Bea's POV
naputol ang pag mumuni muni ko ng biglang nag ring yung phone ko, I look at the screen ,its Dave! shit! andito pa si ken baka magalit nanaman pag nalaman niya! but what if this is something important! lumingon lingon Muna ako.mukha namang walang nakatingin eh..Suzy is busy on her computer and ken ? I dunno.. can't see him.. lumayo ako ng konti..mahirap na .;
"uhmm hello? "
"eyyyy owww beh-a"
"Dave?! what's the matter? are you drunk?where are you"? halata kasi sa boses eh! ang ingay sa kabilang linya.. parang nasa loob ng bar"
"wheyr em me? uhmmmsss bar..eymm not druynk okey? " bigla akong may narinig na parang sigawan sa kabilang linya at parang putok ng bala?!!!
"hey Dave?! who are you with??! where are you?!" ulit ko rito. ! nang walang sumagot ! bigla akong kinabahan
"Dave!" "******* bar... ohhh emmm by mey chelf.owe look at theys pepoy! killing eatch other"
"what? what were you thinking! I'm gonna pick you up!! stay there okay!"" parang kinabahan na talaga ako ng may marinig na naman akong putok ng bala! shit! kailangan ko yung puntahan! I turned back then ....
"ken?" bulalas ko ! shitttt!
"oh honey?" sabi nito. nakahinga naman ako..mukhang wala naman siyang narinig ! thanks God! " uhmm ken? can ii go now? may naalala kasi akong gawin eh?"
" oh okay . do you want a ride?"
"noo.no.no .I'm fine. got my car with me" then I just smiled. parang kinakabahan ako? is there something wrong??? no..probably its just because of Dave! nag paalam na ako Kay Suzy and go immediately ! oh Dave! you're a crazy man!
after minutes narating ko nadin yung club" andaming tao at may mga police pa! shit! I look for Dave "
"asan na ba yun?! " nakipagsik sikan ako sa mga tao and went inside ". shit! anggulo! basag na mga bote everywhere!
"Dave!" sigaw ko
"Dave"!
"Dave!" then I heard someone moaned ! napalingon ako .. but I saw no one.. I walk to the direction of the voice then ...
"ouchhh!
shit!" sigaw ko ng bigla akong mapadapa ! medjo madilim kasi sa lugar at may mga usok usok pa!
"bey-ah"
"Dave???" kinapa ko pa kung tao nga yung nakatapig sa akin..
"bey-ah"
"Dave!! shit! what were you thinking! "
"he he" tawa lang nito! I tried my best to pull him up! nakakalakad pa naman ito so kahit papano hindi ganun kabigat ! I pushed him inside the car !
"shit ! go inside you crazy man!" nang makapasok na ito I went to the drivers sit! .. ugh! I'm sweaty! and tired! kahit pa medjo nag lalakad pa to pagewang gewang nnm ! buti nalang malapit lang din ako naka park ... hayss! now? where I'm gonna bring you?! nilingon ko ito but looks like tulog n tulog na..
"I can't take you home.. I dont either know where your house is!" then no choice .. ill bring this guy to the hotel! thirds person POV but bea's not aware of those eyes hiding in the dark.!
Bea POV
"aist! ano ba tong lalaking to! iinom inom kasi tapos di pala kaya!" habang inaalis ko ang sapatos niya. napahawak ako sa ulo ko..hayy nako pano ba to?? I stared at his shirt. an dumi niya! so I decided to remove his shirt. well I got nothing to replace though :0 umungol lang ito.. pawis na pawis din ako after undressing him.bigat kaya!; 000 phewwww! naupo ako sa tabi niya at simulang punasan siya.. nye! he's a hunk! geeee Ken's gonna kill Me if he heard that I just said that haha. napangiti padin ako upon thinking of him.. my geee! so really..he's now on my nerves :+
(( after making sure everything's okay I just lay down for a moment and think of going home.. okay naman na siguru tong kumag na to dito! hayyy! palabas na ako ng hotel when "ringggggggggg..ringgggggg!" I stared at the screen.
"KeN calling " I'm supposed to ignore it kaso alam kong magagalit na naman yun!
