Collapsing
Surrendering
Ceasing
Why can't I just stop the pain
Stop everything
Stop being never good enough
Stop being fat and ugly
Stop life
I want it to end
Can't keep going
Can't keep living
Can't keep breathing
Can't keep wanting
If there was only one word
To make myself happy
To rebuild the walls
To fix the scaffolding again
To stop it all
But there isn't
And there'll never be
Why can't I just stop living?
I can't bear it anymore