Taehyung: jia
Taehyung: why are you sad?
Me: it's nothing important
Taehyung: it makes you cry, so it must be important
Me: it's really nothing
Taehyung: if it's "nothing", why can't you tell me then?
Me: ...I just don't like myself, that's all
Taehyung: "that's all"
Taehyung: jia, why don't you like yourself?
Me: because, what's there to like?
Me: I'm not beautiful, I'm not smart, I'm not talented, I'm not a nice person
Me: why would I like myself if I don't possess the qualities to be liked
Taehyung: jia...
Taehyung: "beautiful" is an opinionated word, there is no such thing as actually being beautiful. You can find things beautiful, but that doesn't mean it is.
Taehyung: you get the highest marks in our grade, how can you say you're not smart?
Taehyung: you are a nice person, otherwise you would've never helped me
Me: but it's not good enough
Me: it never is
Me: I'm never good enough
Me: do you know how it feels to be never good enough?
Me: to be dragged down even when you tried your hardest?
Me: to be never noticed by the ones you love?
Me: to hear over and over again that you're a piece of shit, and not only from others but also from yourself?
Taehyung: no, I don't
Taehyung: but I'm willing to try to understand it for you
Taehyung: I will never fully understand how you feel because I don't experience it
Taehyung: I've experienced other kinds of pain
Taehyung: but you already knew that because I accidentally texted you because of that pain
Taehyung: but I'm going to be honest with you; I'm grateful that I accidentally texted you
Taehyung: you kind of kept my thoughts away from my heartbreak
"stop this, taehyung. you can't get attached to me. i'll only hurt you in the end", she thought