"hello?" "
honey home yet?"
" uhmm yeah ..matutulog na nga ako eh" pagsisinungaling ko.
"oh sure?" tanong pa nito.!
",uhmm-m ye-ahhh" bulong ko..kinakabahan na din kasi ako nuh !
"oh okay! sleep tight hon!," nakahinga ako ng maayos
"yup! love you!" but instead of hearing "I love you too" its just the end tone ! napatingin ako sa phone ko. I felt something bad.... he didn't even say he loves me too! :(
Dave's POV
I woke up in the morning head fuckin hurting! napalingon ako! phew! I wasn't in my room ! I remembered what happened last night and I look around wishing she's still here! but instead .. I found a note beside the table .
"hey you ! you're in a hotel right now! i went home.do get your ass up and go home! drunken ass! " . instead of getting offended napangiti ako. . god Bea! you really is something .
Ken's POV
I was walking in the hallway.. thinking of something that is really making me feel bad.. and I hate this feeling.. ill be fighting till the end but if it's her who really doesn't care... then ... let it .....
Bea's POV
I was again on a shed right now...just sitting..well I don't like crowded hallways and rooms to stay so I'd prefer coming in here... I can say this place is my favorite spot though. I just bring my ear pods out and just listen to music.. I don't know if ken's here now..well probably not yet ;0
I remembered DAve! gising naman na siguru yun.. right ? I lay may head down the table and close my eyes.. ohhh this is relaxing ! bigla nalang akong napamulat when I felt someone hugged me by my side .. . napaangat yung ulo ko !
" Dave!"
"sweetheart" sabay sandal ng ulo nito sa balikat ko.. bigla balang akong napalingon.. who knows KEn's just around ! geeez that just again creep me out!
"hey! get off! " bulong ko rito . instead he hugged me tighter and "thank you so much! I just smiled "no worries .. I'm always here, "
" "yeah that's why I love you!" . nagulat at napatingin ako dito..
"Dave"
"its okay ... don't worry..I just want you to know..I love you Bea " sabi nito na nakatitig sakin. I don't know but I became so uneasy and conscious I cleared my throat .. "
...Dave...I love you to-"
Ken's POV
I didn't notice the tear dropping from my eyes. wala akong maramdaman ngayun but hurt ! I'm not a crying baby but I just think I'd loved her that much ! " ...Dave...I love you to-" hearing this words from her ! bigla nag dilim ang paningin ko.. I felt betrayed! fuckkkkkkmmm! my hands almost crushing my phone ! let's see ! let's see Bea !
Bea's POV
I missed him ! di ko pa siya nakikita! I tried calling him but got no response napag isip isip kong puntahan siya sa bahay niya..he's just probably there . oh...how I missed that guy!
so I quickly get up and walk towards the place . as I reach it I heard people chatting, loud music, and laughters. they're having a party ??? and I'm not invited ? I felt that slight pinch onto my heart. but still walk forward and go inside . they were lots of people just like I thought!rich kids as expected! loud cracking music and people dancing everywhere! what's happening here??! who's party is it? but I just decided to look for him. asan na yun?? I went over the place! I even covered my ears and tried to go through those bunch of people around! then there at the mini bar I saw him , he's sitting with a bunch of people ! not just people... but girls!
napatigil ako . parang kinurot yung puso ko..! pero dahan dahan parin akong lumapit rito.
"hi ?" I said... to my surprise he didn't even bothered to look at me .! I know he heard me!
"ken?" I said
"what?" he said with like boredom and " I don't -wanna -talk -to-you " tone. just staring and playing that bottle of beer bigla akong kinabahan , what's wrong!
"hon? what's wrong?" I said trying to be relaxed
"tskkk! excuse me? did you just called me hon?!get out off her bitch!" then those blank expression In his eyes! nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa sinabi niya!I was shocked! at pakiramdam ko sinuntok ako ng milyong beses! "bitch?" he calls me "bitch"? parang bigla akong nanghina! and tears started forming in my eyes! then there's some giggles! yung mga babaing nakapaligid sakanya na halatang natutuwa sa nangyayari! bigla akong napahiya but that's not what I'm concerned about now! ! what was happening to him!
