Austin and I didn't really go anywhere big. We kinda just walked around the city. He showed me a lot of places I haven't even knew exited.
He dropped me off to my hotel. Everything about him was way different from Zayn. He's like a missing piece to a pie. Zayns the pie and Austin's the missing piece. Austin's not a jerk, but Zayn is. We were standing in the front of my hotel room. Awkward silence had filled the hallway.
Only for a second.
The hotel room door opened. I turned around to see Zayn standing there. This was not what I expected. Now the awkwardness is just going to get worse. I stood in between, not knowing what to do. All I know is that this might not turn out well. Zayn was frozen. He didn't even move an inch. Austin acted like nothing was going on. He was relaxed unlike me and Zayn. And as if I can tell the future, Zayn immediately starts speaking and Austin smiles.
"Hi I'm Austin Mahone. I was just hanging out with this beautiful lady. I heard she's in your band, right?" He stepped forward greeting Zayn with his hand out.
"Uh yah." Zayn said slowly. He stepped backed away from Austin slowly. His response made Austin put his hand down. I rolled my eyes at how much of a child he was. "We'll I gotta go." He said slowly, again stepping away from Austin. He walked down the hallway, ruffling his hair. He looked like he just woke up and I've known him long enough to know he's going to come back. Probably getting breakfast. That's all he's doing. If he is tired, he wouldn't be out for that long.
The silence immediately came back when Zayn left. I scratched my forehead not knowing what to do. Austin hand his hands in his pockets, swaying up and down. I wanted to tell him sorry for Zayns childish attitude, but it would've probably made things more awkward. "Um thank you for today." Before he could say anything else, I walked in the living room. My body sunk into the chair, while I watched tv.
About fifteen minutes later, the door opened. I didn't have to turn around to see what or who it is. I turned off the tv and walked into the kitchen acting as if I never heard it open. His footsteps were getting closer. I grabbed a glass of milk and sat on the counter, kicking my legs back and forth.
"Who was that!" Zayn slammed his keys on the table. I flinched. Some milk spilled on my shirt.
"What the heck!" I yelled back, slamming my milk on the table, making more spill.
"Why were you hanging out with him?!"
I laughed bitterly. "Since when do you think you can go in my personal life." I stepped towards Zayn, which made him step forward.
"I don't think you should go out with him. You don-" I cut him off.
"Your not my dad. Heck, I didn't even have one. He was to busy making out with other women behind my moms back." Zayn looked scared but sympathetic and sorry. I made another move and stepped closer. His response was stepping back. "You know what he also did, he abused her in front of me. He never hurt me though! Apparently I was to special and important to him! I didn't know what he meant at the time but now I know." Tears sprung in my eyes as the memories filled in. Zayn was shocked, surprised, full of alot of emotions. "You wanna know what he was going to do to me Zayn?" I stepped forward, then Zayn stepped back. He kept shaking his head no. I wanted to stop but I couldn't. I just had to let the anger out. Tears were now falling and the pain I felt when I was little came rushing back. The hurt, the betrayals, the lies, everything came rushing back. "He was going to rape me. I was going to be his special victim! I didn't know at the time what it meant, but now I do. My mom put him in jail. It's been thirteen years since I've seen him." That's when I started sobbing. "You know how scared I am at night. I used to always have nightmares about if he came b-back and was going to hurt me. The worst thing about that dream though is knowing that all the sacrifices my mom put me through to keep me safe had been for nothing!" I don't know why i told him all of that honestly. It started from "don't hang out with him", to "my dads in jail". I fell to the floor crying. I covered my face in my hands, shaking trying to shake my thoughts away. Arms wrapped around my shoulders. Zayn whispered soothing words to my ears, calming me down. After a while, I found myself falling asleep in Zayns arms on the floor, while he kept whispering more words into my ears.
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I woke up wrapped in somebody's arms on the couch. I felt a hard chest breathing slowly. It was Zayn. I looked up to see Zayn awake watching tv. He looked relaxed.
"Do you like the view." He grinned.
My cheeks flushed. "U-uh no, I just thought you were asleep." I lied. Which I'm not really good at. I guess Zayn believed me. He didn't seem to notice. This is the side of Zayn I like though. The one that's not a jerk.
"Emma. I..I uh uh-" I cut him off.
"Yes." I said irritated.
"Nothing never mind." He went back to watching tv. I did the same.
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I woke up and got ready to head out today. Last night was depressing. I thought I would regret telling Zayn my personal life, but I dont. Which is the first time that ever happened to me in a while. Only Jade and Zayn know. I snapped out of my thoughts when my phone vibrated.
It was Austin
Me
'Hey :-).'
Austin
'Hey do you wanna hang out today. This time it won't be the lame city.'
Me
'It wasn't lame :-/'
Austin
Lol:-) you didn't answer my question.'
Me
'Yes. where are we going?'
Austin
'You'll see. :-!'
Me
'Uuughh!!! I hate surprises.'
And with that, I left the hotel room.
I met him outside. His car looked exactly like Zayns but darker. I smiled at he thought of Zayn. No regret came from me at the thought of him. Or anger. All I felt was happiness.
The car was silent. It was very uncomfortable. Usually Zayn and I would sing in the car or have stupid fights that made no sense. But I was more comfortable with Zayn. The car ride felt like it could go on for days. I was ready to jump out of the car until I heard Austin. "So what's your family like. You never really mentioned anything about them yesterday." I tensed up at the moment. I didn't feel comfortable telling my personal life, even about my family. I knew that if I told Austin though, I would regret it. I'm delicate when it comes to trust.
