...it was midnight exactly 1:00 am, when i saw a man named lawrence. they call him as BALOT .Nung una ko silang nkita , linukuko nla ako, they said " ooohhh napunta d2 ang princessa ng taga Asingan !.. one of barkada nya nagsav.. ( Pablo). Sinusubukan nla na bola bolahin ako .... then i saw a man standing in other side... sav ko... simple guy... pero that d ako nagassume n ligawan nya ako .then after one minute.. lumapit sya .. then inabot nya kamay nya !.... then he said
(Binalonan plaza)
RjlTa: hi ! am lawrence ( bglang inabot ang kamay at the same time yong phone )
me : ah okay ( i smiled and snobbed sa pagabot ng kamay nya )
( it seems like napahiya sya sa ginawa ko ).. then all of them ..kinakausap nla ako... but noon naheheya ako .. i want them na ileave n nla yong space... n kinatatayuan n nla ... sav ko sa sarli ko.. bola bola lang yan... then .. kumalma na ako nung umalis n sila..
ONE DAY
ATE ANGELICA : zel number mo nga ,
me : 09485******** bkit ate ,
ate angelica : wala thank you
in that time . bngay nya yong number ko kay mr. LAWRENCE
THEN IN EVENING, my phones ring (0946198*****)
rJlta: hi its me, lawrence
me : hello .. do i know you
rjlta :ahmmm ako pala ung barkada ni angie nung nkaraang gav !
me :ah okay
then, i decided to not to txt him, coz i thought yong lawrence ay hindi yong nkikipagkamay sakin
then i saw again lawrence , wearing his jacket, then lumapit sya para kausapin ako
rjlta : hi ako c lawrence .. yong nagttxt sau
me: ah.... then i smiled again ( i cant talk kasi, naheheya ako , instead i smiled nlang )
after that conversation between us... nagkakakamustahan n kme , nagkakayahan para sumamba, yayain kumain, pero tangi d2, tangi jan until i fall inlove with him. he said that he like me, he start na suyuin ako... but he is not asking to court me ... until one day, we fight.. i dont know the reason why.. he said ... i reject him agad agad... in short.. basted daw sya sakin... until hanggang sa nawalan n kme ng comunication after those conversation via mobile phone .. at 4:00 'oclock in morning
nakikita ko sya , nkikita nya ako... but i tried n maiwasan syang makita... coz everytime n nagpapakita ako sakanya .. sansv ko sa sarili ko na .. nahihya ako sakanya coz inamin ko den n may gusto ako saknya..
after many months ... i decided to txt him with saying hello/ hi
me : hello , goodmorning
rjlta: who is this !
me : huh okay
then .. in that day... kala ko nkalimutan n nya ako, coz he said it to me na f cnu ako
One morning, my phones ring from RJLTA
RJLTA : GOODMORNING
ME; oh, goodmorning den po. kala ko d mi ko kilala
rjlta: sorry . dikita nrecognize agad, musta kana
then our conversations bguns, until he ask me f can i give him another chance to be part of my life. pinagisipan ko p ung time n yon if i were going ti give him another chance.. so then i let him to court me . I appreciated those banat nya for me ..those care ... until
march 16, 2013 . 4 :45 pm
me:oo na ,
rjlta : yes sinsagot m n ako... yes ilove you mine .. ( he called me mine before but i dont want that screen name becoz maaalaa ko lang yong past ko.. )
me: oy hinde .. i said oo na naiintindhan kita ...
rjlta: wala na ..ah wala ng bawian sanv muna ee
me: oo cge n nga... mahal nman den nman kita eeh
Our relationship grows.. with no quarrels, etc but theres a time .. nagaaway kami becoz of my pasaway ... like going in the plaza w/out his permission at pagpupuyat .. then he decided na dalhin nya ako sa kanlang bahay para makilala ko mga family nya .. but then his lola and ante , cousin was only there...
in that time, nung nasa bahy nla ako.. im so shy ... becoz first n magkasma kme at sa bahay pa nla .... then we sat on sofa .. then he kissed me without my permission.. pero di ako ngalit sakanya... becoz im his gf already... kinlig ako in that time... nagusap kme... and after nun hinatid nya ako at pinasakay... after nun .. everytime n ko pumupunta sa bahay nla ... welcome nya ako lagi dun... nagsasabay kmeng natutulog , nagsasbay kming sumasamba..
