Camila's POV
I woke up with the biggest smile on my face. Last night, Lauren and I talked about a few things, one of them being about Keana. I didn't like talking about that girl but this time was different. It was like I was persuading Lauren to think her girlfriend may not be the best for her. It sounded selfish and bitchy for me to do but that was what Keana was like too. I think I got Lauren to really think about if her relationship was really worth leaving back home in order to pursue music. It was what Lauren should actually do because it's her dream. Her dream is music...music with me.
Now, it was Friday. The day the girls and I were going to explore more of the gorgeous city of Los Angeles. We were going to go shopping, the beach, and do more touristy things. Today was going to be so much fun and I couldn't wait to spend it with the girl I love. And the best feeling was here right now, cuddled up with her in bed. I opened my eyes to the sun shining through the blinds and Lauren close by my side. How I wish I could wake up like this every morning, it was so adorable. Her head was nuzzled next to mine, front against my back, arm wrapped protectively around my waist, and....something else poking my behind.
My face instantly turned bright red at the feeling of Lauren's morning wood against me. Oh wow, I literally never thought this would happen or well, at least now. This was so awkward....should I do something? Her arm was wrapped around me pretty tightly so I would definitely wake her up if I moved. I stayed frozen still blushing until I thankfully felt her stir awake. She let go of her hold and I turned to meet her eyes.
"Morning, Camz," she said in her sexy, raspy morning voice.
"Morning, Laur," I greeted back, scooting away a bit now that she was waking up.
"Did you sleep well? she asked, rubbing her eyes and combing through her hair with her fingers.
"Yes. Did you?" I questioned.
"Yeah I—" she paused in a somewhat surprised expression, quickly glancing down at the covers. "I-I'll be right back." Lauren rushed out of the covers, off the bed, and to the bathroom. I could kind of see her boxers as I side eyed her not that I was actually looking. I couldn't help but laugh lightly. Even though she might have been embarrassed, I thought it was kind of cute.
Unfortunately, the rest of the morning passed by with a pretty awkward tension between Lauren and I. She hadn't even glanced at me while we walked around downtown or shopped at some stores. She just went about her day more close to Normani. I knew she knew what happened and she knew that I knew, making it even worse. I didn't want this to be weird but how could I address it?
"Hey, how was night two with the Lauser?" Dinah asked as we were walking along the shore of the beach. It was getting close to evening and the sun was setting beautifully.
"...Fine," I shrugged.
"Fine?" she raised her eyebrow.
"Yeah, why do you ask?"
"I don't know. Just wondering I guess."
"Okay, if I must tell you..." I sighed. "So, this morning when I woke up, I felt it."
"What do you mean?" she asked confused.
"I felt...you know...Lauren's..."
"You did not," Dinah gasped.
"I did."
"Mila, you little perv!" she pushed me.
"What? No, it was pressed up against me," I argued.
"Like..."
"Lauren and I were cuddling and she had her front against my back. And yeah..." I further explained.
"Damn, Walz. I bet you liked that," she winked.
"Now who's the perv," I glared, hitting her arm. "Well, I think that's kind of the reason why she's not talking to me today."
"Because she's embarrassed?"
"Yeah. I mean, she's always been embarrassed about it but I don't want her to be."
"Are you gonna talk to her about it?" she asked.
"I don't know. Maybe I will if she's still not talking when we get back, but I think it would be more awkward if we did talk. I don't think it's that big of a deal anyway."
"It really isn't but Lauren is sensitive about her condition," Dinah claimed and I nodded, continuing to walk along the shore.
Lauren's POV
"Why aren't I like other girls, Mani?" I sat in the sand, looking out to the ocean.
"What do you mean?" she turned her head to look at me.
"You know what I mean. Why was I born different?" I sighed.
"Shut up, you're beautiful. And I thought you've gotten over this," she put her hand on my shoulder.
"I...kind of have. But then something just happens and I can't stand myself."
"What happened?" she asked.
"Well, this morning when I was cuddling Camila, I was closely against her back and my...thing was 'awake' before I was," I told.
