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Rosa’s POV:
It had been three months since that day. It was now finally getting into summer, the short skirts, the small shorts were on and the big thick coats were left at home. I was loving it.
What I didn’t love? The fact that Jai had and still is going out of his way to avoid me. I had tried to speak to him once after class, but he practically ran away from me. I wasn’t confused. I was guessing it either had something to do with Claire turning up or he was confused himself.
At this current moment I wasn’t really caring, it was almost exam time and I was studying hard. I may seem like I didn’t care, but I did. I wanted to get a first in this. I was thankful for Blake. Yes he was still here. We had talked and he said he wanted to keep what we had. His mother hated me with a passion now, but he had told me on the sly that she had her breasts made smaller. Took my advice eh? And his dad loved me, for the fact that I stood up for myself and had also told Blake that he had a ‘looker’. He was stopping me from going insane, I ate, breathed and all I talked about was biology at this moment. I had five exams that were going to happen in mid-May. And when you have to remember everything about cells, the body and the biology of plants and other animals it was bound to fry my brain.
Another thing had happened too, that I was told by my parents. That Claire had moved down here with Damon and Jenni. It set my teeth on edge. I did not like that woman one bit. I had seen her once in the whole three months. Once was one day after class, it had ended and we were making our way out. And who did I see there? Claire. She was stood by my car. I had cautiously made my way to it. This was about three weeks since that day.
“Rosa.” She had said. “I want to put everything behind us. Let’s wipe the slate clean?” I had stood in front of her. I scanned her and everything around us. I saw Jai’s car sat in his usual space with him at the wheel and the two kids in the back. His eyes had met mine for a second before he looked away. So this is your doing is it Robins?
“The thing is Claire, is that I’ve not heard you apologise once for the things you said at the park. I have you see. And you are still acting immature by not doing so.” I had saw her jaw clench. Exactly what I wanted.
“I’m sorry.” She said after a few minutes silence.
“Do you mean that?” She looked into my face before a grin broke out on her face.
“Nope, and I know you didn’t either. But Jai wants us to be on speaking terms at least for my kids” she put a lot of emphasis on that word “so I said I’m sorry. So can I go back to hating you in peace?” I smiled pleasantly at her.
“I suppose you can Claire.” I closed the gap between us and hugged her “but listen to me. If you insult me to my face or behind my back and I hear about it, believe me Claire, you will lose the power to speak another word.” I pulled away and unlocked my car “have a nice day Claire. Nice to speak to you again. Bye now.”
Today I was coming out a store that sold cupcakes in the shopping centre and she was there with Jai and the kids. When I saw them, they looked like the perfect family unit. I felt sick looking at them. It was so obviously fake that it was sickly sweet. I was walking opposite them and it happened to be Jenni who saw me first. She had shouted me and ran up to me, Damon close on her heels. Jenni had hugged around the waist; this little girl had always been a little stand-offish with me. But a few months ago she was playing with Hayden and they wanted to play ‘house’ or some silly kids game like that I wanted to look like adults. So I had given them each a really old top that looked like dresses on them and put on a little eye-shadow and lipstick on them. It was really cute. Since then she seemed to warm up to me.
“Hi Jenni.” I pulled her off me, it was startling to how much Jenni looked like Jai, whereas Damon looked more like Claire with the same brown eyes but his were brighter than hers.
“Jenni! Damon! What have I told you about running off?” Looking up I saw Jai there, staring at me, I was glad at that moment of what I was wearing. I had chosen a black fitted skirt with a blue tank top with the blazer I wore a few months at my parents. I wore 5-inch strappy heels, I had my feet manicured the day before and I wanted to show them off a little.
“What are you doing here Rosa?” Jai asked in a stiff voice. Looking for Claire I saw that she was looking in the window of a shop.
“I needed a few bits. And I was walking past the bakery there and I couldn’t resist buying a few.”
“Can we see Rosa? Can we see the cupcakes? Mummy won’t let us go in!”
“Sure.” I pulled them out, they were beautifully decorated. I had bought nine, it came in a box, three were vanilla cakes and the other three were chocolate. They had swirling icing on them each with their own decoration. They looked yummy.
“Pretty! Dad can we go get some please?”
“No Jenni we can’t! We don’t have time.”
“I know, why don’t I give them one each? For after their dinner of course.” I winked at Jenni then and she giggled at me. Opening the box I waited while they chose. Damon had chosen a chocolate on with blue icing and a car on it. Jenni chose a vanilla one with pink icing with a yellow butterfly on it.
“What do you say kids?”
“Thank you Rosa!” they called back. My phone buzzed in my blazer pocket I moved sideways slightly, just so Jai and I were stood slightly together opening the message I saw it was from Blake.
Can’t wait to see you tonight. Wear what I got you ;)
I knew Jai had saw and he obviously interpreted the not to subtle message. I saw a muscle jump in his cheek.
Which one? I quickly texted back.
The lacy one. I couldn’t stop the slight grin that came on my face.
“So you and Blake good then?” His tone held a slight feeling of jealously.
“I guess we are… jealous?” I couldn’t help but ask him.
“Of course I’m not Rosa. Why should I? You’re my student.” Ouch that kind of stung… but I’m not going to lose here. Looking around I saw that the kids were running towards Claire being all excited about their cupcakes.
“Because Blake got to finish what you started. And has done for the past three months. I did feel how much you wanted to carry on Jai, I’m not stupid.” Jai groaned slightly.
“Why did you have to bring that up Rosa? It was a mistake. One that I wish I could go back and stop. If anyone found out what we did Rosa, we can be in serious trouble.” At this point I could feel Claire’s gaze on us both. So I ‘pretended’ to rummage in my bag and pulled out a crumpled piece of paper from a previous lesson. Holding it between us I used this as a shield.
