Alex's Point of View
Nangigigil ako sa inis. Shit and damnation! Since day 1 hinayaan ko na ang mali niyang impression sa akin.
But this time I can't let it go easily. Ipinahiya niya ako dahil sa mali niyang akala! How stupid! Shit hindi pa ba niya makita how much I hate Fredrick's touch? Ang bulag niya!
Nagulat ako nang bumukas ang pintuan ng kwarto ko at iluwa siya. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Panic rose up. Napabalikwas ako ng bangon.
"What the hell are you doing here, Gin? This is my room!" I said furiously.
Nakatingin lamang si Gin sa kabuuan ng kwarto ko and grimaced. "I like the ambiance of your room. Fresh and sweet, and just like you, Isabella," he said softly and every hair in my body stood up in sudden heat. Panic is building up. He looked at me. "Hindi pa tayo tapos mag-usap and you left. You are being impolite, sweetheart. Explain about you not liking him," he commanded.
I swallowed hard. Bakit ba ganito na lamang makapagmando sa akin ang lalaking ito? Parang pagmamay-ari niya ako ah! But I found myself answering his question.
I sighed heavily. Iniiwas ko ang tingin. "I don't like Fredrick, okay?"
Naningkit ang mga mata ni Gin. "If you don't like him, then why did I find the two of you kissing passionately in the school room? I don't want to be cynical but I didn't find you hating the idea of him kissing you, Isabella," matigas na sabi nito.
I swallowed hard. Napatingin ako sa kanya. Matiim na matiim ang titig niya sa akin. I stood up and combed my soft locks nervously. Gumawi ako sa bintana.
"Fredrick is persistent in getting me to his bed. If I will not show him I also like that idea at natatakot lamang ako dahil may relasyon sila ni Carmi, I swear he will force himself on me. The only thing that I can hold him off is because I did not show how much I detest his touch," sa nahahapong tinig ay sabi ko.
It's no use telling him lies. At least when it comes to my relationship with Fredrick I could always be honest with him. Dahil sooner or later mararamdaman din niya na hindi ko talaga gusto si Fredrick.
Katahimikan.
When I looked at him nakatitig lamang ito sa akin. Nakakunot ang noo nito tanda ng hindi pagkapaniwala. I sighed. "It's up to you if you will believe it or not. I don't care. Now, will you please leave? I want to rest."
Hindi niya pinansin ang sinabi ko.
"And are you using that trick on me, Isabella?" he asked dangerously.
Nanlaki mga mata ko. Napaawang ang labi. Ramdam ko ang sunod-sunod na pagkabog ng dibdib ko at pagsundot ng guilt. I may not be doing it, not the way with Fredricks', pero still may evil scheme akong binabalak sa kanya.
I couldn't speak.
His eyes grew slit. "Isabella?" he asked impatiently.
I swallowed hard. Iniiwas ko ang tingin. "Look, Gin. I don't know what you mean but---"
"Are you also making me feel that you want me when you really don't?" He walked slowly towards me. Nanlaki mga mata ko. Napaatras ako.
"Gin!" I swallowed hard dahil unti-unti na talaga siyang lumalapit! My heart beats so fast when my back already touched the coldness of my bedroom wall.
He lifted a brow. His two arms banned me from escaping. Nakaharang iyon sa magkabilang gilid ko. And he lowered his head as if he is going to kiss me! I was in panic!
"Don't play games with me, Isabella. Not when I intend to make you my girl. And when I say my girl, you are exclusively for my eyes only. Understood?" His voice becomes husky as his gaze swept all over my face. Saglit na tumigil iyon sa bahagyang nakaawang na labi ko. Wala sa loob na I ran my tongue on it. I am nervous! He is making me nervous for Pete's sake!
"Y-You are out of your mind, Gin! Wala pa tayong one week na magkakilala for goodness sake!" I said exasperately. Napaka-imposible ng lalaking ito! Kung makapagsalita parang kilala na niya ako nang matagal na!
Ni hindi nga niya alam na siya ang pinagpustahan namin ni Carmi para sa kotse ko!
Sa naisip ay sinundot na naman ako ng konsensya.
Napayuko ako. "Look Gin, w-we don't know each other yet. Can we--I mean. let us not rush things okay?" sa mababang tinig ay sabi ko.
He sighed. Tumuwid na ito sa pagkakatayo. Inalis na rin ang kamay at ipinamulsa na lamang.
"I am not so keen on waiting for a girl to adjust to the idea that I want her!" he looked up at the ceiling na para bang nag iisip.
Pagkuwa'y he looked at me. "Okay. We will do it nice and slow, as what you want Bella. But, I am not a very patient man. Baka maghanap ako ng iba," tila nananakot na sabi nito.
Naningkit ang mga mata ko! Nagpuyos agad ang loob ko. Hindi pa man kami ay may balak na agad magloko!
He laughed when he saw my expression. Napakurap ako. He is beautiful when he is laughing...
He grinned at me. Pinisil nito ang baba ko. "You are so cute, Bella. Go and change, I will take you to dinner," he commanded.
Naningkit ang mga mata ko sa kabila ng pagdunggol na kakaibang kaba sa dibdib.
"Inuutusan mo ba ako?" I asked hotly.
Lumapad ang pagkakangiti nito. "Hurry up, I'll wait downstairs. Kapag wala ka pa in 15 minutes, I swear I will dress you myself!" he said bago lumabas sa kwarto.
Naiwan akong nakatanga. 15 minutes?! Sinong babae ang makakapag-ayos within 15 minutes! I easily grab my towel and go to the bathroom!
I KNOW I am blushing hard. I never blushed this much. Not especially when a guy tells me I am beautiful. Matagal ko ng alam 'yon.
But when he speaks that way, it feels like he is the only man who saw me beautiful. My heart keeps on beating so fast inside my chest. Parang nais ng lumabas.
Ni hindi nito inaalis ang mga mata sa akin. Inabot nito ang palad when I reached the end of the stair. I swallowed hard as I give him my hand.
He holds it firmly. I could feel the sudden heat when our skin touched. I wanted to pull away but he never let me. Instead he slowly pulls me.
I gasped. "Gin!"
He smiled at me. His eyes look directly at mine. And I could feel nausea. This guy is so impossible!
"You look so beautiful tonight, sweetheart. And you also smell good. Para tuloy iba ang naiisip ko right now," he whispered as he lowered his head to my hair na para bang inaamoy 'yon.
And my heart thuds when I felt he softly kiss the top of my hair. Napapikit na lamang ako.
"I have never liked you, Bella, the way I am liking you right now," he murmured.
Napakagat-labi ako. Guilt overwashed me. And it's unbearable.
"Gin."
He laughed slowly. "I know. It's just dinner, sweetheart, just as I promised. Even if it will kill me to not kiss you," he said with regret.
Napalunok ako. At aminin ko man o hindi I am anticipating his kiss!
Oh, god! What are you doing to me, Gin?
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