Song of the day Regret by He Shu Yu
ost Its Started With A Kiss
Wang Qing POV
"Qingge!!!"
I heard Daru calling my name from downstairs. He sound excited. I heard him run towards me and hug me.
"we found the donor!!!" I felt he hug me tightly in his arm.
"really?!!!"
"yes!!"
Thank u God.. :')
"how did u know?"
"ur mom call me..Qingge u will gain ur sight back" he sound excited
"yes..and I will see ur cute face again" I told him.
After saying that words he didn't give me a reply just his hug getting tighter.
"Daru??"
I can feel my shirt getting wet. Is he crying?
"Daru are u crying?"
There is silent sob from him.
"baby? Are y crying?"
"........"
"Daru?"
"Qingge..can u promise me something?"
Huh?
"promise?? What is it?"
"promise me if anything happen in the future please hear what ur heart say..I love u Qingge..I love u..please don't leave me"
I stroke his hair. Why he so emo today?
"silly boy..I will never leave u" I kiss his head..
NEVER...
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D Day (Surgery day)
Feng Jianyu POV
I was holding tightly his hand. His other hand being held by his mother.
"I will wait for u outside okay?" I told him.
Mrs Wang face look worried
"Qingzi..don't be scared okay.."
"mom..im not gonna die.." Wang Qing chuckled hearing his mom words.
"tch..this kid.." Mrs Wang said.
"sorry we have to bring the patient to the surgery room" suddenly a nurse interrupt our conversation.
"err..okay.." for the last time I hold tightly his hand.
The nurse stroll his bed towards the surgery room.
I took a deep breath.
"when will u going to tell him that u r not Daru" suddenly Mrs Wang asked me that killer question.
Sigh..
"after he gain his sight..like it or not I have to reveal the truth"
"so how about Daru? Did he still wanna stay there?"
Sigh" the last I time I call him he insists to stay there. Im sorry I felt guilty cuz my brother doing horrible thing to Qingge"
"at first I was mad but..actually I was grateful cuz Qingzi have u.."
"im just a replacement..."
"don't u ever think about that. he love you..i'm his mother i knew my son."
i don't know if i should smile or not cuz at the end the one that Qingge love is daru not me. it is a painful truth.
we were waiting for Qingge to finish his surgery. it is a painful thing to do cuz i'm afraid that anything happen to him. i don't wanna anything bad happen to him again.
after two hours a guy with a green shirt come out from the surgery room
"hows him doctor?" Mrs Wang asked
"he is okay..he still unconscious but the surgery is success. for now we didn't see the his body resist the cornea" the doctor told us.
Sigh thank God.. "Thank u doctor.." i told him
Suddenly the nurse stroll out his bed from the surgery room. He still unconscious. I felt relief seeing he is okay.
"Thank God nothing bad happen to him"
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2 weeks later
Ring..ring..ring..
"huh? Who is calling me?" I saw the number I didn't recognize
Suddenly I heard Wang Qing said "who is that?"
"huh? An unknown number..I didn't recognize this number"
"just answer it"
"ohh...hello who is this?"
"Dayu!!!!!" huh??
"sorry who is this?"
"Its Chen..don't u remember me?"
"Omg Chen!! How do u get my number?"
"Daru gave me..I met him last week."
"huh?? U in New York?"
"yup..I work there for almost 2 years bur now im back. We should meet up."
"sure..when?"
"hb tonight?"
"err..." I glance at Wang Qing who being silent for a moment.
"I don't think I have time tonight. Maybe next time?."
"tomorrow?? Dayu..I missed u so much"
Errr..
"sorry I can't"
I hear Chen sigh at the end of the line.
"okay..but if u change ur mind just message me okay?"
I laugh "okay.."
"bye Dayu.."
"bye.."
I end our conversation.
"who is that?" asked Wang Qing
"its Chen..I never thought that he will call me"
"who give him ur number?"
How should I answer..I f I answer Daru is the one who gave it he will suspect me.
"Dayu gave it to him"
"ohh....what he want"
"he asked me to go out with him"
"and ur answer?"
"no..no one will take care of u if i going out with him"
"just go Daru i'm fine. I can call my mom to accompany me. Sometimes u need time to urself" i felt happy to hear that he concern about me.
"seriously? u okay with that?"
"Daru i'm not crippled..i just temporarily blind. i can't wait to open this next week cuz i wanna see ur face. i missed seeing u smile"
his words like a knife in my heart. Next week...how will be his reaction when he know the truth. Honestly i'm sacred he will mad at me and ignore me. i don't wanna lose him :'(
"Daru?? are u there?"
i lost in my thought for a moment
"yes..i'm here."i walk towards and snuggled in his arm
"promise me that u will love me no matter what happen okay?"
he stroke my hair "i'm promise" i can feel he kiss my head
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Wang Qing POV
"are u okay if i'm living u with ur mom?"
