*Castiel's POV*
"I don't love you." The words play over and over in my mind and each time they do my heart breaks again. How could I fuck everything up this bad. "Cas?" I hear Gabriel knock on the bathroom door. "Go away Gabe." I say through my tears. "Cas are you okay?" "I said go away Gabriel!" I rest my elbows on my knees holding my head up watching a small puddle of water grow bigger from my tears. I hear Gabe walk away from the door and I couldn't hold myself up. I start shivering while crying. How can I love someone so much, it hurts. I get up from the cold floor and take my clothes off. I look at my body and run my hands over my scars, scars only I know about. My bodies ugly, I'm not perfect, I'm not lovable. I'm nothing. I wipe the stained tears from my face and get into the bath tub of nice warm water. I tilt my head back so my face is under the water. I close my eyes and flash backs of Dean and I race through my mind, then it stops to earlier today. "I don't love you." I come up from the water gasping for air. I want to cry I just don't have any tears left, I have a pounding headache that hurts but not as much as a broken heart. I get out and put my robe on wrapping it around my body. I step out into my bedroom and pick up my phone. I press call on Dean's name as it rings out. "Hey this is Dean Winchester. You know what to do." "Dean.. Please lets talk about this.." I hang up the phone and sit down on my bed. I get under the blankets and close my eyes falling asleep.
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Short I know but I am going to update a couple of chapters tonight. xo