"Ohhh," she nodded.
"I'm so stupid. Why didn't I remember this shit happens to me?"
"But it's like whatever. It's natural. We know it and we're okay."
"Yeah, but I'm not poking you guys...until now."
"I'm sure Camila doesn't even mind it," she waved off.
"It's still so embarrassing. Especially with her," I breathed.
"Especially with Camila?" she raised her eyebrow.
"I-I guess," I shrugged. "In a good way though."
"What makes her so special?" she laughed.
I looked at the shore to see Camila and Dinah walking along it. They both had on bikini's and while Dinah looked good, I couldn't stop looking at Camila in hers. I never understood why she was so insecure when she had a body like that. A body that I wanted in more than one way.
"She's just so beautiful, Mani," I shyly smiled at my crush.
"Aww," Normani grinned.
"And she's so smart and caring, supportive, sweet. Did I mention beautiful?" I admired.
"Wait, do you like Camila?" she softly gasped.
"Is that bad?" I asked her a bit worried.
"No," she chuckled. "I kind of always knew."
"Since when?" my eyes widened.
"Umm I'm not an idiot, Jauregui. Even Ally knows and I'm sure Dinah does too."
"And you weren't going to tell me this?" I shook my head.
"We were just going to let it flow. And how could we when you're dating Keana? You still have a girlfriend, remember?" she pushed my head.
"Oh yeah," I smirked.
"Oh yeah? When was the last time you texted her?"
"This morning. I said goodnight to her and good morning," I explained as she gave me a stern look. "Don't give me that look."
"I'll give you that look. You got eyes for Camila when you're with another girl."
"How can I resist it? I mean, I know it's bad to like someone else while I'm dating, but...I've always liked Camila," I threw my hands up. "She's been my crush ever since I've met her."
"Aww wasn't that like, third grade?" Normani questioned.
"Yeah. Third grade when I asked her and Ally to play a game with us. I obviously didn't know what love or even really liking someone romantically was, but I definitely liked girls and thought she was so cute. It's been that way ever since."
"Childhood crush. You got it bad, girl," she eyed me.
"I got it bad?"
"Yeah, Camila's your first crush, first love—"
"First love?" I cut her off. "No no no no, I do not love Camila."
"But you don't love Keana."
"Wow, thanks," I squinted.
"How do you feel about Keana right now?"
"Well, I like her a lot. There's no doubt about that. I have very strong feelings for her and you know, I'm happy that she's my girlfriend."
"Happy?" Normani narrowed her brows.
"Yeah, well, we've been going through a little rough patch but we'll get through it," I nodded optimistically.
"Why would you do that when you want Camila so bad?" she asked.
"I can't be with Camila because we're just friends and she doesn't like me back," I said.
"Has she said that?"
"No, but I know it's true."
"You don't know that's true. Go ask her," she nudged.
"Fuck no!" I pushed her hands away. "I don't think that'll ever happen."
"Why not?"
"I just told you why not. Pay attention," I patted her head.
"I just don't want to see you miss out and...I hate to say it, Lauren, but continue to be with someone who doesn't support you."
"You think that too?" I asked shyly.
"It's a fact. You know that, right?"
"Yeah, but...I-I," I sighed. "I don't know what to do."
"Just dump the girl."
"No, Normani," I scowled at her. "I meant it when I said I have strong feelings for Keana. I really do," I defended. "And maybe I will fall in love with her."
"You think you will?"
"It may take time but probably yes. I'm not just going to give up on her like that."
"I don't want to see you unhappy, Laur. That's all," she wrapped her arm around me.
"I know and thanks, I'm just going through some tough shit."
"It's alright. You'll figure it out," she rested her head on my shoulder and we continued to listen to the waves.
I knew Normani was just looking out for me but I couldn't just dump Keana. I was willing to fight for our relationship. I thought about what Camila and I talked about last night and while I knew Keana wasn't the most supportive person, I wanted to still make it work. Maybe things could change for the better.
A/N: I know this chapter sucks but I kind of have writer's block. But at least Lauren's confessed her feelings to Normani.
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