Chapter 4
Forgive And Forget
Miss May I
“What are you doing here?” I asked as I opened the front door to see Alex standing there with an apologetic look on his face.
“I came to apologize to you.” Alex said as he pulled a bouquet of flowers from behind his back. “Can I come in. Please?”
I looked back over my shoulder to see mom still sound asleep on the couch. I don’t know why she didn’t go up to her room when she got off work. “Yeah.” I said as I opened the door a little more so he could get through the little amount of space that I allowed and shut it behind him, not wanting the heat to escape the warm house. “We can go in the kitchen.” I whispered. I don’t want him in my room right now. That seemed too…personal.
It was silent for a moment as we sat down at the dining table, neither of us saying anything. I sure as hell wasn’t going to break the silence first. “Look, Andie I am so sorry. I have no idea what came over me. It’s just…picturing you with someone else, I got jealous. I don’t want someone to take you away from me. I couldn’t handle not being with you. I need you in my life. I swear to you, nothing like that is going to happen ever again! I will never raise a hand to you as long as I live.”
Looking into his eyes, I could see he meant it. No matter how much I didn’t want to let him off the hook this easy, I couldn’t help but forgive him. In my mind it’s the right thing to do, but my heart is yelling at me to push him out of my house and never let him around me again. I slowly nodded my head yes, “I forgive you.” I whispered.
“Thank you, thank you, thank you!” Alex said as he stood up and pulled me into a forceful hug.
I did my best not to wince under the pressure as he squeezed me even tighter. It wouldn’t have hurt if I didn’t have bruises along the whole side of my body. Luckily the mark on my face wasn‘t that noticeable. Plus with a little cover-up, nobody would be able to see a thing…hopefully. “I need to get going.” I said the moment I was free from his grasp. I didn’t want to get him angry again, but I was going to be late.
I saw a glimpse of the usual anger flash in his eyes, before he hid it and cleared his throat before he asked, “could I catch a ride with you and I’ll just leave my car here and get it after school?”
“Sure, but I have to get Hayley.”
“Then I guess we better get going.” Alex said after a brief pause. I’m assuming he was trying to keep his temper under check. I’m just thankful my mom was in the next room, even if she was asleep; he would never try and hit me in front of my mom. He usually doesn’t start showing signs of being mad again so soon.
“Let me put the flowers in a vase before we go. I don’t want them to die.” I said as I pulled down a vase and filled it up with water before I put the flowers in and set it down under the windowsill.
“Perfect.” Alex smiled.
“Thank you for the flowers.” I said after a second.
“No problem.” He smirked as he leaned down to kiss me. It took everything I had not to turn my face away from him.
“Lets get going.” I said as I pulled away from him when he lingered a little too long for my liking. I breathed a silent sigh as I got in the drivers seat and looked through my CD selection, settling on ’Bring Me The Horizon’ knowing Alex didn’t like them, but I was past the point of caring. I needed to listen to music and not his voice. I stopped in front of Hayley’s house and pulled out my phone, sending her a text letting her know that I was waiting for her.
I saw her face drop when she saw Alex was in the passenger seat. “Good morning.” Hayley said, trying to keep a smile on her face.
“Morning.” I replied over the music, not bothering to turn it down. I didn’t want to hear anybody talk. All I want is to hear the music. Besides, I hate it when you have to turn the music down just so someone can talk. Cant they get the hint and shut up until you get to your destination like a normal person to start talking.
Too soon we stopped in front of the school. I didn’t waste any time getting out of the car and waiting for Alex and Hayley to catch up with me. I immediately went through the school doors, feeling the warmth surround me. Not saying hi to anyone that I recognized as I passed, I went to my locker and shoved my bag in there and pulled out the books that I needed. I slammed my locker door shut behind me and turned around, coming face to face with the last person I expected to see.
“Hi. Long time no see.”
“Yeah…” I looked around suddenly nervous that Alex was going to see me talking to a guy. “You go to school here?” I asked, taking in his clothing attire. He had on a black and white shirt, with a little bit of gray (cut up m mind you) so the black fishnet could be seen underneath, black skinny jeans and an army tag necklace around his neck.
“Nope. I’m doing more of a survey thing with the students.”
I felt my eyebrows furrow underneath my bangs as I took in his words. He doesn’t go to school here…so what the hell is he doing here? I looked up at Johnny B and asked, “What are you looking for?”
“I was doing a survey for which people prefer.”
“Yeah?” I asked with a smile on my face. “What are the choices?” I couldn’t help but feel giddy inside.
“Rap or rock?” He asked simply with a smile on his face as if he already knew what my answer was going to be.
“Why those two choices? What about the genres in between?”
“Those are irrelevant. Which do you prefer?” Johnny B asked with a smirk on his face. I could already tell what he would choose just by what he was wearing.
“Rock, easily.”
“Good choice.” Johnny B said as he took a step towards me, since I was already backed against the lockers, I couldn’t help but stay where I was, even if I wanted to take a step back.
“Andie. You’re going to be late to class.”
My head jerked towards a pissed off looking Alex. Shit! “I’ll see you later?” I said as I tried to get around Johnny B.
I flinched when I felt Alex grab my already bruised arm and did my best to not let either one of them see that I was in pain. A pissed off expression crossed Johnny B’s face as he reached a hand out to grab my arm and pull me away from Alex, but we were already too far away from him and turning the corner. “Is that him?” Alex ground through his teeth.
“He’s just a friend.” I said between clenched teeth. “You’re hurting me.” I said as tears welled up in my eyes.
“You’re a liar. Get to class you’re late. We’ll deal with this later.”
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To say I was skittish when class got out, was an understatement. I jumped whenever someone touched me in the tight hallways or if I heard my name, even if they weren’t even talking to me; however the feeling completely washed out of my mind when I saw a note on my locker from Johnny B with his number. ‘Sorry if I pissed off your boyfriend…Give me a call sometime?’
I don’t know whether to be mad or glad that he gave me his number. If Alex finds out…I don’t even want to know what he would say. Or do. I shuttered at the thought and opened my locker to get out my books for my next class, making sure to slam the door shut.
“What was that in your hand?”
My heart nearly stopped when I heard Alex standing behind me. Shit. “Nothing. Its just a note from Hayley. She wants me to meet her at the store for lunch.” I lied. There is no way I’m going to tell him what the piece of paper really says. He clearly forgot what he told me this morning about not raising a hand to me ever again…I should have seen that one coming.
“You’re not going to meet her for lunch. We’re going to talk about what happened earlier.” Alex said as he turned around and walked towards his next class when the bell rang.
Great! That conversation isn’t going to turn out well. At least we’ll be on school property where there are teachers everywhere. And if they aren’t in sight, they will be in hearing distance. At least I hope there will be.
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