"The girls are asleep" I said as I went into my bedroom, seeing a half naked Castle sitting on the bed.
"Great, I thought Alexis would refuse to fall asleep without me there" he confessed and I shook my head.
"I've taken care of her for a couple of months now, she's said she likes it when I put her to sleep" I tried to tease him.
He stood up and walked over to me. I was surprised with the closeness and took one step back by reflex which was enough for him to reach behind my back to close and lock the door without much effort. Then he put his hands on my back pulling me closer to him, and I let my arms land on his shoulders while I let my fingers tangle in his shower-wet hair by the neck. I couldn't help but glance at his naked chest, he was so beautiful.
"I really am ruggedly handsome, aren't I?" he mocked with a smirk set on his lips.
I bit my lip, feeling my insides tingle.
"No" I said but I couldn't hide my smile revealing my lie.
"You sure?" he teased moving his face closer to me.
I felt my heart beat faster as I thought about his lips against mine. My breathing got heavier even though I did my best not to change anything noticeable, I neither wanted or needed him knowing the effect he had on me. I shook my head remembering the question he had asked.
"You absolutely sure?" he asked with a big smirk as he was now only inches away from me now.
He knew. He definitely knew. Oh my god. This was embarrassing, especially since no one had ever had this effect on me before.
"I can feel your knees go weak Kate, you can't deny liking having me this close" he said against my lips, teasing me even more by letting his lips touch mine a little now and then while he spoke.
I was at a loss for words, he was making my knees go weak. I couldn't take it anymore, I closed the small space we'd had between our lips to finally feel his soft lips against mine. His tongue asked for permission and I immediately granted him in, wanting, no needing, to feel his taste in my mouth. We kissed slow, passionate and hungrily for a couple of minutes before we pulled away to catch our breaths, panting hard.
"Why do I turn into a horny teenager with you?" I asked loudly and immediately widened my eyes not intentionally making my question heard.
He chuckled and pecked my cheek.
"Good, then I'm not the only one feeling that way" he whispered in my ear.
I bit my lip trying to suppress a moan as he started kissing my neck.
"We should continue this another day, I love how your body reacts with mine but we really should sleep" he whispered against my skin but continued to move his lips along my neck.
He wanted to stop as little as I did. I let my hands stroke his body down from his neck to his chest. Without him stop kissing my neck I managed to move my head so I could first lick his earlobe into my mouth to suck it before I let it go and moved to kiss his neck the same way he kissed mine. A moan raised in his throat and to my surprise it turned me on more than I ever thought it could. I started kissing down his shoulder and down to his chest, earning another moan. My actions led to him not being able to continue his kissing but he immediately took that opportunity to tangle his fingers in my long hair. I kissed around his chest before I kissed my way up again, past his jaw to claim his lips with mine. His fingers massaged in my hair and it felt so good that a shiver went down my back. I couldn't stop myself from starting to push him towards my bed where we both laid down without breaking our connection through our lips. We kept on kissing, silently through our actions agreeing to keep ourselves from doing more. It didn't stop us from rolling around on the bed though, kissing and touching each other wherever we wanted to. Since he already had his pj-pants on he helped me get out of my clothes, kissing my naked skin as the fabric was removed. Feeling his electric lips against my skin turned me into a moaning mess. I couldn't help but moan even louder when he licked my navel before continue kissing my belly.
"Rick" I couldn't stop my mouth from moaning his name.
He kissed his way up, between my bra covered breasts, to my neck where he sucked on my pulse making me gasp. That's when I remembered that if he continued there would be hickeys I'd have to explain for the social worker tomorrow, which I definitely did not want.
"Not the neck Rick, no marks the social worker or my coworkers can see" I half whispered and half moaned.
He chuckled but granted my wish as he stopped sucking and went up to kiss my lips instead. I kissed him back and pushed him over so I was on top of him. I pushed him down, tearing our lips apart to be able to go down and start sucking on his pulse.
"Thought you said no hickeys" he groaned.
"You're not meeting the social worker" I mocked pulling away enough to give him a wink before I went down sucking his pulse again.
He groaned and moaned as I let my lips move around his neck. I loved the effect I seemed to have on him, just like he had on me. I felt high on him. How was that even possible? It almost felt like that time in high school when someone 'happened' to give pot-brownies to the whole class, including the teacher. The difference being this wasn't drugs of any kind, this was a guy, a man, who was giving me these weird feelings. I felt his hands move around my body, touching my mostly naked skin, leaving a tingling feeling all over my body.
