"Do you want me to tutor you?"
Staring wide eyed at Maddox, my slightly chapped lips opened in surprise- not believing what I just heard.
"Do you want me to tutor you?"
This one simple question- a simple phrase, sentence- echoed through my mind as if it was a song that an earworm drilled into my mind so deeply that roots began to take over my brain, leaving me with nothing but that one simple question.
"Do you want me to tutor you?"
It's suppose to be simple. Yes or no. No or yes. But it wasn't. It wasn't that simple to answer a simple question to a person that takes control over your brain, someone that causes wild butterfly's to open their cages to then set them free to create a weird feeling in your stomach. Someone that sometimes seems to have superpowers, because whenever you touch it seems as if thousand of electrical volts are sent through your body, but those volts are harmless- it seems as though they create pleasure or a giggle-y feeling inside of you.
"Do you want me to tutor you?"
So, no, it was not easy to answer this question.
"Do you want me to tutor you?"
"Do you want me to tutor you?"
"Do you want me to tutor you?"
"Whisper?"
"Do you want me to tutor you?"
"Do you want me to tutor you?"
"Whisper?!"
The haze that was in my mind suddenly evaporated, leaving me not only free from the one hunting question but also leaving me confused about my surroundings. I looked at Maddox who had a worried and confused expression on his face, but in his beautiful eyes there was more. Fear. He had fear in his eyes-why? I don't know.
"Huh? Oh, I'm so sorry Dox, I seemed to have spaced out for a moment." I already could feel the warmth on my cheeks spreading, leaving my face flushed. Maddox only nodded slightly, indicating that it's 'okay'. But my guts kicked and slapped me, saying that it indeed was not 'okay', it was not okay because his beautiful lilac eyes did not meet my ocean once.
As if something took control over my whole being, words blurted out of my mouth before I could even stop them or even thing about what I was saying.
"Yes!" Eyes wide I stared at Maddox, quickly pulling myself together I took a deep breath and tried to act as normal as I could get. "I mean, it would be lovely if you could tutor me."
Great, now you sound like a grandma!
I didn't have a time to dual on how embarrassing I was when Maddox gave me a lopsided grin, his eyes lazy and yet crazy with the flood of emotions swimming in them. I like these kind of smiles, the once that it almost is neutral to have on your face they always show the most emotions.
"Great," his smile seemed to widen-as if everything was just now sinking in. "So maybe we could meet up Friday? After school? In the library?"
Here it goes again. Something squeezing my lungs so tight that I was short of breath, the wild butterfly creating a hovak in my tummy and my brain being surrounded by a thick cloud of deep lilac.
As Maddox looked deep into my eyes; his smile still attached to his handsome face, I was lost and the only thing that I could seem to do is smile and nod.
He smiled, "Great."
I smiled, "Great."
"Oh please! Not that Fault In Our Stars shit!" Jacobs voiced said, popping the little bubble that me and Dox seemed to have created.
"Eh, dude it's good that at least they aren't sucking each others faces off." Liam's voice followed.
Yupp, there was a bubble but now its gone. Yupp.
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I stared at my someone who for some reason I call my best friend, as she stared out the window with a hungry stare and a determined look on her face.
"I see my beloved, I see Pizza"
"It's not even ours-"
"Shhh! Don't ruin my dreams!" We both laughed at how serious she can get with food and flopped down on the couch.
"So..." Charity's voice was curious-excited even- the high pitch could be heard in her voice as well as a bit of amusement. I turned around to face her only to see her light coloured eyebrow wiggling and a spark shining in her eyes.
"So, what? What are you looking at?" I asked, mouth full of Nutella covered banana.
Charity rolled her teddy bear eyes and smirked, one side of her cheeks lifting, making one eye smaller than the other, her head tilted to one side her blonde locks bouncing on the way.
"Oh you know what I mean!" Receiving no answer from me she pursed her lips and signed, "I mean what happened between you and Maddox! And you call me a dimwit!"
Instantly my eyes widen and the clocks in my brain started turning, trying to come up with some kind of excuse; even though it was not needed because no matter how much I wish that something did, nothing happened between me and Dox- Wait what? Its not like I want something to happen between me and Maddox, we are only friends and that's how it gonna stay, right?
"I don't know what you mean Charity, nothing happened between me and him, he only offered to help me in a subject that I struggle with. That's it. Just a friendly offer."
There's one word that can describe Charity's expression at this moment and time. Really. Her whole pale porcelain face screamed 'really?'.
"Seriously? Whisper you can not tell me that it was just a 'friendly offer'! Because I'm quiet sure that even your parents could hear that it was anything but a 'friendly offer'. "
My red cheeks and confused eyes stared at her as something flipped in my stomach at the concept that it was something more. "Charity, it was just a friendly offer, Dox just saw that I was struggling, that's it!" I willed my seemingly deaf heart to listen to my screaming brain, screaming that Dox is just a friend.
Her teddy bear eyes rolled while a lopsided smile greeted her face like an old friend. "Sure, okay, whatever," she said with the smile still plastered to her face. "but really what happend? Do you like him? OMG you totally do! You can totally see that he's into you!" Her loud voice suddenly exclaimed with her eyes widening and a giddy look taking over her face.
In these kind of situations I'm happy that my parents are deaf because either my dad would either bring out his shotgun or they would turn deaf after hearing Charity's squeals.
"What?! No!" My shocked and panicked voice exclaimed just as loud as her's. "I don't like Maddox nor does he like me. We're friends, that's it." I tried to persuade my crazy best friend, yet somehow, it felt as if I was trying to persuade myself more than her. "I don't like Maddox" I said but for some reason it sounded wrong. "I do not like Maddox"
Nope.
"I do not like Maddox"
Nope. Still sounds wrong.
"No me gusta Maddox"
Still no.
My eyes widen as my best friend looked at me with a eyebrow raised as if I was the Mad Hatter.
"Holy cream, I like Maddox" And with that I flopped onto the living room floor, staring at the white ceiling. "Shit."
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So........Ello?
I know, I know I am a horrible author that hasn't updated in like 3 months? Maybe even more! I'm really sorry, I don't even really have an excuse and I know that this chapter sucks buuut to make it up to you I'll give you a tiny sneak peek at possible the next chapter.
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You hate me don't you? 😂😂😂😂😂