"Uh there back in London. There working on something. My sister Jade is in dance class in New York. I'm planning on seeing her." I stare out the window, trying to avoid eye contact. He probably believed me because he didn't answer me. He just kept on driving.
After the long excruciating drive, we stopped in front of a movie theatre. It was big with bright neon colors.
"Two tickets for paranormal activity."
"What?! Nononono." I started walking. Before I could reach the door, Austin grabbed my hand and pulled me back. Our noses practically touched each other. I could almost feel my heart pop out of my chest. A sudden guilt hit me and I brushed past him. I don't know what's wrong with me.
I clinged tight onto Austin through the whole movie. I'm not good with horror movies. Anytime I would grab onto Austin, he would pull me closer. Which made me feel safer.
I slapped Austin on the arm as we headed out the movie theatre. "Never again will I watch a scary movie with you." I laughed.
"What come on it wasn't even that scary." He laughed.
"Well I have you to protect me, right." I nudged him
We stopped walking. He turned to look at me. It felt like he was looking deep into my soul. He moved my hair out of my eyes and stepped closer. His lips were close to mine. I stepped closer and that's when our lips connected. It was long but then quick. It was like I wanted more. He slowly moved away. Our bodies just stayed there. This was going to be awkward.
The ride to the hotel was quiet. Just as i expected. I was glad that I was at my temporary home. This time he didn't walk me to my hotel room. I opened the door to see the boys home. "Hey." I sat my purse on the table.
"Hey." Niall said, running up to me, giving me a hug. Everyone did the same, except Zayn. I should've known last night wasn't going to last. He went back to being the jerk.
I walked over to him to see if there was still hope, that he could actually be like he was yesterday. "Hi Zayn." I bent down to touch his shoulder, as if I was trying to wake him up, but he shoved his shoulder away from me. Like if I was a pest. Hurt hit my stomach. What's wrong with him. Is he always this emotional. And to think I actually thought he would stop being the arse he is and actually be nice. Niall seemed to be the only one who noticed what was going, because he stopped putting ice cream in his bowl. I don't know why I tried to give Zayn a shot. To think I could actually trust him or give him a chance. This is what always happens. I should've known this was going to happen. And I shared all those things with him. My fears, my secrets. Tears sprung in my eyes. I felt one fall on my cheek. I immediately wiped it away. I couldn't give him the satisfaction. Before any more tears could fall out of my eyes I ran to my room. Which was temporary. I swung the door closed. I sobbed, sliding myself down to the floor, as I lay my back on the door. My face was hidden by my knees. I'm so stupid. I don't know why I tried to give him a chance. I actually had feelings for him. Why couldn't I see this coming.
You know what. No. I'm not gonna cry. I'm not gonna do this. Im gonna go out there and act as if nothing happened. Yep that's what I'm gonna do. I walked to the bathroom and washed my face.
I walked out of my room, slowly with my head down. My eyes met two feet with black boots covering them. Then I saw the jeans. The more I put my head up the more I realized who it was. When I reached his face, I was infuriated. He bit his lip. He didn't look nervous or scared or emotional like he was before. "You ARSE!!!!" I yelled pushing him. He stumbled back. I didn't expect it to be that hard. But I didn't care. He deserved it. Niall, Liam, Louis and Harry just watched as I kept on swearing and pushing Zayn. Right when I was about to hit Zayn, he grabbed my arm and through it back to my sides. I felt defeated, which made me even more angry. The tears came back to my eyes and they kept pouring. I sobbed. Zayn wrapped his arms around me. Before I could even become his putty, i pushed him away. "Don't touch me!" I yelled pushing him away. "Don't try to act like you care. I bet that's what you did yesterday, right? You heard all my secrets and I shared my past with you! I thought that after all that I told you, you wouldn't add on more pain."
I sobbed even more.
"You don't understand, I-" I cut him off.
"Oh I understand completely." I turned around to see we were alone.
"How are you suppose to understand when you haven't even heard what I have to say."
"Okay, fine."
"I saw you, with him. I saw the kiss." I looked at him confused. Wait, the kiss, him. He was talking about Austin and I.
"Zayn I-" now he cut me off.
"It's fine. It just hurts to know that someone you want to be with so bad likes somebody else." His eyes widen and he immediately shut his mouth. He has feelings for me. My mouth was wide open. " I shouldn't ha- you know what, screw it." He stepped closer, grabbing my hands. "Emma, I want to be more than friends. I really want to be with you. These emotions I have, I never felt before. You make me feel this way. It's hard to be around and see your beautiful face, knowing you belong to someone else." His Adam's apple moved up and down and I could tell he's trying not to cry. "I would never hurt you. I would never lie to you." At this point, I didn't know what to think. He likes me and I like him. But what about Austin. It was just one kiss. It's not like it meant anything to him. Did it. Of course it means something to him. But I have to be with Zayn. I want to be with Zayn.
He leaned down. I already knew what was coming. His lips touched mine. I didn't care what happened. I just wanted to kiss him. Electricity moved up my body. Everything in my body was heated, by his soft lips. I wrapped my arms around his neck. His hands moved down to my waist. Our lips moved in sync. It was so wrong it felt so right. We were breathless. He smiled and so did I.
(AN: well there together kinda. Btw. I'm back!! I'm so happy!!! Comment, do what evs!!! More dramaaaa to comes!! Bye bye bye.)