Maybe after all this time,
I've become accustom to being alone,
Maybe I've just lost the path to my home,
But perhaps I have my reasons,
I don't know what I want anymore,
I don't want to keep you waiting,
I don't want to start the war,
I've never been in this positing before,
Always been wanting more and more,
Maybe I loved him kept me safe,
it helped me bide my time,
Live life at my own pace,
But now you're here and I just don't know,
I don't want to rush and leave you in woe,
I don't want to cause you the pain he caused me,
But someone who loves you?
At the moment that is someone I cannot be,
Don't hate me for this don't call me names,
Be assured, I've injured very the same pain,
Don't push me into something I don't need,
For maybe this, this is the new me,
I've built my walls so very high,
So that when one tries to climb them they fall and die.