"You're extraordinary, you know that right?" he asked and I pulled away some to be able to look down at him.
"No, I'm not, I'm just a cop" I said biting my lip.
"You're not 'just a cop', you're beautiful, smart, New York's finest detective I've ever met, and you're a great mother" he said and when I raised my eyebrows he quickly added "well, foster-mother but that doesn't mean you're not going to be amazing once you have your own."
It looked like he wanted to add something to that last thing but I had no idea what it could be. I felt my cheeks blush at his compliments though.
"I love seeing you blush" he teased and I groaned trying to hide my face against his chest.
"I hate it" I quietly admitted for really no reason at all.
"Why?" he questioned rolling me over so that he was able to be on top and watch me without me being able to hide.
"Because it's embarrassing... because I don't want you to see what you do to me" I said hypnotized by his ocean blue eyes, regretting telling him immediately.
"You mean like you told me I make you feel like a horny teenager?" he asked with a smirk and I felt like dying.
"Please, please, forget I ever told you that" I begged but to my disappointment he shook his head with determination.
"Not a chance, especially not since you have the same effect on me" he said with a glimpse of happiness in his eyes.
We stopped talking for a while, just watching each other, eyes stuck in each other's. He had the most gorgeous and drown-able eyes I had ever seen.
"I can't believe we're just laying here, rolling around kissing, I've never felt so alive and satisfied even though we're not doing anything more" he suddenly thought out loud and I saw him immediately biting his tongue after.
I smiled up at him.
"Me neither, it's so weird" I agreed and he then mirrored my smile. "Why do you think this is like this? I mean, why do you think we feel like this? We shouldn't even have contact" I asked, feeling like it didn't matter what else we told each other, it was already embarrassing.
"I don't know, I feel connected to you. I, uhm, well, you probably already know this as a fan of my books but I was kind of a playboy before Alexis was taken from me" he took a pause, and I saw he was afraid of what I was going to think of him, "which means I've been with a lot of women, which you probably don't wanna hear but I need you to believe me when I say that you are the only woman ever who's made me feel this way. And I've never wanted anyone else the way I want you, it's probably too soon to say this but I think I'm..." he paused, looking into my eyes and I couldn't help but hold my breath, "I think I'm falling in love with you."
I felt a jiggling joy in my body along with shock in my mind. He observed me, probably trying to figure out what I was feeling about his confession. It suddenly hit me why I felt the way I did about him, it wasn't just some small, okay big, crush I'd had since I met him on that book signing. Lanie was right, he was right. It was love. I was in love with him. I had thought about it before but it hadn't actually hit me the way it did now, when he confessed feeling the same way.
"Please say something" he whispered with a scared look in his eyes.
I looked into his eyes feeling my confidence build up.
"I'm in love with you" I admitted, feeling like I needed him to know it before anything happened.
His fear disappeared in a second and was replaced by relief and happiness. He bent down and let our lips touch. Electricity flooded through my veins as the kiss grew more passionate. It was slow and gentle but all emotions were put into it. We broke apart only a few minutes later, grasping for air.
"I should probably put on my pj" I said looking down at my almost naked body.
He had stripped me down to my bra and panties. I felt his eyes follow mine, staring at my exposed body.
"You don't need them" he suggested and I gave him a look.
"And what if your daughter comes in before we are awake tomorrow?" I questioned.
His face turned into a thinking one before he met my eyes to answer my question.
"I bet she's seen you naked before, not that I believe she would stare, she's probably turned around right away because she doesn't want to make you feel uncomfortable" he said and I rolled my eyes.
"Well, she has but the difference being you're in my bed. If not the picture of us being on the floor yesterday was traumatizing this would" I said and he raised an eyebrow.
"No it wouldn't" he said with a carefree expression.
"Really? So if you found your mom half naked in a bed with a man you wouldn't be scarred for life?" I asked with a knowing smile as he grimaced.
"In fact that did happen, and that's the worst memory I have of... her... okay, I see what you mean" he gave in finding himself understanding the trauma I was talking about.
"Yeah, it's scarring even if it is your parents who's been together for your whole life" I informed him shaking my head trying to get the picture out of my head.
He chuckled before he bent down kissing my skin right above my bra, before I knew it he sucked there too and I knew it was going to leave a hickey. I moaned before I raised my back a little to give him access to unclasp my bra. He immediately removed it and went down with his mouth to suck my breast. His touch would be the death of me.