(Might be triggering for some people)
DIANA
I ran out of the house, tears streaming down my face. My legs hurt from running and my vision was blurry. I couldn't stay in that house any longer.
Dads words played through my head
Disobeying your parents, sneaking out, is this how we raised you? To be some kind of whore?
Whore
Whore
Whore
That's what you are Diana
That guy should of raped you, no one would care if he did.
You fuck everything up. Your relationship with Kiki, your relationship with your family, everything.
That's why all these bad things happen, because of you.
You should just die or just
Kill yourself.
I violently cried as I continued to run. I didn't even know where, just anywhere but here. I could hear voices calling after me, but I didn't stop. My cheek still hurt from the slap I had received.
"Diana! Stop!" Jordan's worried voice called but I didn't stop.
I continued to run, despite him begging for me to stop.
I am a whore, I'm am a disappointment, and a failure.
I have failed in so many ways that my parents don't even know about.
Soon, I felt my foot hit something and I fell. Not bothering to get up, I sobbed violently, my body shaking. I didn't want to move, or to breathe.
They didn't even know about the stalker
I had shut them out so much they didn't know a thing
Oh how I was screwed
I felt strong arms wrap around me, and lift me up. I knew it was Jordan, and I let him hold me. I continued to cry as he sat down on something and tried to soothe me.
"It's okay, babe. Shh, I'm here now," Jordan spoke softly, attempting to sooth me, but I continued to sob. He put me on his lap and I cried into his chest.
"H-He's right, I'm all those things. I deserved that slap, after everything that has happened. After all I've done. I wish I would of just died in the shooting, or someone would of killed me," I told Jordan, as his grip around me tightened, in a overprotective manner.
He lifted my chin up and I caught sight of his face. His piercing green eyes held saddens and protectiveness in them. His thumb moved to my face to wipe off some tears.
"Don't say that, none of this is your fault. Your dad had no right to hit you. If that son of a bitch does that again I will-"
"Please don't do anything Jordan, please don't make it worse. My dad, was just mad. It's my fault, I should of told him a long time ago. He gets really mad sometimes," I told Jordan, while he held me in a hug.
"I won't, don't worry. If he doesn't accept you, then I do. Because I love you," He said to me. I felt myself feel happy for one second and before I knew it, my lips were on his.
The kids was soft, yet sweet. After we pulled apart, we stayed in the positions we were in.
I loved Jordan too. But deep down, a small voice told me that all the things I loved get destroyed by me.
Soon, we heard footsteps and Jordan turned around but I stay where I was.
"Can I talk to her?" A voice asked.
Kiki
I didn't want to see Kiki now, she would tell me how I fucked up more. But I knew I would have to talk to her eventually.
"Sure, I'll give you your space," Jordan spoke, as he kissed me softly on my head and left.
As soon as he left me, I felt alone again. In a world where no one understood me.
I drank because I decided I wanted to try it. I still kept drinking and now, I can't live without it. Every time I see a beer, or something alcohol related, I can't help but pick it up and drink the poison.
But it felt good, to get rid of all my problems.
"Hey," Kiki's voice said, as she sat down next to me,
"Why are you here?" I quickly asked her, not beating around the bush. I faced her, and I must of looked horrible with my makeup everywhere and tears on my face.
I knew I still had to apologize to Kiki, but now wasn't the best time.
"I just wanted to talk to you," She said in a small voice. I thought of all the reasons she came here, to lecture me? Or to tell me to apologize to dad?
"I don't wanna to apologize to him, I will not," I stated.
"I wasn't going to say that. I was going to say that, I'm sorry," Kiki told me. I felt my eyes widened with surprise, as Kiki looked at me, awaiting my reaction. I felt regret, for all those days of being a bitch to Kiki. She didn't deserve it.
You deserve it instead
"You don't have to a-apologize to me. I should be apologizing to you," I said to Kiki.
"I know you were going to, but I pushed you away. I don't want you doing something you regret Diana," She said to me, concerned in her voice.
To late for that....
I then realized that Kiki was trying to care, and trying to make things right.
"It's okay Kiki," I told her.
I flashed her a sad smile, as I gave her a hug. She hugged me back.
It felt good to have my sister back
"I'm sorry too. I shouldn't of pushed you down the cliff, or have fought with you," I told Kiki as she laughed. Pretty soon, both of us were laughing.
It felt good for a second before it died down.
"What happened last night?" She asked before my smile faded. I looked down at the ground, the floor becoming very interesting.
The memories of last night flooded back to me, as I tried to push them away, but they didn't go away.
"I don't want to talk about it, it's too much right now." I told Kiki, as she nodded.
I wish they would just go away, but they won't......
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Kiki and Diana made up, yay! I was happy writing that scene, lmao! Next chapter will take a lighter tone, and it's gonna be a funny chapter!
Thoughts?
On a side note, who wants to come up with ship names for some of the characters?
Bye guys, ily 💓💓