"k-,en" I said in almost unrecognized voice! at di ko na napigilan yung pagpatak ng luha ko
"what?! I said get out of here bitch ! we're done !" he hissed with those blank eyes! parang biglang naging ibang tao yung kaharap ko ! its not Ken ! its not my Ken !! lalong nag unahan yung mga luha sa mata ko !
"i- I don-t uun-derstand?" I tried to speak , and don't even know whether he heard it or not! ang sakit! I can feel nothing now but pain !
"what can't you understand? "then he grabbed my arms ! I closes my eyes! ouch ! it hurts! then he just started to drag me out of the place! tears still running in my face! what have I done wrong! napahikbi ako lalo nang pabalag niya akong itinulak at mapaupo sa semento! he just throw me out of the place! and we're now making a scene ! then someone , I wasn't sure bout his name came "dude what's wrong!" sabay hawak Kay ken sa braso
"don't fucking touch me! hiyaw ni ken ! then he's eyes went on me again! tears dripping all over my face!
"now! get out off here! so you wanna hear it ?? you want to hear the truth?! I didn't love you! never! youre nothing for me but a toy !
." I didn't love you! never! youre nothing for me but a toy !"
"I didn't love you! never! youre nothing for me but a toy !"
"I didn't love you! never! youre nothing for me but a toy !" parang bomba na sumabog sa pandinig ko bawat katagang bibitawan niya at paulit ulit na sumisigaw sa Isip ko ! ang sakit! ang sakit! pakiramdam ko di ko na maigalaw yung katawan ko! pakiramdam ko hindi na gumagana ang utak at katawan ko! nakatingin lang ako sakanya with tears all over! I can't barely move! is this just a bad dream?! please wake me up!shock all over me!
"ke-n" i tried my best to open my mouth! I can't barely heard what I've said! pero tinignan lang niya ako with blank expression! parang wala lang sakanya yung ginagawa niya! then he just started walking away...back to the house.. napatingin ako sa paligid.. mga tao nagbubulungan ! others look at me with pity but some where like,
"yes-bitch-cause-you-assumed! look!" bigla akong napayakap sa sarili ko then close my eyes! bigla akong naawa sa sarili ko, , someone who was just thrown like a disgusting garbage! napahikbi nalang ako.. what have I done wrong! di ko na alam ang sumunod na nangyari .. bigla nalang nandilim ang paningin ko.. .
Bea's POV <
I went to school.. and.. everybody's staring at me.. well why wouldn't they ?tsk ! I smirk .. you were just thrown like a garbage ..remember?? sigaw ng isip ko.that'll be so interesting to talk about!. nobody's talking to me... but that's fine..I don't need them though ..but what made me feel so bad is that even those whom i called friend last time , ignore me now just like shit ! minsan gusto ko nalang umiyak and feel pity for myself! but I can't! I can't just stop living just because of that ! I'm trying my best to forget ... well ..I said trying ..
. I know.. someday I'll forget him... but the process will take much time and pain... . I've never realized I loved him that much....yeah his not my first boyfriend but..... I can say he's my first love.... and .. that first who took everything from me ,,, most specially my heart! its been a week and I just cant stop thinking and feeling pity for myself..
I'm pathetic !..that's what just he showed me.. the worst is that, I don't even know why we turned like this.. oh yeah! I forgot! tsk ...he never loved me ! just a toy! that's why Bea ! that ..that! sigaw ng isip ko...pero iba ang sigaw ng puso ko! I missed him! I missed everything about him! i know he's been a part of my life! and I want him back. despite of what he did... I just mean.... I still love him! and that's probably stay.....forever..
Ken's POV
I looked at Bea ... it seems like nobody even bothers to talk to her...tsk... ! what do I care anyway... ! she's a liar and betrayer! and that just made my heart broken into fucking pieces!! now... I don't give a shit! ..I'm done! I don't care! I clenched my fist ... . I just felt hatred unto me !
"I promise... you'll be very sorry Beatrice Rodrigo !"
Bea's POV
Matty calling....... ' hey' matamlay kong sagot... I'm at the cafeteria right now..its almost 4:00 .. "sweetheart? how are you?"
