My eyes fluttered opened, revealing the messy room with clothes thrown everywhere, a few being mine, shoes in random places and the walls covered with posters. I groaned softly as I stretched and looked around. The bedsheets were cool against my bare skin, and then suddenly my cheeks warmed up. I looked at the still sleeping boy next to me. I actually lost my virginity last night, to him, to Austin. The one boy who I thought that I couldn't stand, but he had been so sweet and generous, and not how he usually was, which was trying to get into my pants anyway or flirting with me non stop. I saw another side of him, and I actually really liked it. But deep down I feared that this sweet, caring Austin who I had grown accustomed to would wash away when he woke up. I feared that he would be one of those guys who just used and dumped the person they slept with. But I didn't want it to be like that, not at least now, especially after I gave him something that I knew I could never take back.
Austin stirred slightly and tightened his arms around my body slightly before opening his eyes, looking at me and smiling sweetly. It sent little waves of butterflies into my stomach and I bit my lip as I smiled back at him.
"Good morning," he whispered, nuzzling his face into the crook of my neck.
"Good morning," I whispered back, shivering slightly as I felt his fingertips run up and down my back. He gently pressed kisses to my neck causing me to hum and sigh.
"Are you feeling okay?" He asked. "After we...you know." I nodded and smiled, biting my lip again.
"I'm okay, just a little sore." I said. Austin chuckled and pulled away from me, smiling brightly.
"Yeah, you'll be sore for just a few days," he told me, kissing my shoulder. "But were you okay with it? I didn't make you do anything you'll regret or feel uncomfortable with?" He asked, I shook my head quickly.
"No, no," I said. "I definitely don't regret it, and I didn't feel uncomfortable with any of it, I would have told you if I were," I told him softly. "I felt...special last night, and I'm glad I did it with someone who made me feel like that constantly."
Austin sighed in relief before smiling again. "First times should always be special," he said, "a-and I may not have been the best person to take that special moment away...your first should have been with someone better."
I shook my head and grinned at him, running my fingers through his hair. "Truthfully, I wouldn't want my first to be with anyone else. I like being with you...if it were anyone else, I think I may have felt disappointed in myself for not waiting."
"Yeah?" Austin questioned quietly.
"Yeah," I reassured him and leaned in, pressing a kiss to his lips. He smiled and kissed me back, caressing my lower back. The kiss felt so sweet and nice, it had my insides bubbling and butterflies nipping everywhere.
"So you were okay with last night?" He questioned again, pulling away.
"Yes," I laughed, Austin smiled and rested his head against my shoulder, pressing soft kisses to the skin.
"I'm just making sure Princess," he said softly. I hummed and snuggled up closer, closing my eyes with a sigh. The moment felt so nice and sweet, and I would have loved to just lay there longer and be with him, but my stomach began to growl and I couldn't help it because I was really hungry.
Austin laughed and hugged me closer, kissing the top of my head. "You hungry?" He asked.
"Yes," I whined slightly. He pulled away from me and sat up. I pouted slightly, only because I missed his body heat, but I sat up too, pulling the covers over my body as I shivered slightly. I watched as the boy in all of his glory bent down and picked up his boxers, pulling them back on. He turned to me and bit his lip.
"What do you want?" He asked. I thought over it for a moment.
"Grilled cheese," I said, Austin snorted and nodded, pulling on a pair of sweatpants. I sighed softly and figured it was time for me to get out of bed too, although it was so warm and comfy, I didn't want to but I did. I stood up and allowed the covers to fall off me, leaving me naked and exposed. Austin smiled at me and bit his lip. I watched as his eyes scanned my body up and down, and instantly my cheeks warmed. I quickly pulled on my boxers and crossed my arms over my chest.
"Wear this Princess," Austin said, walking over to his dresser and picking up a very oversized t-shirt from the floor in front of it. I bit my lip and took it from him, pulling it over my head to find that it nearly fit me like a dress.
"Hmm, you look so cute." He murmured, walking closer and kissing my forehead. I smiled and hummed, feeling my body relax. He pulled away and took my hand, pulling me downstairs. We walked to the kitchen, big happy smiles on our faces. He was so sweet and I thought if I kept smiling, my face was going to implode.
"You sit here," Austin said, hoisting me up on the counter. He stood between my legs as we were now eye to eye. I bit my lip as I stared at him. "And look gorgeous." I nodded and laughed, allowing him to peck my lips before pulling away and gathering things for grilled cheese.
