The first few weeks were the worst. Louis spent all his time with Charly at her place, helping care for their child, and I couldn't be mad about that. He had a family now. But I felt odd, jealous. I shouldn't. But I knew it was because I believed they were sharing a bed, spending a lot of close time with each other, and I was missing out on it. Again. Of course Louis spent time with me, I was over a few days helping care for Kate, and Charly was fine with that. She was okay with her daughter growing up with two dads and a mum. But I was still jealous.
I was busy also, getting everything ready to pack up to move out in my own place, moving on with my career and Louis would be doing that soon himself. We hadn't spoken about where we would be living. Whether we would be having a house together or whether he was going to living with Charly and Kate. We needed that talk but it hadn't came up yet.
"Sorry I'm late, lost track of time" Louis explained, walking into our dorm breathless. He walked up to me, sitting at the desk with my laptop in front of me, and pressed a kiss to my cheek.
"It's alright" I replied shrugging it off like it was nothing. It wasn't really. Not when it was bothering me so much. Ever since the birth my mind has been reeling with endless possibilities of what could come in our life. I just didn't know what to do.
"How was your morning?" he asked dumping his overnight bag next to the bed before sitting down on the comfortable mattress.
"Alright, looking for houses" Louis hummed.
"Anything catch your eye?" I still couldn't read if he wanted to live with me or not. I didn't know what his plans were. Nothing has been said.
"No, not yet," I paused for a second. "Lou, I wanna ask you something" I turned to face him. He looked at me with a smile on his face. "What's your living plans?" he frowned.
"What do you mean? I thought we would be getting a place together, I mean we are together right?" part of me relaxed a little. "I guess we hadn't really spoken about it have we? Come here, come talk" Louis moved to the head of our bed, patting his legs for me to sit on top of.
I got up and walked over to our bed and sat on his lap. We smiled at each other, kissing softly for a moment. I missed this. The simpleness of our relationship.
"So, a house?" I nodded. "Well, we are obviously going to share this right?" I nodded. That's what couples do, right? And it's not like we're not going to be poor. "I was thinking, a nice house. Really nice. Few extra bedrooms?"
"A few?" I questioned.
"Well... We need a guest bedroom for our friends, and I need a bedroom for when Kate is staying" my mood dropped. I didn't mean for it to, but it did. Louis picked up on it immediately. "Hey, you alright?"
"Yeah. Sorry. You're right" I smiled. "Not like we're not gonna have money" I joked to lighten the mood. Things didn't feel as comfortable as they used to, Louis could tell I wasn't the same anymore and I hated he knew that.
"Hey, its been a while since we y'know..." his fingers danced up my chest. I hummed in agreeance. "You wanna?" I nodded. I had missed sex with Louis so bad its been too long since we've really done anything.
I connected our lips immediately, tongue pushing in to his mouth licking inside. Louis's hands roamed my body, moving under my shirt, his cold hands making my body shiver. I pulled away, kissing down his neck, sucking and nipping at his neck. He whined.
"This has felt like it's been too long" Louis groaned, his hand gripped my hair.
"Because it has been" I nibbled along his jaw. "What do you want me to do to you?" I whispered into his ear.
"I want you to suck me, and put your fingers inside me. Stretch me open" he said slowly. "Then I want you to put your dick inside me and fuck me. Fuck me so I move up the bed, so the bed head hits the wall. So our neighbours can hear me as if I were in the same room"
That's all I really needed, those words, and I was ripping his shirt off his body, throwing it to the other side of the room. I ground my hips down into his earning a small grunt from Louis.
I had missed sex so much I just wanted him lying and naked right this second. It seemed to happen in a blur, me pulling him down, ripping clothes off one another, grabbing the lube. Louis lay on his back naked, feet flat on the mattress and me on my knees between them.
It had been so long I knew Louis would be tight. And it would feel amazing. Even more so than the last time. But firstly I was going to suck him. I haven't even given head in ages.
My mouth ghosted over the head of Louis's dick before I took him in fully. He gasped for breath, gripping the sheets and arching his back. He moaned softly.