"uhmm good;;;.where are you?"
" uhmmm home... could you come here tonight? we'll have dinner ...I got something to tell you " "uhm- sur-" di ko na natuloy yung sinasabi ko when I saw him.... they just entered the cafeteria ,a bunch of kids ...and there he is, Ken ... nakaakbay sa isang babae! I think Diane? Diana? I'm not sure but I guess she's a cheerleader .. And yeah she's pretty .. napayuko ako when I saw the girl started kissing ken! .. they look good together though... di ko na napigilan yung pag patak ng luha ko...I quickly wiped it out!
"sweetheart?" I cleared my throat
" uh-mmm sur-e"
"okay .so do you want me you pick you up?"
"oh..ok-ayy" and again I took a glimpse of them..they were laughing like hell! .. almost hugging each other and Ken seems happy with her! di ko na napigilan and I decided to walk out of the cafeteria ..I can't breath in there! its like I'm slowly lacking out of oxygen to breath in! then tears started to drop down and I just can't help it! . my heart was broken.... again...... and I guess....I have to get use to it....
ken's POV
she went out !
I smirked! I saw those tears falling down her cheeks despite of her trying to hide it. and I actually did everything in purpose ! I wanted her to see that I'm over her and I don't care about her anymore !! I smirked ... "that's right ...feel the pain!"
Matty's POV
" sweetheart... I'm leaving" bulong ko .. I know !! its now were she needs me so much but I got no choice! ... di ko napigilang yakapin siya when those tears started to come out of her pretty eyes! I feel bad! I don't want to leave her like this but grandmother has cancer and she want me to be there! and I have to handle our company , there's been this report that our company's starting to go down.. and dad asked me to took over it and try to build it up ..
"husshh sweetheart! its okay... I'll keep intouch.. I'm always here okay? .. don't forget that " napahikbi ito
" I'm gonna miss you !" humigpit ang yakap ko rito... di parin siya nagbabago, ganito din siya ng nagpasya ang pamilya ko na mangibang bansa 5 years ago!
" I'm gonna miss you to sweetheart... super!"
" when are you going?" bulong nito napalunok ako...
"uhmm-m to-mmorow" lalong humigpit ang yakap nito saakin...
"husssh sweetheart.. its not like I'm not coming back " bulong ko rito and kiss her hair... but I'm gonna miss this girl ... and based from what she's experiencing right now... its not a good idea to leave !! I don't want to! ..but....
"okay so I want you to be strong.. okay ??and stop crying that's making you look like an old lady!" tukso ko rito trying to make things light.. di ito umimik... but I guess... that's what she needed ... I just hugged her tight .. my little Bea ..
Bea's POV
paggising ko sa umaga ng biglang parang umikot ang paningin ko and my stomach started to turn outside down! shit what have I ate lastnigth! I run to the washroom and started throwing up ! oh gosh ! napapikit ako ! oh my gosh ! bigla akong pinagpawisan ! and my stomach just don't stop hurting! napaupo ako ! . oh god ! I really don't feel good today! I should probably skip class! si yaya lang ang kasama ko ngayon sa bahay ...
dad's probably went to a business trip .. its been a month since those tragic things happed to me ! and I'm starting to forget him..pero sino bang niloloko ko ?? tksss.... you know you can't never forget that man Bea! sigaw ng puso ko.. I just went to bed again... I closed my eyes... I don't even know how i survived this whole thing , those times when i always see him with others girls hanging into him like some leach but I guess he's enjoying it!
its like he didn't even know someone named Bea ! I still tried my best to go to school ..tutal malapit naman ng bakasyon.. but now...I guess I can't go... di ko na alam kung gaano ako katagal nakatulog till I felt something touching my hair .... I slowly opened my eyes .. and I saw yaya...
"uhmm ya/? what's wrong??" and I sit down ..I whipped those tears running down her face ... pero hindi ito sumagot... she just hugged me tigth... Like I can't breath ..
"Bea" bulong nito sa pagitan ng pag iyak... bigla nalang akong kinabahan .... !
"ya! whats wrong!" medyo malakas ko ng tanong rito ..
