i was listening to amnesia while writing this, made me cry like a little bitch
L U K E
I squinted my eyes open, when I felt a streak of warmth and brightness hit my face. Bright, Everything was so bright.
Ay first there was just a big streak of light shining on my face, then slowly it faded and things around me became more clearer.
I was facing an off white ceiling, with a flourescent light right in the middle. The walls were a shade of light powder blue. I slowly gained my hearing after scrunching my face up a lot, and all I heard was a beeping sound beside me. Am I in a hospital? How did I end up here?
I looked around some more and there were a series of potted plants, with a bag of dextrose hanging by it, some flowers, a basket of fruit by the table and--a girl.
She had her face buried on her forearms as she rested them on my bed. I could notice she had a rosary on her other hand. She had a huge jacket draped over her, still I couldn't quite determine who she was, and what was she doing here. I looked over to the couch behind her and--Ashton? Was was he doing here? He was sleeping on the dark green leather chair. His arms crossed against his chest and his head leaning against the side of the couch.
That's when I looked at the girl again and stared at her hair, her small hands, her complexion, the shape of her face, how could I not have noticed her? She was Victoria, the girl that I loved so very much.
My heart skipped a beat as I jumped out of the bed to move closer to her I wanted to hug her, to feel her warmth again, finally this was my chance "T-Tori, you're here, oh god" I walked closer to her.
But as I neared her and I opened my arms to touch her, her hands felt different. There was also a pang of hurt in my chest for some unknown reason and that made me jump slightly, it felt like I was completely not given notice and it felt like my skin didn't even touch hers.
I stepped forward to her again, still wanting to touch her but the feeling came to me again and I didn't undertand it but it was painful, like a mix of agony and sadness.
Then I looked at the bed and that's where it all hit me like a big fat train of emotions. I saw myself, lying in bed. In a hospital gown, with scrapes and bruises, and different tubes strapped to my body, and death written all over my features.
I almost didn't recognize myself. I looked pale, far more pale than I already was. There a bandage wrapped around my head. My eyelids looked dark, a cannula on my nose, a few cuts and scrapes on my face and my arms, and the rest of my body was hidden beneath the hospital sheets.
I backed up from where I stood clearly getting confused when everything flashed right in front of me. The car, the phone call, the truck, the crash. Tears were starting to pool in my eyes. I gripped a handful of my hair in my hands as I felt myself lean against the hospital walls as I watched my self in bed.
I yelled, I yelled as much as I could but nobody could hear me, and that amplified the pain in my chest. "God, whyy?! Noooooo, why are you doing this to me?!" The tears were running down my face, I just wanted to wake up from this sick sick nightmare.
That's when I heard the beeping become louder and faster in pace. The pain in my chest became worse, my vision blurred again and the streak of really bright light evaded me again, as I watched figures in front of me. That was probably Ashton running to Tori when she stood up and shook my body as nurses and the doctor came barging in the room.
"Please, tell me this is just a dream"
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V I C T O R I A
My head rose up from where it was resting when I heard the beeping become louder and faster. I looked over to the monitor but sadly I didn't have any idea what it said "Nurse! Nurse oh my god! What is happening to him?!"
Ashton ran next to me with panic and worry plastered on his face. "Doctor! Somebody call a doctor!" Ashton yelled as he held me close to him. Tears were already falling as I gripped onto Ashton's shirt. Nurses and a Doctor barged into the door immediately and ran to where Luke was. Everything happened so fast, I could only remember the doctor ripping the hospital gown off Luke revealing his whole chest that was covered in bandages. The other nurses were bringing in syringes and checking the monitor and checking Luke's eyes and pulse.
I didn't want to look anymore. I hated it, I hated seeing Luke like this. The doctor and the nurses pushed Luke's bed outside the room and brought him to a different one. Ashton and I followed behind, but sadly some ofthe nurses blocked our way and politely asked us to stay outside.
"I'm really sorry, you're not allowed in here miss"
"That's bullshit! He's dying can't you see?! Fucking save him! He needs me I need to be there!"
"I'm really sorry but you really aren't allowed inside. I understand how you're feeling right now but please I need you to calm down and take a seat. Do it for Luke, this is for his own good. We'll do the best we can"
I just kept crying amd crying as I backed away from her knowing there was no use in arguing. Ashton just hugged me and kept me in his arms the whole time, rubbing my back and telling me that everything was going to be alright. I looked up to him and saw his eyes glistening. Teats alredy threatening to fall from him face.
I knew it wasn't okay, everything wasn't okay.
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We waited for hours and hours, but they weren't done yet and as each minute passed, the more worried I became. Liz and Andrew arrived a few hours ago. They thanked Ashton and I for being there for Luke the past day since they couldn't make it the day of the accident since both of them went for a trip across country, but they had to come back as soon as they got the news.
Liz was crying so hard, while Andrew was dazed. Both of them, fear and sadness laced in their eyes. I wanted to try and comfort Liz, I knew how much she loved Luke. It was obvious Luke was so attached to her. Luke was her youngest baby boy. I really wanted to make the parents feel better but I knew I couldn't since I couldn't even do it myself.
"Baby, here I got you coffee" Ashton handed me a cup and I took it from his hand giving him a thin smile. "Thanks Ash, for always being here. I know you're not so fond of Luke, and you're probably getting tired of my shit and--" Ashton cut me off by planting a soft kiss on my lips as he cupped my cheeks giving me a reassuring smile.
"Shhh, don't say that. I'll always be here for you, I promised you that remember? Yeah me and Luke had some fights, but he's still my friend, and I hate seeing him in pain. No matter what, we're going to be okay. He's gunna be fine."
I gave him another kiss then I wrapped my arms around him burying my face in his chest. "Thank you for everything"
"You know I'd do anything for you right?" He rested his chin on top of my head as he rubbed my back. Our heads turned when we heard a door open and we quickly got on our feet and approached the doctor.
"How is he? Please tell me my baby is alright" Liz managed to choke despite the crying, eyes full of wonder just desperately wanting to know how Luke's doing and nobody understood that better than I did.
The doctor sighed at first before laying his hand on Liz's shoulder. "I'm afraid, Luke's getting worse. We thought he was stable yesterday, we don't know why but something triggered him yesterday, his chest started bleeding again. As you all know Luke's upper abdomen was hurt pretty bad because his chest hit the steering wheel during the crash. Some of his ribs are broken and his lungs, well, they're pretty damaged causing his difficulty to breathe. As for now we have stopped the internel bleding and the tube is helping him to breathe. Let's just hope and pray that it all turns out alright, but we're doing the best we can" He looked to me and reassured.
"In a few hours you will be allowed to go see him, it would be better if we let him rest for now" He added then excused himself.
He's gunna be fine, he'll be fine. He has to be.
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i did not know how to end that but dayum lukey *cries* and i know most of you thought he had amnesia for a moment there hahahaha
im still dealing with a really terrible hangover atm, its already noon but i decided to write for you guys, besides its the first day of the year!
dont forget to VOTE and COMMENT ily xx.