Sulli's
Malalakas na sigawan ang naririnig ko, cheers of people who're watching. Karamihan ay pawang mga nagpupustahan. Mas binilisan ko ang pagpapaandar ng motor ko.
Someone overtook me and so I made a drift, slowed down, and in a blink of an eye, I drove in a lightning-like speed, surpassing them. Lihim akong napangisi nang mapansin kong ako na ang nangunguna sa karera. The sound of the motorcycles echoed around me along with the scream of the thrilled audiences.
Sa mga ganitong pagkakataon lang ako nasisiyahan sa ingay.
"And...we have a winner!"
I smirked as I slowed down the engine of my motor. Bumaba ako pagkatapos ilabas ang stand nito. Nakangiti naman siyang lumapit sa'kin, hinapit ako sa baywang at walang pakundangang hinalikan ako sa labi ng ilang segundo.
Hiyawan naman ang karamihan sa mga kalalakihan na para bang nakapanood ng live show.
"You did great, love," She whispered on my ear, biting it seductively.
"Shut up, September Imperial." I pushed her gently and rolled my eyes heavenward. Ngumiti lang naman siya at kumindat.
Naglakad kami upang kunin yung money prize at kamayan ang mga nakalaban ko na karamihan ay lalaki. They knew me though. Not as Sulli Trajico the businesswoman but Sulli.
Just Sulli.
Malaki rin ang nakuha ko. Nang makuha ang premyo ko ay kaagad na kaming naglakad ni Sep papunta sa motor ko nang harangin kami ng isang lalaki. He's handsome but he's not my type. Mukhang gagawa ng gulo 'to anytime.
Ngumiti siya at walang kahiya-hiya na pinasadahan kami ni September ng tingin mula ulo hanggang paa. Kaagad naman siyang humawak sa baywang ko possessively.
"Hey, beautiful ladies." Inilahad niya ang kamay sa harapan namin. "I'm Lucky."
Walang tumanggap sa kamay niya kaya napapahiyang ibinaba niya ito bago tumikhim. Pa-preskong ngumiti siya. "Kanina ko pa kasi kayo tinitingnan. And you two caught my interest."
"So?" Pagtataray ko. Si September naman ay walang reaction. Naglakad kami at akmang lalagpasan na 'tong panggulong lalaking 'to nang hawakan niya sa braso ang kasama ko.
"Whoa, wait!" Tiningnan ko siya ng masama pero nakangisi lang siya. "Pakipot kayo masyado. Can this be any hotter?"
Fuck this fuckboy.
"Man, we don't need anythin' with you so fuckin'. Back. Off." May halong gigil na sambit ni September sa lalaki na nalimutan ko agad ang pangalan. Iba ang dating nitong kasama ko ngayon, kaya rin pala niya maging ganito kaseryoso, although medyo nakakatakot dahil parang anytime ay mananakit siya sa way ng pagtingin niya sa lalaki.
Pero mukhang makapal pa yata sa adobe ang pagmumukha ng lalaking kaharap namin dahil parang walang nangyari na napailing ito, like he's been put into challenge. "Chill. I just wanna enjoy with the both of you. Is she your girlfriend?"
Tinaasan siya ng kilay ni September. "So?"
"Cool!" He beamed. "Then maybe we can go somewhere where we can have fun, together...what do you think?" It's obvious that he's asking for a threesome and it's disgusting. "I'll make you two feel good."
Nanlaki ang mata ko nang maglabas ng knife si September. She twisted the man's arm and aimed the tip of the knife into his neck. Where the heck did she get that fucking knife?
"I. Fuckin'. Told. You. To. Back. Off." She whispered harshly, may diin sa bawat syllable. "Ain't lucky tonight, fucker. Back off before I slash this pitiful neck of yours."
Namumutlang tumango naman yung lalaki. Binitawan na siya ni September, kaagad itong lumayo at tumakbo pero bago siya tuluyang maglaho sa paningin namin ay huminto pa ito, he raised his middle finger. "Fuck you!"
"Fuck yourself, too." Bulong nitong katabi ko. Walang imik na naglakad na lang ulit kami hanggang sa makarating sa motor. Sumakay na ako at siya sa likuran ko.
I gulped when she snaked her arms on my waist, her hands on my stomach, and her face buried on my nape. I could feel her hot breath on my skin. I started driving nang hindi siya pinapansin. Sa kalagitnaan ng pagmamaneho ay humigpit ang pagkakayakap niya sa'kin.
"Do you still want to continue this? Racing?"
"Oo. Bakit?"
"Pa'no kung maka-encounter ka ulit ng gano'ng tao?" Mahinang tanong niya.
"Kaya nga kita isinama, 'di ba?"
Hindi na siya sumagot. Himala. Hindi siya nangungulit ngayon. Or siguro, inaantok na siya. Madaling araw na rin kasi. Pagkarating namin sa condo ay umakyat na kami para makarating nasa sa sarili naming unit.