"i'm okay.."
"are u sure u don't wanna come with me to meet up with Chen?"
i was a little bit annoy with his question.
"Daru..i'm okay. just go baby..i'm fine"
"Okay..."..he kissed my forehead before left. I heard him talking to my mom and then I heard him going out from the house. I heard my mom walk towards me.
"mom.. did he already left?" I asked
"yes.."
"okay lets go mom"
My mom sound hesitate "are u sure u wanna do this?" she asked me
"yes..I wanna surprise him mom"
"I don't think this is a great idea. I think we should wait for Daru. I'm sure he wanna be with u when u open the bandage. I think u will wanna hear something from him" she told me.
I felt weird hearing she said like that.
"something?? What is it? Sigh..its fine mom. I'm sure he will be happy" I told her
"Qingzi just promise me something okay. no mater what happen don't be mad at Daru okay?"
"mad?? why should i?" why she saying like that?
"it is just reminder to u" she told me
sigh.. "mom this is not important right now.lets go to the hospital right now before Daru come home" i told her.
"okay..okay lets go" at last..my mom say that words..
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"okay you can slowly open your eyes" i heard the doctor said that words.
slowly i open my eyes. a sudden light make me squint my eyes.
"slowly okay..u can close ur eyes for a moment before starting back"
I open my eyes again slowly and everything was bright to me. I saw my mom standing in front of me. She was crying.
"Qingzi..can u see me?" my mom asked me.
I nodded
The doctor check again my eyes before he showing his fingers.
"how many is this?" he asked. He was showing two fingers
"two.."
"how about this" he show me his 4 fingers
"four.."
The doctor smile.
"I think ur eyes is fine"
my mom run towards me and hug me tightly in his arm. "Qingzi...."
"mom.. i can't breath let go of me" i told her
she stroke my face "i'm so happy seeing u gain ur sight back" she that to me.
i saw my dad trying to hold his tears at the back
"dad?"
"i'm happy for u son.." he told me. i know he love me but he was really cold when its come to showing his feelings.
"sorry for interrupting ur moment but i need to discuss with patient about his condition" the doctor said.
"oh..o...o.. sorry..err can we hear it too?" my mom asked
"sure..please take ur seat"
so the doctor explain to me what to do and don't during my heal time. my eyes still in weak condition so i have to be careful. Honestly i was distracted along the discussion cuz my mind was fill with the image of Daru. i can't wait to meet him. i really missed seeing his face. Daru just wait for me okay.
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i was sitting silently at the living room of my apartment. i was waiting for Daru to come home. My mom and dad already left few minutes ago and now i was alone in this apartment. Suddenly i heard someone unlocked the door. i get up from my sit and walk towards the front door and there he was Daru his back was facing me cuz he was closing the door but when he saw me he was shocked. i was smiling at him
"Daru...."
"Qingge??"
i run towards him and hug him tightly in my arm "surprise..." i look at him
"Qingge??" he look shocked seeing me
i stroke his face "i already open the bandage..yes i can see now.. and yes this is a surprise for u..i wanna see the angel face that being taking care of me for the past few months" i told him
no words come to his mouth it is just he look at me and slowly his hand on my cheek. i kissed his hand. tears forming in his eyes.
"Daru..don't cry.." slowly his tears flowing on his cheek. he hug me tightly in his arm. he was sobbing so hard in my arms.
"Hey..whats wrong.."
he just being silent and his hug getting tighter.
"Daru..don't worry okay.. i'm fine. i will never leave u. i love u so much" slowly i stroke his head and kiss it.
Daru from now on i will let u go. i will will always love u no matter what happen.
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Feng Jianru POV
MY LIFE IS A MESS. i never thought that my decision to move to New York is a wrong decision. its really hard living in here. Honestly i really regret my decision. if i can turn back time i will not live here. I thought that i will living in heaven if i move here but its not.
The thing i really regret the most is living Wang Qing. i hurt him and left him when he need me the most. i wonder if he can accept me back. its painful thinking what i did to him.
Now i was in front of our apartment. few days ago i decide i was done with New York. I need to go back here and meet with my love. i didn't mind he hit me, punch me or scold me as long as he accept me back i can endure the pain.
slowly i unlocked the door. i still have our apartment keys. i wished he was here. i open the door and close it but suddenly i heard someone calling my name
"Daru..." there he was.. he was smiling at me. i was shocked. Didn't he suppose to mad or chase me out from the apartment. why he smiling at me.