I did as asked and stayed sat on the counter, swinging my legs back know and forth as I watched him work around the kitchen, putting buttered up pieces of bread on a pan along with cheese. He was just so cute, but I couldn't help to wonder.
"Are we dating now, especially after we..." I trailed off, feeling my cheeks and ears burn red. That moment was now imprinted into my brain, but I wasn't complaining. Everything about last night was special, I wouldn't change it for the world. But I was still left to be on edge as Austin had yet to answer my question.
"Oh, um..." He trailed off, turning slightly to face me. "I don't know," he said, and I think I felt my heart drop into my stomach.
"What do you mean?" I questioned.
"I've never been in a relationship before, Alan. I mean, yeah I've had sex with people but it was nothing serious." He told me.
"But last night was serious," I told him. "Last night you- you took away something...something I can never give to anyone else."
"I know, I know," he muttered, severing the now cooked grilled cheese onto two plates before walking over to me and standing in front of me, between my legs. "I get that, I know last night was your first time ever, and I tried my best to make it special, but-"
"You did though," I said, cutting him off.
"But, I've never been in a serious relationship before, or in a relationship for that matter. It's always been sex, nothing but, and I'm not saying I don't want to be with you, because I do," he smiled and caressed my cheek sweetly, "but it's kind of scary, and I'm not scared of anything." He said, I rolled my eyes and grinned.
"I've never been in a relationship either, Aust. I've only kissed a few guys, but it wasn't anything serious. We're both new to this, so its okay to be scared. Sometimes you just have to do what's natural." I said.
"Were those guys better kissers than me?" He joked, leaning in closely. I chuckled and shook my head, running my fingers through his hair. He then turned serious and looked at me, biting his bottom lip. He grabbed my wrist, pulling my hand away from his hair, and for a moment I was scared, but then he laced his fingers with mine and licked his lips.
"I want to be with you, Alan, like officially. It's still scary, but as long as you promise you'll be with me through every step of the way and be patient with me when I fail because I really, really like you and am willing to try literally everything to be with you." He said, and just like that, I felt this big smile form on my face and my stomach surge with butterflies and fireworks and everything.
"Yeah, I promise," I said, grinning. Austin smiled widely and leaned forward, kissing me. I smiled and wrapped my arms around his neck, kissing him back.
"So I guess you're my boyfriend now." He said, pulling away from the kiss. I smiled and nodded, running my fingers through his hair again.
"I guess so," I said, smiling even wider as he leaned in and kissed me again.
Once again we pulled away and I hopped down from the counter as Austin grabbed both of our plates of grilled cheese and I poured us both a glass of soda. We then went into the living room and watched cartoons while eating and smiling at each other. I felt so giddy and I couldn't stop thinking about last night. God, I still felt terrible for being an idiot and believing Shay, but Austin seemed to have really forgiven me for doing that, and if he's okay about it, then I was too.
We watched lots of cartoons and munched on some more food, and even fell asleep on the couch together before we woke up again and took showers. Austin then took me to Kellin's house and parked right outside. I was supposed to be getting out so he could go to work, but I couldn't help myself as I leaned over and have him a kiss, which turned into something a little more than simple.
"Okay, okay, I have to go." Austin said, pulling away. I gave him a little pout and sighed, sitting back in the passenger seat. "Don't pout, Princess, I'll be back after four."
"Just one more kiss." I said, smiling as I leaned over and kissed him once more. He happily gave it to before kicking me out of his car and leaving. I had the biggest smile on my face as I practically skipped up to Kellin's house and went inside. The twins and Alex were sat on the couch, watching cartoons much like I was earlier, and eating breakfast.
"Ally cat!" Alex squealed loudly, a big smile on her face as she sat down her bowl of cereal and ran over to me. I engulfed her into my arms and kissed her cheek repeatedly.
"Where's Kellin?" I asked, walking and sitting down on the couch next to Andrew with Alex in my lap.
"Him and his boyfriend fell asleep down here and went upstairs to sleep so we could watch down here without them being disturbed." Andrew said, slurping down his cereal. I nodded and fixated on the tv, watching Tom and Jerry with them until Kellin came down the stairs, rubbing his eyes and yawning.
"Hey Als," he mumbled, trudging past me and into the kitchen. I sat Alex down on the couch and followed him in there, a big smile on my face. Kellin turned to me, a confused look on his face.
"Why are you so...bubbly?" He asked, not being able to himself and smiling too.
"I have something really, really important to tell you."
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I had about half of this written down in a book full of drafts and I'm finally able to use it, but the other half isn't some of my best writing, but I hope you like it (: