CLARISSA'S POV AND THOUGHTS
TAYLOR FINALLY CAME TO SEE US IN THE HOSPITAL I'M GUESSING WHEN SHE CALLED SAM AN FOUND OUT I WENT INTO LABOR AND HAD THE TWINS . I KNEW SOMETHING WAS GOING ON WITH TAYLOR AND SHE WASN'T TALKING TO ANYONE LATELY .......... EVER SINCE THE WEDDING AND EVERYTHING WITH AJ SHE'S BEEN WITHDRAWING MORE AND MORE INTO HERSELF AND IT'S REALLY GOT ME CONCEARNED ......
I REMEMBER WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO FEEL ALONE AND CONFUSED LIKE YOUR WORLD WAS CRASHING IN ON YOU ALL AT ONCE . I KNEW THAT FEELING ALL TOO WELL THANKS TO MY WICKED WITCH OF A MOTHER AND MY EX HUSBAND AND HIS PSYCHO COUSIN AND MY TWISTED UNCLE TOO ...... BUT ALL THAT HAS CHANGED NOW SINCE I'VE GOT THE LOVE OF MY LIFE WITH ME WES AND MY TWO BEAUTIFUL LITTLE TWIN MONSTERS WHO WERE JUST PERFECT IF YOU ASKED ME .
I WAS SPENDING A FEW EXTRA DAYS HERE AT THE HOSPITAL TO MAKE SURE THERE WERE NO COMPLICATIONS WITH GIVING BIRTH AT HOME EARLY LIKE I HAD SINCE I HAD A HISTORY WITH ENDOMETREOSIS IN THE PAST AND EVERYTHING . DOC WANTED TO TAKE ALL THE POSSIBLE PRECAUTIONS TO MAKE SURE MOMMY WAS HEALTHY TOO . WHICH I WAS GLAD ABOUT BECAUSE TO BE HONEST SOMETIMES RUNNING BULLY'S BIG HOUSE WITH ALL THE KIDS AND THE BOYS GOT A BIT TOO MUCH FOR ME IF I'M HONEST . EVEN WES SAW IT SOMETIMES .......
TODAY I WAS SPENDING MUCH OF THE DAY ALONE HERE SINCE THE BOYS AND KIDS AND EVEN AMBER HAD SOME MEDIA STUFF AND A HOUSE SHOW THEY ALL NEEDED TO BE AT WITH THIS NEW DRAFT THING THEY WERE DOING BETWEEN TNA AND WWE WHICH WAS NUTTY IF YOU ASKED ME ....... SURE IT MADE SENSE AT FIRST WITH THE INVASION AND ALL BUT NOW ITS JUST GETTING OUT OF HAND IF YOU ASK ME .....
I MEAN I KNOW THAT THE BOYS AND DADDY ARE GETTING A NEW STORY LINE SOON SINCE BULLY AND ACES AND EIGHTS ARE BASICALLY BREAKING APART DUE TO THIS INVASION AND DRAFT AND BULLY'S NEW GIRL TOY BROOKE TESSMACHER . SHE'S A NICE GIRL TO MOST EVERYONE ELSE BUT SHE DOESN'T HAVE ME FOOLED AT ALL SHE'S A BITCH PURE AND SIMPLE AND SHE'S BARKING UP THE WRONG TREE TRYING TO MESS AROUND WITH MY HUSBAND WHILE I'M OUT RIGHT NOW .......
HOW DID I FIND OUT ABOUT THAT YOU ASK ? SIMPLE THE GIRLS ALL TOLD ME ABOUT IT AS WELL AS WES AND GARRETT SEEMS THAT BROOKE WAS ALSO HITTING ON EVERY OTHER GUY IN ACES AND EIGHTS AS WELL JUST TO SEE WHAT WOULD HAPPEN I'M GUESSING KNOWING THAT RIGHT NOW I CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT SINCE I WAS PREGNANT WITH THE TWIN LITTLE MONSTERS AND EVERYTHING AND I COULDN'T GET UPSET OR TOO STRESSED OUT OR I COULD LOOSE THEM ......
WELL NEWSFLASH FOR YOU BROOKIE ONCE I'M ABLE TO AND I'M CLEARED FROM DOC GUESS WHAT THE BITCH IS BACK AND I'M GOING TO SO KICK YOUR ASS FOR NOT ONLY MESSING WITH MY HUSBAND BUT ALSO MY BROTHER AND MY FAMILY AS WELL . NOBODY AND I DO MEAN NOBODY MESSES WITH WHAT'S MINE ! ! ! ! ! JUST ASK AMBER OR JESSE THEY WILL TELL YOU ENOUGH TIMES I'VE SHOWN PEOPLE THAT I MOST DEFINITELY AIN'T NO LADY TO MESS WITH ON THAT ISSUE .....
ANYWAYS I WAS SO LOST IN MY THOUGHTS I DIDN'T HEAR THE KNOCK ON THE DOOR , NOR DID I NOTICE KNUXY WHEN HE CAME IN LOOKING UPSET AND WORRIED AND LOST AND CONFUSED......
