I keep having flashbacks
Of you
Of them
Of me
Of friends
I keep going back
With the crickets
The breeze
The air
The people
I keep seeing places
The smell
The leaves
The cool
Fall breeze
They hang on my mind
The fire
The voices
The stars
The forest
I keep reliving moments
The cold
The mountain
The singing
The laughing
They wont let me go
The hill
The wind
The stars
The winter
I keep going back
The crying
Long nights
The music
The lonely
But then there was you
Your calm
Your voice
Your words
Your smile
I didn't expect
The gray
My fault
The break
The end
Now here I am
I watch
I wait
I listen
I dread
Wonder when it will end
The regret
Of these nights
The anger
The pointlessness inside the heart all the time
But then
I remember....
.....And it starts again