then, theres a time we separated, i mean naging long distance kme ,, at nakaya nmen ... ganun ka strong yong relationship nmen ,, at he decided to visited me kahit sobrang lau ng bahay nmen saknla it takes many miles para biyahiin nia mula bahay nla sa bahay nmen ... then my family met my boyfriend... they accept lawrence .. he stay in our house in 3 days , we spent our time together
then... many times n den kami nagaway pero we are strong... di nmen iniiwan ang isat isa .. walan taguan, lahat ng pwedeng ibgay sa pagmamahal bngay n nmen sa isat isa. we shared many problems sa isat isa .. kunting tampuan.. pero mamaya bati na.
then.... in my birthday... andun sya ... he makes my day special, kahit may tampuhan.. then
AUGUST
WE DECIDED na pumunta ng baguio to stay, nagalit sya sakin kasi lumayo ako sakanya ! he didnt bother to txt or call me..
me : mahal magtxt k nman ah ... wag k n magtampo please i love you
rjlta : ok.. cge yngat k nlng jan... mhuaaaaa
me : mahal nman wag k n magtampo please
rjlta :ok
i decided to call him , pero d nya sinsagot
then natxt sya ;
RjLTa:cnu ka
me: anu.. anu b ... anung klasing tanung yan..
rjlta: ok
me: bhala k nga...
rjlta: wag k nga tumwag and2 ako sa lamayan ok
me : bahala ka. nkakakasar kna
rjlta: mas nakakakasar ka // alam mo yon huh
me: soory n kasi ah
rjlta ; cge 2log kna.. ilove you
me: i love you more, soory tlga
rjlta :ok
then in the morning, i tried to call him.. he answered.
rjlta: kakagcng ko po
me :oyy sorry na ah
rjlta; hmmmf ok alam mo nman n kasing miss nkita . tas lalalau kpa.. panu n yan punta n ko manila d n tau magsasama
me: may time p nman n magsasam tau dba, dba magasawa n tau
rjlta: oo pero iba p den nman yong ngayon
me: sorry na ah.. tinitiis mo nman ako kasi ee
then in that time... naguusap kme via txt... at naayos n den nmen .., pinagsavhan nya sis ko watch me.. at umayos at umiwas sa mag boys,...and he said na susunod den sya sakin d2
so there in that time nagsimula WORD WAR II nmen .... nawawlan ako ng tiwala ,start n nagduda kahit alm ko wala nman dapat ikaduda,.wa fight, fight, fight by saying ( ewan ko sau , bahala ka sa bhay mo)
he said nkakaksawa ka na ! lagi nlang away
until pumunta ako sa bahy nla ... natulog at nagsabay kming sumamba.. dun ( san felipe cental , binalonan)
we remind nmen sa isat isa n a.. wlang iwanan, wlang lukuhan, akin ka lang ... magasawa n tau
nagpromise sa isat isa na ....akin k lng at ako sau lamang... then he kissed me like he never kissed me before.. sinamahan nya ako .. sa kapilya ... at kasmang umakyat here in Baguio.. namiss ko yong sobrang kasweetan nya.. he hugged me... and kissed me
we spent our time together, having a date anywhere, pasyal anywhere.. ng kaming dlawa lang... hatidsundo nya ako here in office... pero sometimes we fight sa sobrang kakahinala ka .. he requested me to stop kakahinala... until sa ngagagalit n sya sakin becoz of my attitude !
then Last Sunday, we have a romantic date na d nmen na inaakala.. while we are eating theres fireworks behind on us... he said to me.. i love you while we are walking... then i replied i ilove you too. hmmm date nten may kasama nman tau ... dpat tau lang .. and i said .. yaan muna ... magkasama nman tau ee. then he said oo na.. mamasyal sa sm. at nagpakasaya saan saan, hawak ang kanyang kamay..... he hugged me .. and he whispered .. me something romantic words.. then i smiled... and i said i miss it...
then ... david saculless send a messge to him.. fre may laro rau .. ayan mun
rjlta : mahal natxt sakin si david may laro daw kme mamaya ah
me: eee.... ( sumimangot ako)
rjlta: mahal... pustahn daw
me; cge n nga .. pero mamaya na ah
rjlta : wen mahal
david txted him many times ... but lawrence tried to ignore it bec.. we still having fun ... with my sister, and sister in law.. we eat....
then ... we decided na umuwi na becoz magagagv na den its almost 9 o'clock in evening... sobrang saya nmen sa isat isa on that time.. then lawrence kissed me ... before he separated on us.... he is the super swwweet bf i ever have.....