"Qingge??" i said
He run towards me and hug me tightly in my arm "surprise..." he look at me
"Qingge??" i was shocked seeing him behave like this
he stroke my face "i already open the bandage..yes i can see now.. and yes this is a surprise for u..i wanna see the angel face that being taking care of me for the past few months" he told me
angel face?? wtf did he say? don't say..its Dayu?? means Dayu is the one who taking care of him for the past few months and he is using my name?!! that bitch!!
but my hearts soften when seeing his smiling face. I missed his face. Slowly i brought my hand to his cheek and he kissed it. Oh God i missed him so much.
"Daru..don't cry.." he told me. i hug him tightly. i was sobbing so hard in his chest.
"Hey..whats wrong.." he asked me.
i can't speak right now. The cry make me can't speak
"Daru..don't worry okay.. i'm fine. i will never leave u. i love u so much. " i heard him saying the words.
I don't know what kind of motive that Dayu did by pretending to be me but i'm grateful that Wang Qing didn't mad at me and the most important thing that he love me..he really really love me. i will never leave him again. I will never let anyone take away him from me. NEVER.
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Feng Jianyu POV
i unlocked the door. Today was a tiring day. i never thought that going out with Chen will be this tiring. slowly i open my shoes and walk towards the living room but my feet froze when i see two person snuggled on the sofa. Its Daru and Wang Qing. They were hugging and sleeping together. Suddenly i felt pain in my chest. Is this happening? but i realize something different to Wang Qing..the bandage..the bandage that wrap his eyes was gone..did he gain his sight back?
Suddenly i saw movement from Wang Qing and slowly he open his eyes. His eyes bigger when he saw me.
"dayu??" his words waking up Daru in his arm. Daru open his eyes and was shocked seeing me standing in front of him
"dayu..." daru said. now both of them was standing across me.
"Dayu what are u doing here?" wang qing asked me
"i..." no words come to my mouth but suddenly something click in my head. Daru was here..
"Qingge u already gain ur sight back?" i asked him
"yes..but u didn't answer my question..what are u doing here? how do u get the keys?" his words like a knife in my heart.
"i..." suddenly i saw Daru signal me not to say anything.
God.. did i have to face the same thing again? Did i have to hurt my heart again?
"I gave him the keys cuz he said he wanna visit us" Daru told him.
LIE..LIE..LIE..
"Daru don't give our apartment keys to stranger" Wang Qing told him. He look annoy seeing me.
"Qingge.." when i try to explain suddenly Daru cut my words
"You told me before u wanna come to visit us right?" Daru told me.
Daru face say it all he didn't want me to say anything.
slowly i nodded. i felt something stuck in my throat. i can feel any moment tears will come out from my eyes. I did it again..i sacrifice my love..my feelings..
"u never come to visit me but why now u came? " Wang Qing said. his words stabbing me repeatedly in my heart.
"so..so.rry..f..for..in..interrupting" i try to hold my tears.
" u already see us right..u can go now" Wang qing said
God give me strength..
"Qingge don't say to him like that. he is nice enough to come to see us" Daru said.
Don't be such a hypocrite Daru.
Wang Qing chuckled mocking me. " The door is that way Dayu..we didn't need u here. I need alone time with Daru"
"So..so..rry"
slowly i walk out from the apartment. My chest was in pain. This is it..this is the thing that i scared most. i lost him again..
i walk and walk my tears flowing on my cheek..i lost him.. we can't be together anymore. i didn't realize that i was crouching down on the street. Sobbing so hard. It is too painful for me.
Suddenly someone touching my shoulder..i recognize him..he look shocked seeing me
"what are u doing here? why are u crying" his face look worried
i look at him "Wa..wa..ng yu..help me.. it..hu..rt so..much"
*hello..i'm back!!!! (lol just temporarily)
*sorry i was being hiatus for few weeks ( i think) sorry..i was busy..seriously busy with my life especially my study. So please understand me. I don't think after this i will update this story again near in the future. my real life seriously in chaotic. but thank to everyone who being supporting to this story and being patient waiting for this story to update. Honestly i'm happy there is someone out there that willing to read my horrible, terrible and disaster story. I beg u don't demand me to update the story faster cuz i can't. i only update this story whenever i free. Even this chapter it took me 1 weeks to write cuz i have a lot of thing to do that stopping me to sit down and write.
*sorry for the grammatical errors here and there. A horrible, terrible and disasters English. Sorry I can't write it beautifully as other writer I just an amateur writer so sorry if u r not satisfied with my story. Comment below if there is anything that I need to fix or improve. Enjoy my story..
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