Authors note
Copyright of freya whyte
The book is much better than it is at the start btw :)
This is a new book so guys id love it if you recommend it too your friends regardless whether you like it or not because they might like it?
Guys this book is gonna have a load of swearing and a bit of sexual content in it so if your gonna judge please dont read.
I want to get this book published, please support my dream..
Many thanks
Freya xx
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prologue
"Your so beautiful." dean told me, whilst gazing at me like i'm a goddess, princess or something?
''Dean i really am not. i don't know how many times we've been through this? i'm average at my best. In fact i don't even know what you see in me, you could get much better to be honest." i replied with all my insecurities which played on my mind all the time with my relationship with dean. i guess i was worried, worried that he would find someone better than me,someone who could make him happier than i ever could.
"Kirsty you really do need to believe in yourself and stop being so hard on yourself. Everyone is beautiful in their own way whether its their personality, looks..." he explained, he had a point a really good point, but it didn't wash away all those insecurities of mine..
Me and dean, we have something special between us like i don't know?
I love him. he loves me.
People say teenagers don't understand true love, but me and dean we do, we've been together for over a year now.. Yeah its been a tough year like arguments, break ups getting back together, but it's just like every other teenage relationship.
Dean treats me like a princess.. like i'm special, when im really not. The amount of shit i've been through the last few years, the amount of bullying. I guess it's scarred me..
"Kirsty what are you thinking about?" Dean asked me, whilst trying to be a mind reader, which kinda failed no one could ever tell what went on in that head of mine, even i couldn't.
"Nothing." i lied, i was a good liar, a really good liar. you have to lie if you have a life like mine..
"It doesn't seem like nothing." he frowned, as he was uncertain about my previous reply..
whatever.
He pulled me into a hug, he's like my boy best friend, and my boyfriend?
"Kirsty, we've already spoken about this, stop being so insecure about yourself! Your perfect, i don't know if you're trying to push me away or something? but if you are its not going to work, because i'll be at your side, no matter what." he tried reassuring me. aw all these words were so cute, how they were being said to me.. before dean no one really cared about me or showed one bit of interest in me, not even my parents.
i thought that was a good thing.. Him sticking at my side no matter what.
Whilst trying to take in, what dean had told me, how special he had made me feel by his little "speech". i had got interrupted, by something which would switch my mood.
"right i've gotta go smoke a joint, i'll be right back."
Him and his weed its awful, like he's obsessed, addicted, i don't even know. He has a problem with it though, a big problem one that i can't fix..
He loves me, but he ditched me to go smoke a joint?
Yep, typical. Sounds about right to be honest.
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New book yes i know the prologue is short but before you decide whether your gonna read this book or add it too your library wait a few days and read chapter one then decide ;p
i just changed the proglogue
Freya xx