A/N: palagi na lang akong sinusumpong ng sakit ng mga author. pag punong puno ako ng idea, wala akong time. pag naman nakaharap na ko sa computer, lahat nawawala. T________T hindi ko ata magagawa ngayon ang makabag'bag damdaming update. sabaw na sabaw ako XD
nga pala. first and last gangster story ko na siguro to. ayoko na ng magulong plot. hahahaha~ siguro yung iba kong mga onhold, hanggang 15-30 chapters each na lang. T.T
dedicated kay: JEkangFlores. :">
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Danica's POV
"ano bang kailangan mo?!" kami lang ang kasalukuyang nasa restroom matapos ang isang conference meeting at sa harap ko ngayon ay si loraine.
"oh, drop it bitch. you know what i want." she said while crossing her arms on her chest.
"then it's a NO. tumabi ka dyan at lalabas na ako" hahawakan ko na sana ang knob ng bigla nyang pinigilan ang kamay ko.
"kung ayaw mong ilabas ko ang baho mo at ng pamilya mo, susunod ka sa gusto ko." mahigpit ang pagkakahawak nya sa kamay ko pero agad ko naman inalis yun at tumingin sa kanya, giving her a "what-do-you-mean-look"
"the public won't like it pag nalaman nila na si Danica Marie Trauss. A well known and respected bachelorette. an image of beauty and perfection.." she paused, then tiningnan nya ako from head to toe at tinuloy ang sinasabi nya. "..ay isa palang disgrasyada. tell me, ilang months ka ng buntis?"
i was taken aback when I heard what she said. alam nya? paano?!
pinilit kong wag magmukhang apektado sa sinabi nya. i retained my composture at nagsimulang magsalita..
"I.. I don't care about my reputation" sabi ko habang nakikipagsukatan ng titig sa kanya.
"Oh, then how about your family's reputation? now that I've think of it. How about your father's reputation? I heard there's a lost account. at ang main suspect ay ang tatay mo. 12 billion it is? ang laking pera nun ano? let's see how the public will react on this one.." she smirked.
"You wouldn't dare--" pinutol nya ang pagsasalita ko.
"Oh yes I would. and yes I can!"
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it was raining hard. kasabay ng pag iyak ko ay ang pag buhos ng malakas na ulan. bakit? bakit sa dinami-dami ng tao, sakin pa bumagsak ang ganito kabigat na problema?
"shhh. everything's gonna be fine" braden tried to comfort me, but i need more than just a comfort. i need a miracle. i need something that'll put an end on this madness.
i cried more as the rain pours harder.
"Danica!" there was a faint voice echoing..
"Danicaaaaa!!" mas lumakas na ito ngayon, and it is more audible. someone's calling my name.
"He's outside.." braden said as he rushed inside my room.
eto na siguro yun. kailangan ko na atang gawin to. ako na siguro ang pinaka masama sa lahat. tumila na ang ulan.
paglabas ko ng gate, isang lasing na xander ang kaharap ko. basang basa sya. palabas na ako ng gate ng magkasalubong ang mga mata namin. his eyes, those iris brown eyes still has the most mesmerizing gaze, but it can't hide the pain he's feeling. it's all because of me. even from the start it was all because of me. sinabi ko kay braden na wag na akong sundan. then he nodded..
pagkalabas ko ng gate, agad akong sinalubong ng yakap ni xander, not minding that he's soaking wet and had drown himself into alcohol. he hugged me thight but i did not hug him back. even if i wanted to. i can't. and i can never will, starting tonight.
"tell me it was all a lie. sinisira lang nila tayo diba? just like what they did before. sabihin mo lang sakin na hindi totoo lahat ng sinasabi nila at maniniwala ako sayo. ikaw lang ang paniniwalaan ko."
"xander.." hinawakan nya ang magkabilang pisngi ko at pinagdikit ang noo namin.
"shhh. i don't care what they say. kaya ko. tanggap ko.. sabihin mo lang sakin lahat." after what he said, i gently pushed him away.
"wala na tayong dapat pag usapan, xander umuwi ka na.." i said coldly. nagulat sya sa sinabi ko, he showed an unexplained mixture of emotion in his face. he was lost of words kaya inunahan ko na syang magsalita.
