JOURNAL ENTRY TWELVE ,
⠀hello again
⠀it's been a while
⠀i've been too busy destroying myself
⠀killing myself
⠀very busy
⠀too concentrated on getting rid of myself i forgot to write in you
⠀it's funny how bucky was the one to give this to me as a going away gift, a kind of companion when he wasn't here because he knew how lonely i was
⠀he knew that he was one of the only people i had
⠀i had steve, though... but he still left
⠀they all left and was never coming back
⠀they never come back they always leave and bucky knew that
⠀he knew that so he gave me you
⠀i miss him
⠀and i can't die
⠀i've found that i can't die
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