Bakit ko nga ba siya isinama sa akin? Alam ko kung ano yung isinagot ko kanina, pero alam kong may mas malalim pang dahilan. I was stressed and I want to unwind but there's a part in my system na hinahanap-hanap si September.
Nababaliw na ako sa kakaisip sa kanya gayong palagi ko lang naman siyang kasama.
"Sulli, sleep with me."
Kumunot ang noo ko. "I have my own unit."
"Please?"
Hindi ko alam kung anong meron pero napatango na lang ako. Ano bang nakain nito ngayon? Parang naging maamong tupa bigla. Hindi kaya may binabalak siyang masama?
Napailing ako. You and your imagination, Sulli. Malala ka na.
Binigyan niya ako ng plain blue shirt at boxer para makapagpalit na 'ko. Pumasok ako sa banyo at naglinis ng katawan. Sumunod naman siya nang matapos ako. I sat on the edge of her bed, pinadausdos ko ang daliri sa surface ng kama, memories of our night together flashed on my head. That night when we...made love.
Naguguluhan na ako.
Humiga na ako pagkatapos kong iwaksi ang nasa isip. Seconds later ay lumabas na rin siya na as usual ay naka-underwear lang. Tumalikod ako mula sa view, pa-side ngayon ang higa ko. Pumikit ako nang maramdaman kong katabi ko na siya.
I felt her hands on my stomach and her breath on my nape. She sighed and pulled me closer, kissing my skin gently. Ako naman ay parang tuod na pinakikiramdaman ang ginagawa niya. I can't seem to stop her, hinihintay ko lang kung anong sunod niyang gagawin.
There is something new inside me. And I am afraid...because I think I already knew the answer.
"Sulli."
I didn't respond.
"'Uy, Sulli." She repeated childishly.
And again, I answered her with silence. Why does it feel like her voice—her feminine, sultry voice—became a lot more alluring and beautiful?
"Sulli." She called, prolonging the last syllable of my name. Ngayon ay mas nagmukha itong bata.
"What?"
She didn't answer. Instead, pinailalim niya ang kamay sa loob ng damit ko. Kaagad na bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko. It's not because I am scared, but because it feels good. Baka madala ako.
Sinubukan kong alisin ang kamay niya ngunit ayaw nitong magpapigil. Napakagat ako sa ibabang labi nang magsimulang gumalaw ang labi niya sa batok ko, paakyat sa aking tainga. I heaved a deep breath. I gritted my teeth to stop myself from moaning.
Unti-unting tumataas ang kamay niya kaya hinigpitan ko ang pagkakahawak dito. "September, st-stop."
She bit my earlobe, pinanindigan ako ng balahibo nang hipan niya ang loob ng tainga ko. Unti-unting lumalalim ang paghinga ko kasabay ng panlalambot ng braso at binti ko. Hindi ko na napigilan ang malikot niyang kamay nang makarating ito sa dibdib ko, inside my sports bra. She caressed my left breast. I gripped the bed sheet tighter and tighter. My legs closed and my toes curled.
Napapikit ako nang bumulong siya sa tainga ko. "You can't resist me. Why?"
"Shut up."
Kahit ako ay naghahanap din ng sagot. Bakit nga ba? Bakit kahit anong gawin ko, sa huli ay ako pa rin ang napapasunod niya?
Tell me, September Imperial, what kind of sorcery do you have? Why do I feel like this?
"Your heartbeat is incredibly fast," She whispered, I could feel the warmth of her palm, idiniin niya ito sa kaliwang dibdib ko at wala sa sariling napaarko ang aking katawan. "Why?"
"I...told you to shut...up!" I said in deep breaths. I'm starting to feel aroused.
Damn her voice, her breath on my skin, her hand touching me, her body close to mine. Damn everything about her.
"What—" Pumunta siya sa ibabaw ko. Her left hand pinned both of my hands firmly at the top of my head, her other hand still inside my shirt, specifically on my breast. Her right knee is in between my thighs. "Stop."
She leaned down and kissed me. I groaned when she delved her tongue and sucked mine quickly, almost leaving me breathless.
I gasped for air when she left my lips, wanting for more. She kisses me down to my neck, to my collarbone, and nipped it. I clenched my fist, I bit my lower lip hard, I closed my legs but her knee permitted me not to do so. Her hand played with my already hardened nipple and squeezed it.
"Stop...wait. Stop it," I barely said. Para akong hinahabol sa bilis ng paghinga ko. Unti-unti nang gumagapang ang init sa katawan ko, from the fast beating of my heart, down to my throbbing, aching core.
Umangat ang halik niya sa tainga ko, mariing sinisip at kinagat niya ang likurang bahagi ng tainga ko. Halos panawan ako ng lakas sa ginagawa niya. For sure that will leave a mark.
Tumingin siya sa'kin, her eyes mirrored both desire and...love.
Tama ba? Tama ba yung nababasa ko sa mata niya?
"You act so cold, Sulli. But your body states the opposite."