I continued working on him, sucking up and down, almost getting himself all the way in, but slowly choking at him touching the back of my throat.
"So good" Louis moaned. His hands gripped my hair, urging me down further on his hard on. "Fuck"
I pulled off, my mouth making a popping sound as I took myself off his dick. Louis groaned pulling me up to him. I lay flat on top of him, smiling softly at each other, he kissed me delicately. It was beautifully sweet.
"I love you" he whispered. "So much" I lightly chuckled.
"One minute you want me to fuck you senseless, the next you're being sweet." I shook my head fondly. "But I love you, so much" I gave him one last kiss before pulling away and grabbing the lube that was placed on the bed.
I uncapped the lid and squirted the cold substance on my fingers and brought it to Louis's hole. He spread his legs a little wider as my hands drew closer to him. He smiled at me, watching my every move. My finger pushed into his hole, tight and warm and wonderful. A low groan left Louis's throat and I continued to push my first finger inside him.
With no warning, or signal from Louis, I pushed the second one in. He swore under his breath, but pushed his ass down onto my spreading fingers, rubbing lightly at his prostate. He whined, pushing down even more, I knew he was getting impatient, he wanted more already. I snuck a third finger inside him, spreading them out, stretching him wider.
"Niall" his voice was high and strained and he patted my shoulder. "Niall, you, I need you" his eyes were hooded looking up at me.
"Shh, okay baby" I removed my fingers and coated my dick, my untouched dick. I grunted at the contact. "You're gonna be so tight, gonna feel so good"
"Get inside me already" I tsked, but lined myself up and slowly pushed inside him. His hands gripped my arms, his nails digging into my skin. "God"
"Fuck, you are tight" I groaned, finally pushing in all the way. I stopped, giving us both time to adjust to the unfamiliar feeling. Breathing heavily, on top of Louis, I was about to start moving my hips, make him scream loudly like I have done before. But it seemed luck wasn't on my side.
The ringing of Louis's phone sounded through the apartment. I prayed he would say he would ignore it, that's not what happened at all.
"Just ignore it" I pleaded, I was still inside him, wanting friction, wanting to please.
"What if it's Charly? What if something is wrong with Kate?" he pushed me away. I allowed him to remove him from my body and search for his phone in his pocket of his jeans on the floor. "Hello?"
I sat on the bed, watching the situation unfold before my eyes. I couldn't even have sex without that being ruined.
"Where'd I put the nappies?" he repeated the question. "Back where I got them?" I sighed heavily. "Oh the new ones? They're in the top of your cupboard. I thought that's where you told me to put them"
I fell backwards on to the bed. The mood had definitely died. Why couldn't I have him for just a little while. Just a few hours of him to myself? All these things were just jumbling around in my head, making it incredibly hard to think straight about anything.
"Her dummy? I don't..." he groaned. "Let me check" Louis put his phone between his ear and shoulder and looked through his over night bag, throwing clothes out over the room. "Yeah I found it. Yeah I'll bring it around" our eyes met momentarily before he looked away. "Ten minutes"
He hung up the phone and walked over to me. As he stood in front of me, holding my hands in his, he looked down at me.
"I'm sorry" he whispered. "I promise I'll be right back, we can continue this-" I shook my head. There was no point in it.
"No, the moments over. You better get dressed" I stood up, causing Louis to take a few steps back, I walked to the bathroom.
"Niall-"
"Just go Louis" I stepped into the room and closed the door behind me. I slid down the door, holding my head in my hands, holding off the cries I wanted to leave my lips. I listened to Louis walking around the room before closing the door behind him. And then, the tears fell freely down my face.
I knew I had to talk to him. Its what was right for me, for us. When he comes back. We'll talk. Decision has been made. Somehow I knew this would end in tears for at least one of us.
A/N I am so close to finishing. I have decided to make a few bonus chapters after the epilogue (which is still a few more away) so don't forget about it too quickly. Thanks all for reading this far. I love you all