“I don’t think it was a mistake.” I whispered to him. “Honestly if we weren’t interrupted I think we would’ve gone a lot further. Perhaps you could’ve shown me your room seeing as I’ve seen mine…” I let it hang there for a second. I looked into his eyes for a second. And for that brief second we were alone. I snapped out of it pretty quickly. Feeling slightly disorientated I patted his shoulder and walked off. I heard his slightly sharp intake of breath I knew he felt whatever that was then. Whatever this feeling was I was planning to use it as much as possible. I smiled and carried on walking.
Jai’s POV:
I watched her walk away. I thought back to the last three months, it had been torture in some ways. When I had calmed down, Claire and I had sat down and talked. I’d told her to apologise to Rosa and to be on speaking terms with her. Her counter argument was from then on I needed to stay away from her unless it was for class. And even then everything had to be really professional. I thought it was a bit overboard but I wanted my family with me. So I agreed. And I did it.
It was hard, somewhere in the past year she had become some sort of friends. In a real deranged way. She had become someone who I could talk to. But at the same time there was this thing between us, that appealed to my darker side.
Now the only time I saw her was in class. And the weather had warmed up considerably, she was testing my restraint. She came in some ridiculously short skirts. I was trying to stay away but damn. This girl was making it goddamn hard.
*&*
It was now mid-May. It was the exams. I was shitting my pants. It was my first year of teaching. If everyone failed I would be a failure. If everyone did well I would be obviously be a good enough teacher. I had tried my best. But the way Phillips had dropped me headfirst in. It had been extremely scary.
I was sat with all the other tutors in the exam hall. People were slowly coming in and filling the seats. They were laughing and joking, they didn’t have all the worries of being a newbie anymore. My palms were sweating. I couldn’t find the energy to be happy and cheerful. My phone buzzed; taking my work phone out of my pocket I saw that I had a message. Opening it I saw it was from Rosa. Stop looking so nervous. You’ll get wrinkles. Looking up I found Rosa’s face. She smiled softly at me. Thanks, good luck. But I don’t think you’ll need it. I saw her flip her phone open, looking up she smiled again at me. I felt a little more relaxed now; I think I needed someone to tell me that. But not a lot. As the hall got fuller I felt my tension build up again.
Twenty minutes later, the exam started.
Rosa’s POV:
I was sat in my seat; my heart was beating faster than normal. My stomach was churning. I felt like I was going to be sick. Today’s exam was biochemistry. The paper was on my desk, all I wanted to do was rip it open and get started. I started tapping my foot on the floor, I couldn’t help it. If anything for some reason exams always made me so nervous. I looked round the room and I saw it was full. There were two exams going on, biology and I think the other was chemistry or something. The senior teacher Dr Martin-bells stood up. Immediately everyone’s attention was on him, any noise had ceased.
“Okay everyone. Physics” okay I was totally wrong there then “you have one hour. And biology you half an hour and thirty minutes. You may begin.”
I snatched my paper up and opened it. I scanned the first question it read:
What are hydrophobic molecules? What are hydrophilic molecules? How can they be characterized in relation to their polarity?
I smiled, thank god. I knew this. I had read it only this morning again. I wrote the answer, it took three pages. There were only five questions to answer, but each answer had to be so carefully detailed there might as well be twenty questions.
*&*
I stepped out of the hall and let out a breath. It had felt like I was holding it in for the last hour. One down, four to go. For the next week I had all my exams, it was going to be exhausting, all my time next week was going to be all about biology. I was desperate to do something other than read a text book.
“How did it go?” I turned and was met with Jai.
“I think it went alright, the third question, the one on nucleic acids threw me. But I remember what you said in class last week.”
“What did I say?” he looked confused.
“About taking a deep breath and take a second to read it again.”
“Oh yeah… I remember it now!” I smiled at him. My head was starting to hurt, I wanted to sleep before I hit the books again.
“Are you okay?” his voice sounded worried
“Yeah, I’m just really tired. This week is going to kill me.” He laughed a little at that.
“You’ll do fine. Just make sure you get some sleep and food.” He touched my shoulder gently. I couldn’t help but look at his hand, this was the first time he had touched me in a few months. I looked into his face, the same slight electric feel to it. Everyone had left by now and it was just us.
“Jai…” as if coming back to reality he pulled away, I saw a brief flash of confusion before his face settled into looking guilty.
“Sorry Rosa. I just can’t do this.” And with that he almost ran into the building.
Jai’s POV:
I rushed into the classroom and shut the door quickly.
“Stupid, stupid, stupid” I mumbled under my breath. What are you doing? Do you want to ruin everything? I couldn’t get close to her again; I wasn’t going to risk my marriage, my life, my family.
It felt like I was in a battle. And I was losing badly.
I sighed and sank into my chair.
Looking at my desk I saw someone had put a flyer and a note attached had been put into my mail tray. It was for the end of year dance, it was a fancy-dress ball. Everyone had to attend. Even us teachers. It was like one big last thing of the year. Claire’s going to love this… she likes things like this. It was a night like this in which it was the first time we had sex in which resulted in Damon being born.
I sighed. I could only imagine what Rosa would come in. Something that will make your mouth fall open.
I shook my head, no. I’m not even going down that road with you. I thought back.
Why not? You know you won’t be able to resist her for much longer Jai.
I shot out of my seat. I grabbed my bag and ran. I ran non-stop to my car. I jumped in my car and set of as quickly as I could. There was in no way in hell I was going to listen to that voice.
I was going to stay away from her.
I needed to stay away from her.
I had to stay away from her.
I don’t think I can help myself.