then nagpaalam sya sakin to play dota with his barkda david.....
i waited a txt message coming from him .. then he txt me pero 2log n ko .. he said that . kakatapos daw ng laro nla ......
in the morning .. i read those txt messages... and then i replied only is .. to great him a goodmorning....
wala akong nahentay n txt nya ,,nagtxt sya skin ,,, afternoon
rjlta: mahal goodmorning , pasensya na ah.. nasubrahan ko ng paglalalro,mhuaaa, mahal n mhal kita mahal ko
me: ahhh
rjlta: mahal nman tampo n nman b, nyameten
me: pnta k d2 mamaya pag wala n ko pasok mga 7, maguusap tau
rjlta: mahal nman .. ocge glud, kain muna ko
no replied coming from me
i found out he used another account on fb.. i got angry.. i found out that he chatting someone else !.. we called that lady ms . B i find way para lang malamn lahat lahat nun. then .. this way.. i sent myself in my foolishness.. nagmukha n akong ,,, tanga... .. i thought my bf was trying to betray me ! hmmmm inaaaway ko sya ng walang dahilan nagpadala ako sa glit . naghabulan kme in street, sigawan .. until we decided n kumain n lang... ! mang inasal.... he ordered... hmmm he said.. hmmm nasungitan ko na yong .. cashier .. its bec, of me daw ! but ... that time naiiyak n ko ... instead n kumain ako .. sa pagkain ko binuhos ang glit ko .. di ako maktngin sa kanya on that time.... i looked on his eyes it seems like... naluluha sya .. pero i said.. bka gnyan lang tlga yan.. bkit nmn sya iiyak ee ... sya nga nagpapaiyak sakin.. evry drops ng tears ko pinapupunasan nya sakin bec. he doesnt want n umiiyak ako dun.. then after syang kumain.. tumimgen ka sakin.. i stared on him.. pero d ko kaya naiiyak kasi ako... gusto mo b mkipagayos sakin.. then d ako nagsasalita instead.. nagwalkout ako.... and left him alone.. hnabol nya ako... nagaway kami .. he is trying n ayusin .. pero d ko sya pinpakinggan.... galit n glit n sya in my attitude ! pnapasakay nia ako sa taxi but i dont want ,,, dun n ngcmula glit nya sakin... ! .. he said alangan nman n mauna akong umwi kaysa sau /... and i said,,, anu b mauna k n ok/// leave me alone !..... umalis sya pero bnlikan nya ako , pinpilit nyang ako pauwiin pero ayw ko ..paulit ulit n panunuyo n please na umuwi n ko .. then inulit ko yong snav ko n iwan nya ako .. at yon iniwan nga nya ako,,,,,/// then after 1 min. sinudan ko sya ,, i txt him n bumalk sya ,, pero d n nya ako bnalikan...
then ,.... i told to him n magusap kme ! puntahan nya ako sa bahay ! then puntahan nya ako .. i waited for him ! then we talk but he is angry .... but in the end.... ok n kme .... until one morning .... magaway kme ng pinsan nya..... his pinsan was the bff of ms. b inaway nla ako .. bec.. i make another account just to imbestigate smething ! ... at nalaman ko n yong girl ay may gusto sa bf ko.. ! then.... i said its not my fault.... im just protecting my bf ... i know im stupid in that way... pero... inuulit ko.. prinoprotektahan ko kung anu meron ako... ! then .. nagsend ako ng message sa bf ko na want to find myself... .. magsarli munatau.. sav // ko without any reason....
and now .. wala n kme ...... gaving yon.... nagpakalsing yung bf ko ... n ngayun ex ko na... d ako nagtxt .. saknya after nung conversation n yon... and then i realizes n i cnt live without him.... na bkit ko sya iniwan ng wala sa reason... and now ... i tried to fix everything peroparang d ko n maibalik.. i know gali n glit sya sakin......
ngayon d ko n alm gagagwin ko , mahal ko sya ... at gngawa ko lahat para maibalik ko yung dati... alam ko nging mahina ako... at sumuko agad... pero ngayon wala ... d ko n maibabablik angnkaraan... tnaga ko kasi ... d nagiisp ... i prayed n sana .. bumalk sya ! n maptawad nya ako !... nayon i pretend that im ok ... pero parang d ko n kya ..ee
hoping that... he will come back to me :( is this the end of our relationship)
the end