Napaiwas ako ng tingin. Because that's who I am. That's what I chose to be.
"You love it. Every kisses," She kissed my forehead, my nose, my lips, my ear, neck, jaw... "Every marks I'm giving you," She sucked and bit my collarbone hard and I moaned weakly. "Every time my hands roam your body."
Inalis na niya ang kamay sa dibdib ko. Humaplos ito sa aking pisngi, pababa sa leeg, pababa hanggang sa tiyan ko. Napapikit ako ng bumaba pa ito, until her hands settled on my core, inside my damped underwear. I tried to closed my legs ngunit pinaghihiwalay niya lang ito ng sariling binti niya.
"See? You love every inch of it. I can tell just by how wet you are."
"T...take your hands off." I said, almost a whisper. Tumingin ako sa kanya. "Please."
"Do you want me to?"
Hindi ako makasagot. Sulli, bakit hindi ka makasagot?
Gulung-gulo na ako sa ginagawa niya. Naguguluhan na 'ko sa nararamdaman ko.
"You're hard to read, Sulli," She said, her fingers slithered between the folds of my gem, up to my already sensitive clitoris. Mas humigpit ang pagkakahawak niya sa magkabilang kamay ko. Napaawang ang labi ko na ikinangisi niya. "Why can't you be honest?"
"Stop..." Her fingers rubbed my sensitive bud slowly, then she went faster and faster by seconds. "Sh...shit!" Hindi ko na napigilang mapaungol.
"You won't be this way if it's just lust. You know you are not that kind of woman," I tried to stop myself from making any sound as she continued to assault me. "There is something more...right?"
I didn't answer. I don't want to. Itinikom ko ng mariin ang bibig kahit na ang hirap. She's making me so confused and overwhelmed with pleasure at the same time.
"Sulli, there is a connection." She rubbed faster, she parted my legs more, making me vulnerable. "Answer me."
"I..." Nab-blangko ang utak ko. Hindi ako makapag-isip ng tamang sasabihin para tumigil na siya.
Alam ko kung anong pinatutungkulan niya. Natatakot ako sa pwedeng sagot. Sa sagot na alam ko na, sa maaari kong sabihin lalo na kapag nadala ako masyado.
"Fuck!" She delved her finger inside me without warning, halos mapaangat ang katawan ko sa ginawa niya. She quickly thrust faster. "I...t-told you to stop—shit!"
She kissed my neck hard. "Do you want me to be honest first?" She looked at me then smiled, my jaw dropped when she added another finger inside of me. Pain and pleasure etched my flushed face, beads of sweat forming on my forehead. She slowed down her pace. "I love you."
Did...she just...confess her feelings?
"Sulli Trajico, I love you." She kissed my forehead. "With every breath that I take. I love you, without me noticing how it turned deep. I love you."
I bit my lower lip, trying to stop myself from smiling. I closed my eyes, trying to stop myself from crying. I want to cry. I want to...because I feel...happy. And I don't know why. Pakiramdam ko ay nakahinga ako ng maluwag nang marinig 'yon sa kanya. The sincerity in her voice, the way she looked at me...ramdam ko yung sinasabi niya. Ramdam kong totoo.
I felt a door inside me unlocked. A puzzle found its last missing piece. Pakiramdam ko nakalabas ako sa isang mahabang maze of confusion. A wonder how it clears my mind just this instant.
"Bitawan mo ang kamay ko." I firmly said.
She frowned, confusion mirrored her face but she obliged. Binitawan niya ang kamay ko. She stop thrusting though her fingers are still inside me.
I snaked my arms on her nape and kissed her. Hindi pa siya nakagalaw sa simula pero unti-unti ay humalik na rin siya pabalik, unti-unti na rin niyang iginalaw ang daliri sa loob ko, pabilis ng pabilis.
Now I got no inhibitions.
I moaned while we kiss. Each second mas nadadagdagan yung pressure sa loob ko. The pleasure becoming more unbearable. My breath went faster. Her fingers dig deeper and harder. Pakiramdam ko ay mapupugto ang hininga ko sa ginagawa niya.
"Getting tighter," She said, she continued thrusting faster, she curled her finger upward and I almost screamed her name. She smirked. "Scream my name, please..."
"September!" Idiniin niya ang daliri. I can feel it. She didn't stop kahit na halos masabunutan ko na siya. "Se-September, s-stop! I'm—"
My arched back. My jaw dropped, I opened my eyes and looked at her as I released a long moan.
She thrust slower as I came hard. Juices flowed from me. My body shook because of the intensity. I hugged her tighter and buried my face on her neck, I panted and kisses her neck.
Tuluyan nang bumagsak ang katawan ko. Nakatingin lang ako sa kanya habang nagpapakawala ng mabilis at malalim na hininga.
She kissed my eyes nang may tumulong luha mula doon, probably due to the aftermath of what we've done.
I think, I should be honest, too, this time.
"September..." I gave her a chaste kiss. "I love you...too."
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