Without Words
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Foreword:
Yung mga naka-italized lines eh english translation yan sa kanta na Without Words ni Park Shin Hye which is originally korean (nasa gilid yung video, paki-play para dama nyo :">)
Sana magustuhan nyo ♡
-Nani
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I should have done that,
I should have pretended not to know,
Like I didn't see it, like I couldn't see it
It was one typical day. Naglakad ako papuntang school just what I wanted to do pero minsan sinusundo mo ako kasi takot ka baka mapaano ako sa daan.
Huminto muna ako sa isang coffee shop para bumili ng coffee since di pa ako kumain ng agahan.
"One cappuccino, please" I ordered at the counter. As the guy was busy preparing my order, nilibot ko muna yung tingin ko sa paligid.
Kaunti lamang ang costumer nila. Then nagkatinginan kami ng isang babae. Medyo nailang ako kaya ngumiti nalang ako at ganun din sya then I looked away. Pero napabalik yung tingin ko nang mahagip ng aking paningin ang paglingon ng kasama nyang lalaki. Nagulat ako kasi ikaw yung kasama nya.
"Who is she? Bakit ka nya kasama?"Tanong ko sa sarili ko.
Pero alam mo yung mas ikinagulat ko? Ibinalik mo lang yung tingin mo sa kasama mong babae na para bang hindi mo ako kilala. Hindi ka naman ganyan eh, nakakapagtataka lang.
"Here maam" tawag nung lalaki sa counter. Binayaran ko yung order ko tsaka napatingin ulit sa direksyon nyo. Tumatawa ka at ganun din sya. Huminga muna ako ng malalim tsaka humakbang palabas ng pinto ng cafe. Hindi ako magseselos kasi alam kong tapat ka. Hindi ako magagalit kasi nagtitiwala ako sa iyo.
I shouldn't have looked at you in the first place
I should have run away
I should have pretended I wasn't listening
Like I didn't hear it, like I couldn't hear it
Nagkita tayo kinabukasan. Sinundo mo ako sa dorm ko at sabay na pumunta sa school. Napakatahimik nga natin nun at alam kong binabasag mo lang ang katahimikan kasi ayaw mong ako ang magsalita.
Sabay din tayong kumain ng tanghalian. Napag-isipan kong itanong sa iyo ang insidente kahapon pero mapaglaro ang tadhana at tinawag ka ng teacher mo. Di mo tuloy nasagot ang tanong ko :/
Mag-isa akong umuwi kasi di na kita nakita matapos nun. Pero I was wrong kasi nakita ulit kita nang mapadaan ako sa coffee shop...
Kasama yung babae kahapon.
Nag-uusap kayo and I was freaking out what to do kaya napatago ako sa likod ng isang puno na malapit sa inyo.
"What about her Babe?" Tanong nung babae sa iyo. She sounded so sweet.
"Who? Venice?" I felt my heart skipped a beat when I heard my name.
"I'm breaking up with her. Don't worry, babe" I felt like I was cheated. Ang bigat ng pakiramdam ko kaya napaupo ako at napatabon sa bibig ko. Di ko mapigilang maiyak pero natatakot ako na baka marinig nyo ako.
I heard a car park tapos bumukas yung mga pinto tsaka sumira naman agad. Then nakita ko itong umalis at dumaan sa gilid ko. I saw you inside of that car kaya di ko na pinigilan ang sarili kong mapaiyak. What was that all about?
I looked like a zombie when I got home. Ang pula ng mga mata ko at namamaga pa. Napaupo ako sa kama ko at napatingin sa picture frame na nakalagay sa itaas ng study table ko. Tayo yung nasa picture. If I'm not mistaken, that was taken a year ago. Nung naging tayo.
Then memories started flashing in my head, para bang nanunuod ako ng palabas. You were the first boy that made me feel special kasi I was usually bullied for having big eyes. But you said it was kind of cute and since then you became my savior. Well, that was back in high school. Nung first year college na tayo, umamin ka na mahal mo na ako. But I was too scared to fall so I rejected you. I told you loving will always hurt and I think I'm not ready to get hurt pero sinabi mong hinding hindi mo ako iiwan at sasaktan. I must say you really kept your word because you were a careful man. Iniisip mo muna yung mga gagawin mo kung ikagagalit ko ba ito o hindi. You always gave the favor to me which made me like you even more.
A few weeks after rejecting you, you asked me again if you could court me and to your surprise, pumayag ako. We were a happy couple. Though nag-aaway tayo like other couples but what I think is different is hindi ka matutulog unless mareresolve yung problema o away natin. And that's a really big turn on for me. Yung iba kasi ang tataas ng pride kaya nagb-break up sila agad. Naisip ko tuloy na you don't want us to be like them, na nauuwi sa break up ang relationship.
You were my first love and you'll always will be my love. But that was before. Naguguluhan ako sa nangyayari. Ni hindi ka man lang nag-explain o nagsabi na may iba ka nang babae. Bakit?
Ito na ba yung sakit ng pagmamahal?
Di ko akalaing, ang sakit-sakit pala. Sobra.
I should have heard your love in the first place,
Without a word, you made me know what love is,
Without a word, you gave me your love,
Made me fill myself with your every breath
Ilang araw din tayong hindi nagkita. I can't stop myself from missing you kasi I can't hide the fact that I still love you even though sinaktan mo ako. Naisipan kong puntahan ka sa room nyo para makapag-usap din tayo pero nalaman ko nalang na nagtransfer ka na ng school. Saan? Sa Amerika.
Ganun na ba ang uso ngayon?
Iwanan sa ere? Ni walang pasabi man lang?
I can't help but cuss. Pag-uwi ko sa bahay, nadatnan ko ang isang bouquet ng tulips, my favorite flower. Then I saw a letter beside it.
Mahal,
Sorry kung hindi ko nasabi sa'yo na sa Amerika ko na ipagpapatuloy ang pag-aaral ko. Biglaan kasi. And the other thing is, I'm breaking up with you.
-Jonathan
Sa galit eh napatapon ko sa sahig ang mga bulaklak. Nagkulong nalang ako sa kwarto buong gabi, ni hindi man lang ako kumain. Well, wala akong gana.
Ang sakit kasi eh. Siguro matatanggap ko pa na iiwan mo ako basta magpaliwag ka lang, pero ughhhh! Ang sakit-sakit talaga. Di ko akalaing magagawa mo ito sa akin :(
Then you ran away,
Without a word, love leaves me,
Without a word, love abandons me,
Wondering what to say next,
My lips were surprised,
It came without a word
Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it hurt continuously?
Except for the fact that I can't see you anymore,
And that you're not here anymore,
Otherwise, it'll be just the same like before,
Without a word, you made me know what love is,
Without a word, you gave me your love,
Made me fill myself with your every breath,
Then you run away,
Without a word, love leaves me,
Without a word, love abandons me,
Wondering what to say next,
My lips were surprised
Without a word, tears starts falling down,
Without a word, my heart is broken,
Without a word, I waited for love,
Without a word, love hurts me.
All I need is a word. All I want is a word. Just a word, from you.
But you seemed wordless, now you left me broken and hopeless.
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