JEN
I threw myself to the ground making Shawn crash into the door. Splinters flew everywhere making me shield my eyes. I quickly got off the ground and darted out the door trying to get away from him as fast as I could.
People were screaming behind me probably at the giant wolf that was racing towards me. I ran outside and tried to shift, only to find out I couldn't. I ran into the woods and tried again remembering the cracking of my bones but, nothing. What the hell!
Shawn howled into the night sky making me jump from fright. How could I have forgotten that he was a killer? And here I was kissing him and enjoying it too!
I could hear his growls getting closer and closer making my heart beat faster and faster. If only he was in human form, I would have kicked his ass but I don't know how to deal with a murderous wolf who I don't want to hurt! What am I going to do? If only Nathan and Zander were here.
I smacked myself when I realized I can have them here.
I opened my mind- link calling them. "NATHAN! ZANDER!" I screamed into their heads.
I guess they both could hear the panic in my voice because they were both talking to me together making me cringe. Their loud voices distracted me from hearing Shawn getting closer. Just as I reached the pack house, I was pushed to the ground.
"Okay guys, don't be mad at me because I know you will, but I went to see Shawn at the hospital and now he is trying to kill me! On top of that, I can't shift!" I said in a rush while pushing Shawn's large teeth out of my face and punching him in the nose. I can't believe he is actually trying to kill me? I knew he hated me but to actually try to kill me, hurt.
My head was silent which had me worried. What if I can't mind-link anymore like I can't shift?
Shawn plunged his claws deep into my arm making me scream out in pain.
"Jen! I'm coming!" I heard Zanders voice. I almost cried in relief.
Nathan pushed Shawn off while Zander shifted into his wolf. Nathan let go of Shawn when Zander tackled him to the ground.
"Are you okay?" Nathan asked when I sat there clutching my throbbing arm.
I ignored his question and asked him a different one.
"Nathan I can't shift? What's wrong with me? Why can't I shift?"
He just stared at me confused, like this was the first time he's heard of something like this. It can't be. They were the warrior pack. They knew everything.
"What do I do Nathan?" I asked him again when he didn't answer me.
"I-I don't know Jen. This is the first time I've head of this."
"A LITTLE HELP PLEASE!" Zander yelled into our heads.
Nathan immediately sprung into action. I watched as my two best friends beat up the guy who was supposed to be the love of my life. I still couldn't help but want to run to shawn's side and defend him even after he almost raped me, attacked me and even tried to kill me. What the hell was wrong with me? No matter how much I tried, I couldn't hate him and all he does is hate me. I had my first kiss with a guy who hates my guts.
I started to feel weak. Weak from the blood loss? Maybe, but then again it wasn't like he had nicked an artery and I was a wolf goddamit I shouldn't feel so weak. The cuts should be healing by now anyways but they weren't.
I stood up only to feel faint. I fell to my knees, scraping them in the process. I screamed as I felt pain coursing through my body. White hot flames licking every nerve.
"Jen!" But I couldn't respond anymore. My tongue felt heavier by the minute.
Nathan and Zander stopped fighting and shifted into their human form and came to help me up onto my feet but my legs felt like jello and I couldn't support them. I almost fell again but was pulled up. Zander held me in his arms bridal style. "Whats wrong with her?" He asked Nathan.
"She was injected with wolfsbane." My mate said with a smirk on his face. My mind trailed back to when he was kissing me. I had felt a pinch on my neck. So, this was his plan all along? And here I thought he actually cared about me.
"Why." I croaked out in a slurry voice, the pain making it unbearable to speak.
"Because Jennifer, I needed you out of the way. Ever since I went under from the chloroform I knew I had to get rid of you. You were going to be the downfall of my success so I seduced you." He said smirking. "I honestly thought you had more self-control but I guess not." He chuckled deviously.
He's talking about self-control! He's the one who almost raped me!
Zander and Nathan took me to the pack house laying me down on the living room sofa.
They hovered over me as they called Matt, Damon, Mark, Chris, Aimee and the rest of the pack members that came with us. I could hear Zander threaten Sharry to come and help me.
I don't remember what happened after that because I was thrown into a black abyss.
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"Jen...Jen...JEN!" I woke up startled, gasping for breath and clutching onto the person sitting closest to me.
"OW! Jesus Jen!" I heard Matts voice cracking with pain.
I opened my eyes and looked around the dimly lit room. I glanced at Matt who was sitting beside me clutching his arm whimpering in pain. "Matt? What happened?" I asked in a croaky whisper.
Matt being the little kiss ass he was, he rushed out the door only to come back with a glass of water. Nathan, Aimee, Mark, Damon and Chris ran into the room.
"You're awake!" Cried Aimee hugging me. I smiled in return and took the glass from Matt, drowning it down in a matter of seconds.
"What happened? Where's Shawn?" They all looked at each other, not meeting my eyes.
"Um..." Nathan said, wringing his hands.
"What?" I asked anxious. I tried getting out of bed but was stopped by Zander who pushed me down with his hand.
I swatted his hand away and stood up making my way to Nathan who still wasn't looking me in the eye. I grabbed his shoulder, forcing him to look at me. "Nathan, just tell me what's wrong."
His eyes looked at me in pity and I couldn't help but think the worst. "Nathan, where is Shawan?" My heart pounded in my chest.
"No, its not about Shawn. I-It's about you."
I got angry. "Will you just freaken tell me what the fuck is wrong?"
"I'm sorry Jen but when the wolfsbane spread to your heart it did something to your genes."
"Oh, God." I backed away from him, covering my mouth as I started to whimper. No.
"You lost your wolf Jen." Cried Nathan, confirming my fear.
"No, no, no." I said denying the terrible news.
This cant be happening, I am a werewolf. I am a werewolf.
My racing heart beat faster and I couldn't breathe in the tiny room so I ran out of the room hearing the cries of my friends in the background but I couldn't think straight.
My bare feet crunched against the dead leaves as I made my way towards the woods. When I got to a secluded area, I imagined myself as my wolf, willing my bones to change. I watched my arm, squinting at the hairs. Why aren't they getting longer. "Zander?" I called him through my mind link. Maybe he didn't hear me? "ZANDER! I'm being attacked!" But no one linked me back. Zander would have definitely answered me. I sunk to the floor.
I sat there for ten minutes, struggling to control myself, but after realizing I couldn't shift or mind-link, I broke.
Loud sobs racked my body as I laid down in the dirt holding my heart.
I can't believe I was known as the strongest werewolf warrior when I couldn't even control my emotions around my mate. I can't believe that I didn't see this coming?
My hand shook with grief. I lost my wolf. The one thing that made me different from the humans. The one thing that connected me to my family, to my pack. The one thing that made me, me.
Maybe I need to get my heart pumping? Maybe that will trigger my bones to shift. I was up on my feet in a second and charged off deeper into the woods.
I ran until my human legs gave in. I think I must have ran for almost an hour. If I was a wolf I could go on for half a day.
I dropped to my knees again, finally realizing this all might be true. Or maybe I was in a coma because of the wolfsbane and now I was dreaming!
I smiled to myself. Yes! This has to be it! I didn't lose my wolf. I didn't lose half my identity. I was dreaming the whole thing!
But then why do I feel so much pain. Why do I feel as if I had just died and came back without a soul.
I must have sat there for hours, hoping all of this was dream but I knew better. I knew how unlucky my life was.
The sound of leaves crunching under footsteps, jolted me out of my pity.
I stood up going into a defensive stance but then relaxed when I realized that whoever was coming for me can probably kill me with ease now whether I protected myself or not.
So, being the human I was now, I stood my ground waiting to die as the prey instead of the predator.