MICHAEL KNOX WHAT'S WRONG ? COME HERE YOU SPILL IT ......TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG BIG GUY ......
CLARISSA , I'M JUST .... I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE WHAT TO SAY TO TAYLOR OR HOW TO FEEL AROUND HER WITH OUT JUST BREAKING DOWN IN FRONT OF HER ..... CLARISSA YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT TAYLOR ..... I'VE ONLY EVER FELT THAT WAY ABOUT ONE OTHER PERSON BEFORE YEARS AGO AND WELL NOW SHE'S ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS AND HAPPILY MARRIED WITH TWINS , WHICH I NEVER THOUGHT I'D SEE HAPPEN ......GIVEN OUR HISTORY CLARISSA . YOU KNOW DOC AND I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU WHEN WE LEFT LIKE WE DID HONEY ...... WE HAD OUR REASONS FOR LEAVING . BUT WE STILL KEPT TABS ON YOU AND WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU ALL THAT TIME . AND EVERYTIME WE CAME TO TOWN WE BOTH WANTED TO JUST CALL OR STOP AND SEE YOU AGAIN BUT WE COULDN'T BECAUSE WE KNEW YOU WOULD PROBABLY KICK OUR ASSES .....
YOUR RIGHT I WOULD HAVE . BUT THEN AGAIN LOOKING BACK THEN I CAN SEE YOUR GUY'S POINT NOW TOO ON WHY YOU LEFT . I KNOW BACK THEN IT WAS HARD FOR YOU GUYS . I KNOW NOW THAT YOU BOTH LOVED ME MORE THEN A SISTER BACK THEN NOW . IT'S OKAY KNUXY I UNDERSTAND . BACK THEN I WAS A YOUNG FOOL WHO WAS BLINDED BY THE FACT THAT SOMEONE ACTUALLY PAID ME SOME ATTENTION AND WANTED ME TO ACTUALLY BE THEIRS FOR ONCE ...... IF I COULD GO BACK TO THAT DAY AND CHANGE THINGS I SO WOULD HAVE LEFT WITH YOU AND DOC AND NOT LOOKED BACK AND MADE THE BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE AND SPENT THE NEXT SIX YEARS OF MY LIFE IN HELL LIKE I DID MARRIED TO A PSYCHO AND HIS FAMILY AS WELL AS MY TWISTED MOTHER AND HER BROTHER AS WELL ........BUT KNUXY ,WHAT'S REALLY GOING ON BETWEEN YOU AND TAYLOR BIG GUY ? AND BE HONEST WITH ME HERE ........
CLARISSA ...... I REALLY DO LOVE TAYLOR ALOT . LIKE I SAID I'VE ONLY FELT THIS WAY FOR ONE OTHER PERSON BEFORE AND THAT WAS YOU MY BEST FRIEND . EVERYTIME I TRY TO TELL HER HOW I FEEL SHE JUST BLOWS IT OFF OR GOES BULLISTIC OVER SOMETHING AJ DID NOW ....... I HATE WHAT HE'S PUTTING HER THROUGH RIGHT NOW I REALLY DO . I'M TRYING TO KEEP THE PEACE RIGHT NOW AND NOT LOOSE WHAT LITTLE SANITY I HAVE LEFT ON MY TEMPER AND KICK HIS ASS FOR HURTING TAY LIKE HE HAS . THEN TAY IS ALSO UPSET OVER THIS JORDAN THING AND THEN ASHTON AND GOING BACK HOME FOR SCHOOL AND EVERYTHING WITH AJ AND THE DRAFT THINGY AS WELL....... THE NIGHT YOU WENT INTO LABOR THAT'S WHO SHE WAS OUT WITH , HER COUSIN CODY AND HIS FRIEND'S INCLUDING JORDAN AND RANDY .........I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE LISSA I REALLY DON'T . IT SEEMS LIKE EVERY TIME I MAKE PROGRESS WITH TAYLOR AND WE TRY TO GET CLOSER SOMETHING OR SOMEONE MESSES IT UP FOR US ...... I JUST WANT TO MAKE HER HAPPY ...... IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR REALLY ?
MICHAEL KNOX , YOU LISTEN TO ME AND YOU LISTEN GOOD ....... I KNOW THERE IS A BIG AGE DIFFERENCE THERE BETWEEN YOU GUYS AND EVERYTHING . TAYLOR IS CONFUSED RIGHT NOW SHE'S LIKE I WAS BACK WHEN YOU GUYS LEFT . YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND TAYLOR FEELS LIKE EVERYTIME SHE FINDS SOMEONE SHE THINKS SHE CAN LOVE OR THEY LOVE HER , SOMETHING ALWAYS HAPPENS TO MESS THAT UP . LOOK WHAT HAPPENED WITH AJ , LOOK WHAT HAPPENED WITH HER OTHER BOYFRIEND THAT'S WITH THAT ASHTON GIRL NOW ..... KNUXY , I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT TAYLOR . I DO I CAN SEE IT EVERYTIME YOU LOOK AT HER WE ALL CAN . FROM SOMEONE WHO'S BEEN WHERE SHE IS RIGHT NOW TRUST ME ON THIS ONE I KNOW ALL TOO WELL HOW SHE'S FEELING . AND KNUXY YOU NEED TO SHOW TAYLOR IN A WAY THAT ONLY SHE WILL BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND JUST HOW MUCH SHE MEANS TO YOU , AND THAT YOUR NOT GOING ANYWHERE BECAUSE YOU LOVE HER THAT MUCH BIG GUY ....... DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M SAYING ?