"Bea" bulong lang ulit nito ! then I just cried ! I don't know ! I just cried !
"ya ya! tell me what's happening!"
"ang da-ddy mm-o ann-ak , w-ala nna!" bulong nito sa pagitan ng pag iyak ! di ako nakagalaw .... . parang biglang may sumabog na bomba sa aking harapan ! I don't know if I'm still even breathing ! parang biglang tumigil ang mundo ko! I felt her hugged me tigth ! then tears again just started dripping down ! kelan ba mauubos tong mga luhang ito !! di ko alam kung anong nangyari...oh kung ano nang nangyayari....
I just saw him.... . daddy .... lying on his coffin!
Ken's POV
I haven't seen Bea for almost a week . tskk ,probably she's just bitching around! that's what ......she is afterall. ! a little slut! I just sat down on my desk.. well I feel bored without seeing those eyes of her , full of sorrow and tears! so I'm a monster? an evil ? hellllll!!!!! yeah ! .and I swear! anyone should Be sorry for playing with this monster !
Bea's POV
nakatulala lang ako. people coming hugging and extending condolences ! people whom I don't even know! well....dad's only my family ..and now he's gone! I haven't seen or meet any cousins or relatives ! I don't know! I just didn't ! I look at the door.. I know. I'm crazy ! I'm hoping Ken to show up! well . atleast to say condolence probably? pero parang pinapaniwala ko lang ang sarili ko sa isang bagay na imposibleng mangyari! and even he found out what happened, I guess he doesn't care anyway tsk...why would he....
I felt someone grab my hand and just hugg me. ;8 " I'm so sorry Bea ." Dave whispered napangiti ako ng mapait... tsk.. I've heard that million times! and even myself feels sorry bout what's happpening to me! I didn't talk.pakiramdam ko masyado na akong mahina para mag salita pa.
I then again remember my dad namatay ito sa isang aksidente when he's on his way to Tagaytay for a business meeting , mukhang nakatulog daw di umano yung driver at biglang bumangga sa isang malaking track na siyang dahilan para tumilapon ang kotseng sinasakyan niya. and it was dead on arrival when he was taken to the hospital!
ang pinakamasakit sa lahat ay yung hindi ko man lang siya nakausap bago siya mawala! we were just so busy with our own life that we got no time to bond with each other! kung alam ko lang! di ko na pinigilan ang mga luhang pumatak mula sa aking mga mata, pakiramdam ko wala ng katapusan ang mga nangyayari sa akin! I close my eyes tigthly ..trying to breath and just wish everything is just a dream! a bad dream! pero sino bang niloloko ko? tsk ! this is life! this is my life! nakatulala lang ako hanggang sa magpaalam na ito.. I smiled, atleast, I got this one friend.and Matty .. tsk! bilang nalang ang mga taong nakakasama ko ngayon! poor me!
I felt something touching my back " anak. umuwi ka na muna , wala ka pang pahinga" sabi ni yaya. I just stared at her.. and now.. she's all I have now. she's like my mom though.. andun na siya mula nung bata palang ako, she's there when I first say a word, when I learned how to walk and stayed there when ever I need her .
I weakly smiled . " yaya."
" halika na anak.. kailangan mo ng pahinga. hindi ka na nakakakain ng maayos. ako ng bahala sa lahat ng ito" I nodded.. tutal pakiramdam ko hinang hina na din lang ako... I feel like there's nothing more left in me! as I stand inalalayan ako ni yaya para tumayo. but its just few steps when everything turned black ! ****************
Bea's POV
I woke up in a white room. pakiramdam ko hinang hina ako! I don't know! I'm I sick? inikot ko ang aking paningin and saw yaya beside me nakasandal ang ulo nito sa aking kama, its obvious that she hadn't left my side ! napangiti nalang ako. I'm just so thankful na may tao paring inaalala ang kalagayan ko . I touch her face "yaya" napabangon naman ito, I saw those worried face again into her same like how she looks like everytime I got sick,.
" ano bang nangyayari sayo bata ka! " and just hugged me. na siya namang pag pasok ng isang lalaki. I guess a doctor. napatingin kami rito .
