Victoria's P.O.V.
I wake up the next morning and I think I've made a decision.
Nick and I are going to be a couple.
It has to be done. But I feel like such a bitch, I'm basically using him. He really is a good guy. I just don't think he could ever replace Luke.
Though I know I'm making a hasty decision on this, I feel like it's worth a shot. It's not easy for me to do this, especially knowing that Luke will eventually find out about it. But, who's to say he isn't already talk to other girls? I can't keep obsessing over what he may or may not be doing, it's time for me to try and do something for myself, to try and feel better.
Luke would one day come back. The tour will end. But who knows if he'll end up here? He'll be back after the tour, probably. But for how long? Will he even stay here? I don't even want to think about this, it all hurts too much.
I grab my laptop and go to check twitter doing whatever I can to distract myself, needing to calm down. A knock on my door interrupts me.
"Come in." I say.
The door opens and Nick is standing there smiling.
"Hey." He softly says.
"Hi." I smile.
He steps into my room and sits on the end of my bed.
"I thought about what you asked yesterday." I tell him.
"And?" He asks slowly.
I nod, "It's a yes."
I smile as he pulls me into a hug. The second he can't see my face anymore, my expression completely changes. My smile drops from my face as I nervously bite my lip. Nick is a great guy, and I do like him. I just don't know if I like him the way he wants me to. I'm not over Luke, and the way things are going it seems like I won't be for a while.
He was about to say something but my laptop made an obnoxiously loud noise.
I was getting a call from Michael.
"Wait he's in that band right? You're close friends with? We should answer and tell him about us." Nick smiles.
Oh god.
I was hoping to tell Michael alone, so we could have a long discussion about it.
Before I can say anything Nick accepts the call.
I guess it's now or never.
Michael shows up on the screen and smiles.
"This must be the famous Nick, we've heard quite a bit about you." Michael says.
Ashton sits down next to Michael and waves.
"I hope you've heard only good things." Nick smiles looking down at me.
"Of course." Michael replies.
"We have something to tell you guys..." I say nervously. There was nothing that could prepare me for this moment.
I grabs Nick's hand and intertwine our fingers. I raise our hands so you could see them on the camera.
"We're together." I smile.
Nick presses a kiss to the top of my head and both Michael and Ashton cheer.
Until a loud crash comes from their end.
They both turn and I see Luke standing behind them staring at the screen.
Oh no.
He shakes his head and crouches behind the sofa that Ash and Michael were seated on.
"Uh, w-we'll call you back l-later.." Ashton says ending the call.
"What was that about?" Nick asks.
Nothing really. Just my ex who I still love now probably knows we're dating.
"Uh, I don't know." I lie.
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Luke's P.O.V.
I can't believe what I just saw.
I go to pick up the glass of water I just dropped, but it was hard to tear my eyes away from the screen, where Vic and some guy here holding hands.
I hear them end the call and I stand back up.
"Are they dating?" I ask, clenching my jaw.
Michael sighs, "Lu-"
"Answer my fucking question. Are they dating?" My voice getting louder as my hands ball into fists.
Ashton and Michael both weakly nod.
"Fuck!" I shout and turn around and punch the wall.
I feel like my whole world has come crashing down around me. I thought the worst feeling was when we broke up. But this, this is much worse. I thought she was missing me as much as I missed her. I was wrong. So fucking wrong.
Quickly, I make my way to my room.
I've been replaced.
I fall to my knees and cry.
I cry over her so much it's unbelievable.
I run a hand though my hair before covering my face with my hands.
I knew this day would come. I was hoping it wouldn't be this soon though. I was hoping it never would come but I knew it.
She has somebody else.
I pull myself up off the floor and lean up against the wall, facing it. I hit my fist against it before letting more tears fall.
I pace around the room. I can't think straight. So many things are rushing through my head.
Somebody knocks at the door and I just sigh.
"Luke? you okay?" Ashton softly asks.
"Please just leave me alone. Please." I beg quietly.
"Alright.." He replies and gets off the bus.
I miss her so much, but it's obvious she's over us. I don't know how she possibly could be... but I need to let it go. Although, I don't think I will ever be able to.
I love her.
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Victoria's P.O.V.
"I'm going to head out, I'll see you soon love." Nick says placing a kiss on my cheek and heading out.
I sit on my bed, going back on my laptop, noticing Michael calling back.
"Did I. Did I make a mistake? Should I have said no to Nick? I'm so confused." I say, my head falling to my hands.
"I know this is confusing for you. It'll be okay though." He says smiling giving me a thumbs up. "But I can't tell you if it was a mistake.. Do you really like this guy?"
"Nick is an amazing guy, I just don't know if a relationship for us is a good thing. But I-I hoped it would take away the attention from Luke and I'm a terrible person for doing this but I-I thought it would help.." I say starting to cry.
I cry way too often, my goodness.
"Maybe using him isn't the best thing but if you're really wanting and needing to get over Luke then I guess you gotta do what you gotta do." He replies.
"I, uh, I assume Luke knows.. Is he alright?" I shyly ask.
"Yea he knows.. He's uh, locked himself on the tour bus." He tells me.
"This is so hard. Why did this have to happen." I quietly say.
"Vic.. I..this happened because you guys broke up." He softly speaks.
"Please, don't Michael." I choke out trying not to cry.
"Vicky we have to talk about this. We still don't know why you did it. You need to talk to us. It's been so long like three months and you haven't said anything about it." He says.
"Not now." I reply.
"Victoria you are going to talk to me now I don't care if you like it or not." He demands.
"Michael.." I whine.
"No. I want to know what happened. We don't even know what was said. All we know is you both cried forever." He says.
"We broke up that's all." I reply.
"Vic I swear." He groans.
"Alright. I just thought it would be better for both of us. Clearly I was wrong. But there's nothing we can do now." I say.
"But there is. You guys can get back together. All of this could end. You guys would be happy." He replies.
"It's not that easy. And I have a boyfriend. This can't work." I say.
"Yes it can! Dammit you have nowhere the same feelings for Nick like you do for Luke. What did you even say to Luke that day?" He responded.
"Please don't make me say it. I regret almost everything I said that day." I tell him.
"Almost everything?" He asks.
I start to get tears in my eyes, "I don't regret saying I'll miss him. Because I do miss him, so much. And it hurts."
"Vicky don't cry. You know he misses you too." Michael replies.
"As much as I miss him, and even though my feelings for him are still so strong, I can't do it. I don't know if I can handle the pressure of it all. We're basically kids, I don't know how we could ever make it work. He should have fun while you're touring, not thinking about me, or worrying about what I'm up to. Being long distance is awful, Michael. We have no idea what the future looks like for you guys... I think it might just be better this way, Luke and I being apart, before the band really blows up."
Michael sighs, processing my rant, "I do understand where you're coming from. But, I mean, you haven't even tried. I do respect your decision because ultimately, you know what will be best for you. Personally, I think you and Luke are meant to be together, but obviously that isn't the path you guys are on right now. Maybe one day, though?"
"You know what. I need to stop this. I-I can't keep doing this. Luke and I aren't together. I'm with Nick. Everything will work out. It will." I say mostly to myself than Michael.
"But, Vic-" He starts but I cut him off.
"No don't try and convince me out of this. I have to get over Luke. I have to. No matter how much I love him." I say, but whispering the last part to myself.
Michael sighs, "Alright.. But I have to go. I'll talk to you soon alright?"
I nod and we end the call.
I close my laptop and lay on my bed to think.
This is what's best.
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