YEAH I DO ...... BUT HOW CAN I MAKE HER UNDERSTAND CLARISSA ? I MEAN YOU SAID SO YOURSELF YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH THIS BEFORE WHAT WOULD YOU WANT FROM SOMEONE TO PROVE THAT THEY MEANT WHAT THEY SAID AND WERE NOT LEAVING YOU BECAUSE THEY LOVED YOU LIKE I DO WITH TAYLOR ......?
COME ON MICHAEL KNOX ...... STOP AND THINK ...... WHAT DOES ANY GIRL WANT FROM A MAN SHE LOVES ? SHE WANTS TO BE SWEPT OFF HER FEET AND BE REMINDED JUST HOW MUCH THEY LOVE HER .......... LOOK HOW FAST I FELL FOR WES AND ALL IT TOOK WAS ONE MOMENT AND SOME VERY HEARTFELT WORDS AND HE HAD MY HEART IN HIS HANDS . AND NOW WE ARE MARRIED WITH TWO BEAUTIFUL BABIES ALMOST A YEAR AND A HALF LATER . YOU NEED TO LET HER KNOW YOUR GOING TO BE THERE FOR HER THROUGH THICK AND THIN KNUXY NOT JUST THE GOOD TIMES BUT ALSO THE BAD ONES ...... TAYLOR'S FRAGILE YOU KNOW THIS SHE TOLD YOU HER STORY THAT NIGHT ON THE ROOF OF MY BABYSHOWER WHEN SHE FOUND AJ AND ASHTON TOGETHER LIKE THAT ....... YOU WERE THE ONE WHO FOUND HER AND MADE HER FEEL LOVED AGAIN KNUXY . SHE DOES HAVE FEELINGS FOR YOU BIG GUY SHE DOES , SHE TOLD ME SO . SHE'S JUST CONFUSED AND OVERLY STRESSED RIGHT NOW . SHE'S WORRIED THAT IF SHE GOES BACK FOR SCHOOL SHE WILL BE PICKED ON AGAIN AND BULLIED LIKE BEFORE , OR BECAUSE SHE'S A KNOCKOUT NOW THAT SHE WILL GET MORE ATTENTION SINCE IT'S HER SENIOR YEAR OF SCHOOL . SHE'S TORN BETWEEN A BUNCH OF THINGS RIGHT NOW . I ALSO KNOW SHE'S UPSET SHE MISSED THE BIRTH OF THE LITTLE MONSTERS OF MINE AND MY HUSBANDS . MIKEY JUST TALK TO HER , MAKE HER SEE HOW MUCH YOU LOVE HER . TRUST ME IT WILL ALL WORK OUT IF YOU DO . HER BIRTHDAY IS IN A FEW DAYS ANYWAY WHAT DID YOU PLAN ON GETTING HER AS A GIFT KNUXY ?
I KNEW THEN I MADE HIM FEEL BETTER BECAUSE I COULD SEE THE KNUX I USE TO KNOW AND LOVE ALL THOSE YEARS AGO COME BACK WITH THAT ONE MISCHEIVIOUS GRIN .....
YOU'LL SEE CLARISSA ...... IT'S GOING TO BE BIG THOUGH. SOMETHING SHE WON'T EVER DOUBT HOW MUCH I TRULY CARE ABOUT HER AND WILL BE THERE FOR HER NO MATTER WHAT BECAUSE I LOVE HER THAT MUCH ........ HOWEVER I WILL ASK YOU AS MY BESTEST FRIEND WHEN YOU GET OUT OF HERE AND ARE ABLE TO HELP ME TO GO PICK SOMETHING OUT FOR TAYLOR I'VE BEEN WANTING TO DO FOR A WHILE NOW, ACTUALLY SINCE YOU TWO HAVE THE SAME KINDA OF TASTE IN THINGS AND ALL ...... ?
SURE KNUXY ...... AND IF YOU EVER HURT MY SISSY SO HELP ME JEEBUS YOUR ASS IS MINE AND I'M THE LAWNMOWER MISTER ..... AND YOU KNOW HOW I CAN GET KNUXY ......... SO DON'T BREAK HER HEART AND YOU WILL BE OKAY IN MY BOOK BIG GUY . AND YOU ALREADY HAVE BULLY'S BLESSINGS SO YOURE ALL SET NOW ALL'S YOU NEED TO DO IS ASK HER .........
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I KNOW THIS IS SHORT BUT HEY I'M HAVING A CASE OF WRITERS BLOCK ON THIS STORY AT THE MOMENT ..... ILL UPDATE MORE WHEN I CAN AGAIN .
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~ HAPPY HAUNTINGS ~
MY MONSTERS
~ LISSA ~