" uhm doc . ano po bang nangyari sa alaga ko? tanong ni yaya.
" uhm miss.Rodrigo. your condition is very senstive! please avoid to much pressure.. hindi kayo pwedeng magpalipas ng gutom and do too much work. I heard your father passed away and I'm very sorry for that...... but you need to take care of yourself miss Rodrigo ..,,,,,,,
for the sake of your BABY,"
"for the sake of your BABY,"
"for the sake of your BABY,"
"for the sake of your BABY," parang nag echo sa aking pandinig ang mga katagang yon! nakita kong nanlalaki ang mga mata ni yaya! baby! ? anak??! magkakaanak na ako?! di ko alam kung pano ako mag rereact sa nalaman ! but again........ tears run down my cheek. I touch my belly.
Bea' PoV
its been few days and now I'm standing at his door tapos na din ang burial and ...we're trying to fix things... or should i say ,, start a new life ?? and I don't know why I'm even here at the first place.! I know he's mad at me.. pero hindi naman masamang magbakasakali diba?
yess... I'm at Ken's house. I know this is stupid!pero gusto kong kumapit sa kahit katiting na pag asa na baka sakali.....probably..... when he find out about this child.. mapatawad niya ako sa kahit anumang kasalanang nagawa ko .. gusto kung umasa na kahit papano , kahit alam kong kailan man di niya ako minahal, at kahit na hindi man niya ako tanggapin , ay matanggap niya tong dinadala ko.....ang anak,,,,,namin...
I knock on the door and waited for someone to open .. its been like five minutes but still got no respond .. I slowly push the door open.probably they're here . I walk till I heard that familiar voice! ..that voice that always keep my heart stop whenever I hear it... I followed the voice and I saw Ken with Alfred .. nakatalikod sila mula sa pintuan but I know its them ! naglalaro ang mga ito ng billyard ..akmang papasok ako ng
"so pare? what happened to you and that girl...uhm Bea rigth? yeah Bea." -Alfred
" shut up bro... don't mention that name ! it just disgust me!'
" owww?? I bet.... you guys already did that.. you know... uhmm that thing.." patuloy nito habang napapatawa!
" yeah... that slut.... tsk ...I bet she do that with everybody" sabi ni Ken na tila balewala lang sakanya yung sinasabi . ! I step back ... napatakip ako sa aking mga labi upang pigilan ang paghikbi ko! ayoko ng makinig!! ayoko! I
quickly run out of the place! how could he say that!!! I was virgin when he took me! how could he!!! di ko alam pero parang doble doble pa ang nadama kong sakit kesa nung ipagtabuyan niya ako ! I run into my car ... alam kong pinag titinginan na ako ng mga studyante ngayon! naalala ko yung mga katagang binigkas niya ...
'"' that slut.... tsk ...I bet she do that with everybody""" ang sakit! ganun pala kababa ang pagtingin niya sa akin! how could he say that! how! di ko na alam kung titigil pa ang pag patak ng aking mga luha. masakit! wala na yatang mas masakit pa kaysa sa marinig ang ganung kataga mula sa taong pinagbigyan mo ng lahat at minahal!
pero.... mas masakit ngayon .....masakit! kasi alam kong hindi lang ako ang nasasaktan ! napahawak ako sa tiyan ko at lalong lumakas ang pag patak ng luha ko! naaawa ako para sa sarili ko pero nadudurog ang puso ko na isiping lalaki ang anak ko na walang kikilalaning ama! now... I have to Bea strong... gumuho na lahat ng pag-asa ko na matanggap niya kung anumang dinadala ko ngayon! akala ko kilala ko siya! na kahit papano , kahit katiting , may natitirang respeto siya sa akin pero hindi! wala! napakalaki kong tanga para umasa pa! at duon.. .nabuo na aking desisyon.....
I'm gonna take care of my child, better to Bea alone,,, than to Be with him that'll just hurt the both of us in the end... and I'll do my best....to protect my child ! hinaplos ko ang aking tyan....
"its okay baby..mommy's here...I'm gonna take care of you...I promise... "
Im gonna take care of you, with...... or without your father ......
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