"totoo yun. lahat ng narinig mo. lahat ng sinabi nila sayo na tungkol sakin. sa pamilya ko. at satin. so please, tama na. tigilan mo na to. tigilan na natin to. alam naman natin pareho na sa simula pa lang talo na tayo."
"if you were talking about your pregnancy, then i'll take full responsibility on that! alam kong ako ang ama ng dinadala mo danica!" nagtataas na sya ng boses ngayon. loraine's words flashback on the back of my head..
"i want you to break him. shatter his heart into pieces. make him wish that he should never even met someone like you.."
"hindi.."
"w-what do you mean?"
"h-hindi ikaw ang ama ng dinadala ko.."
"at sino? si braden? sya ba?!"
"OO!" i saw that, the pain in his eyes. he was startled on what i've said pero agad naman syang nakabawi sa pagkabigla.
"i-idon't believe you. please, stop d-doing this. i love you.." sabi nya habang hawak hawak ang braso ko.
"love? what do you know about love anyway?" i tried to sound cold kahit na alam kong anytime, papatak na rin ang mga luha ko. then i saw him grin.
"love? all i know enough is that it hurts.. so much.." humihigpit ang hawak nya sa braso ko. masakit na ang pagkakahawak nya at alam kong magpapasa ito bukas. then he continued to speak.. "let's settle this. please, let's work things out. sinabi ko na diba? tanggap kita. tatanggapin ko ang bata. i can be a better father than him. ano bang nakita mo sa kanya na wala ako? oh god danica! i would've done those things much better than he can.. I can---"
"Stop!" sigaw ko sa kanya habang inaalis ang mahigpit na pagkakahawak nya sakin. "Stop it xander! enough. It's over. were over. a-ayoko na! tapos na tayo!"
"Hindi! ayoko!! i won't give up! bakit mo ba ginagawa sakin to?!"
"b-because.. because you're not worth it..."
silence.. silence.. and more silence..
"and do you think he is? ano bang pinakain sayo ng gagong yun? you gave up your virginity to me then we made a promise and then you let him impregnate you?! tell me, magaling ba sya sa kama kaya sya ang pinili mo?!"
*PAK*
sinampal ko sya. at tumulo na ang luha na kanina ko pa pinipigil. tumawa lang sya ng mahina habang hawak ang kaliwang pisngi na sinampal ko.
"how dare you think of me like that?!"
"what more do you want me to think?! it's hard not to when you have your heart ripped out in two. all my life danica, all my life i had built up walls and defenses and promise myself to never get hurt and to never let anyone here.." he pointed at his heart.. "but i guess all those bad boy and cold hearted gangster acts were not worth it because there's this girl.. a very stupid one knocked all the walls down and broke my heart.."
biglang lumambot ang pagsasalita nya. he was weary. then yumuko sya..
nakita ko na lang na may pumatak sa semento. luha nya ito. sumunod dito ang pagtaas-baba ng balikat nya at itinakip nya ang kanang kamay sa mukha nya..
"I.. I didn't ask for it. hinding hindi ko talaga inakala na maiinlove ako sayo. na ikaw yng babaeng mamahalin ko ng sobra pa sa buhay ko.." pinahid nya ang natitirang luha sa mga mata nya..
"if you want it that way, then okay. were over. if you want me out of your life, then i promise you'll will never ever heard of me again.." tumalikod na sya. pero bago sya maglakad palayo, may sinabi muna sya bago umalis.
"I now hate love. and it's all because of you."
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A/N: ayos na ba? hahahaha. hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko sa sunod na update! XD any suggestions? uyy. wag naman kayong magtampo kung hindi ako nakakasagot sa pm :( medyo busy na po kasi ako. may tinatapos din kasi akong manuscript kaya limited ang oras ko mag update at minsan (baka lagi?) sabaw talaga ang utak ko kaya wala akong maisip na update. T.T
guys. mahal ko kayo. salamat sa suporta nyo sakin at sa stories ko. lapit na to matapos. di ko na papatagalin. 5 more chapters i think? hahahaha. :')))) ♥