HARRY
She has a child.
Was all that I could think of on the drive home. I couldn't get it out of my head. Nothing could over ride that information right now.
She has a child.
The only girl I've ever loved has a child. She's moved on from me and now has someone else, they have a child together.
She has a child.
There was nothing I could do now. She has moved on.
She has a child and I wasted six years of my life.
Six years I searched for her and right now I don't know what is was for. When I started searching I had so much hope. Hope that I would find the only girl I've ever fallen in love with and we would be reunited. We would be reunited and everything would be fine.
But I wasted six years of my life.
Nothing good came out of this. She isn't the girl I fell in love with anymore. She's blunt and closed off again. I don't know if she'll ever be the girl I fell in love with again.
I wasted six years of my life.
And for what? For someone who doesn't even want me anymore.
All that hope I had in the beginning was gone. No hope was left. This didn't turn out the way I thought it would and I don't know what to think or feel. I didn't know what to tell the boys but I had to tell them something.
Walking up the drove to our house seemed so much more longer than before. It seemed to be going on for forever but then I was walking slow.
Everything seemed different now.
It was two in the morning but somehow I knew the boys would be up. Putting the key into the door, twisting it until I heard the click. The door opened and I stood there for a couple of seconds.
Everything seemed different now.
"Hello? Harry is that you?" I heard my Irish best mate's voice travel through the halls.
"Yea" I called back, not even recognising my own voice.
Everything seemed different now.
I was tired. Not because I had been driving all day and not because I needed sleep. My body and mind were tired. I didn't know what to do with myself anymore. I was feeling lost. I had devoted six years of my life to looking for the only girl I've ever loved and now I've found her, she doesn't want me. Everything my life stood for is gone. I thought as soon as April was back in my arms everything would be alright again, but how wrong was I.
I slammed the door shut with all the strength I had left, trying to get my frustration out on something.
"Whoa" I heard from the living room, making me find where the boys were easier.
Without realising it, I was now standing in the doorway of the living room with all the boys staring at me. The look on my face probably showed defeat. They knew something wasn't right.
Louis and Niall sat on the couch with a space between then while Zayn and Liam were on the second couch, that sat next to the first one.
"Couldn't find her?" Liam asked curiously. "I told you we should've made a better pla-"
"I found her" I interrupted him before he went off about how he was right.
"Oh"
"Where is she then?" Zayn asked.
"Back in Kent" I announced taking a seat on the couch next to Louis.
"What?" They all said.
"I'm confused. What happened? I mean you found her, shouldn't you be happy and most of all shouldn't she be here!" Niall exclaimed and I sighed, shaking my head as I looked down at my feet.
"She has a child." Was all I could manage to spit out as I put my head in my hands and for the first time in six years I cried.
The boys were quiet once them words came out of my mouth. It was obvious that they didn't know what to say, as well as not wanting to make it worse.
"How-What?" Louis said, not being able to get the words out.
"Exactly what I was and are still thinking." I choked out, bringing my head out of my hands.
"How do you know this?" Liam asked, so I told them the story.
I told them how I saw her sitting on her own in a park. How I went over to her and we started talking. I told them what she said when I told her I had been searching for her for six years and they seemed as sad as me to hear that. Then I said how her son, William, run up to her and from then I got introduced to him before they left. The boys were shocked, that's for sure.
"I cant believe it" Niall said what they were all thinking.
"Well believe" I groaned, wiping my tears away.
"She cant do this!" Louis exclaimed, obviously getting has angry as I was when she told me I wasted six years of my life. "You weren't the only one wasting your life. We all did. We all wanting one of our best friends back. We wanted our best mate to have his girl back. We all wanted her back! She cant just say that and then leave again! No its not fair! She cant have a happy ending if we cant!" Louis ranted and we all nodded agreeing with him.
"I agree what she didn't want to speak or say anything else to me." I sighed. "She left again as soon as she had the chance. She didn't think twice before saying yes to William to go home. Hell she isn't the girl I fell for anymore, she's the girl I first met. The one who was closed off and didn't let anyone in. She's blunt and doesn't seem to care about anyone but her son. She's that April again and I don't know what to do or feel right now!" I exclaimed, throwing my hands up while I stood up from the couch.
"You have to fight for her, Haz. You have to show her what she wants because we all know its you, this has to just be an act! You have to go back and fight for her!" Niall cheered, thinking his idea was the best.
"Yes, I don't know why you came back anyway! I mean the old Harry would've stayed and tried to get her to speak to him!" Zayn joined in and I shook my head as I walked towards the hall.
"I cant. I came back because there was nothing there for me. I didn't want to stay another minute in that place. I just need time" I whispered the end.
"How much time Harry?! Huh? Another six years! You cant waste another minute of your life now that we know where she is!" Louis announced.
"I just need time ok! Just leave me alone to think" I said getting angry at what Louis said, even though I know he was only trying to help.
I turned my back on them after that sentence left my mouth, no one else said anything else to me, knowing I just wanted to be alone with my thoughts.
I didn't know what to think or feel. I didn't know if I should do what they said and fight for her. Fight for us. I didn't know to maybe just leave it. Move on like she has. Start my own family with someone else. I didn't want to waste anymore time on someone who doesn't want me. I hate that I wasted six years of my life already for her. I don't know if I want to waste more. I don't know if she's going to be worth it in the end.
Everything seemed so different now.
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