It's rushing back, the feeling I mean. The feeling of presence. I never realize how far away I am until my head is back in it's right place. My calf is throbbing, my breath hitching, blood pouring into my thighs. It's good I cut my fingernails this morning. So itchy. My legs burn and I feel it. The urge to scratch the skin on my body. The pounding in my ears is my cadence on mornings like this. So I am back. I don't think you realize what it means to be back. I can explain if you want. My legs are red but my mouth hurts. Wow a smile, I need to brush my teeth then. A pain in my stomach is rare but present. The present. 4:48. Twelve minutes until Zip opens. It will be good to see him again. Hunger comes with presence. Maybe he missed me.
Maybe I'll Explain
By somethingaboutyou
After three months of what Sadie refers to as mental absence, she becomes aware of her thoughts, emotions, an... More