as he looked at the gun and then to me scared.
However I did has he said and put the gun back down to my thigh as I recognised the voice. It was so familiar. A voice I hadn't heard in six years and didn't think I would hear again but here he was. Standing in front of me, at my house in Kent with my son sleeping in the room upstairs.
"Louis?"
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OOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WHATS LOUIS DOING AT APRILS HOUSE AND NOT IN LONDON WITH THE BOYS?!?!?
SORRY HAVENT UPDATED IN A WHILE IVE BEEN WORKING LOADS LATELY AND ALSO BEEN REDECORATING MY ROOM SO THATS BEEN KEEPING ME BUSY BUT I DID SAY THIS STORY WILL HAVE SLOW UPDATES BUT IM STILL SORRY:( I WILL TRY AND UPDATE AS MUCH AS I CAN I PROMISE:)
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