I've been up all night, letting my thoughts consume me. Running around in my head like horses in a race. Thoughts coming and going so fast I don't think I'd be able to describe what I was even thinking at that moment.
I do know that it had something to with Evan. I knew that for sure. He always seems to be the one running around in my head. Whether it be good or bad, he was always there. Almost as if he were mocking me.
It's like that quote, 'it's sucks having someone on your mind that you can't have in your arms.' That's a quote that seems to relate to Evan and I. Him, always on my mind, but never in my arms.
Sure maybe we've hugged as friends, but that's not the kind of 'in my arms' I'm thinking about. I want to be able to hold him and call him mine. I want to be able to see his face next to mine when I wake up every morning. I want a lot of things with Evan. A lot of things I may never have.
I was brought out of my thoughts as I heard a low groan next to me. I rolled over slowly to come face to face with Evan.
'I must be dreaming.'
I lifted my hand and pointed out my finger, reaching over and poking Evan's nose, making it scrunch up.
"Delirious?" Evan said slowly, "Why are you poking my nose?"
"I-I was seeing if you were real." I mumbled.
Evan smiled without opening his eyes, "Of course I'm real. Why wouldn't I be?"
"Oh. I just thought I was dreaming." I said honestly.
Evan hummed and finally opened his eyes. I looked at him, and for a moment we didn't say anything.
"Why are we in bed together?" I asked, feeling the temperature in my face rise.
Evan giggled, "I was worried about you and, I didn't want you to have another nightmare, so I let you sleep with me."
I smiled at Evan. A warm, genuine smile, showing him my appreciation, "Thanks, Evan. It means a lot."
"No, problem." He smiled back.
Nothing really happened after that. Evan shut his eyes once again and we just laid in comfortable silence enjoying each other's presence. Don't ask me what this moment meant to Evan, because I wouldn't be able to give an answer. I could give you my imagination? I could say he's thinking the same thing I am.
'I wanna spend the rest of my life with you'
He's not thinking that, I know for sure. I tilted my head to the side and studied Evan. He finally fell back asleep as I did so and started to let out soft snores that you could only hear if you were right next to him.
I looked down Evan to see he was only wearing his boxes. I glanced down myself and noticed so was I. Heat filled my cheeks once again as I looked at Evan's torso, starting to wonder what it would feel like to run my hand across is chest and down his stomach.
'Smooth.' I thought, as I felt my hand doing what my mind had been thinking. Evan only shifted but never did open his eyes, so I continued.
Letting my fingers trace and explore his body in a curious manner. Thinking of things I want to do besides this with Evan. Like, wrapping my arms around him and pulling him in close to cuddle.
And that's what I did.
I ended up wrapping my arms around Evans torso and pulled him towards me as he let out a deep breath. I nuzzled my head into the crook of his neck and smiled to myself.
Now I can sleep well.
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When I woke again, Evan was no longer next to me. I sat up and looked around the room, the smell of bacon hitting my senses.
I got up, and walked though the hall and down the stairs, turning the corner to see Evan flipping bacon in a skillet, still wearing just his boxers like me.
"Good morning!" Evan sing-songed, looking at me with a wide smile across his face, "Sleep well? I know I did."
I chuckled as his cheerful expression never once did falter, "Yeah, I slept pretty good myself."
"That's great." He said, returning his attention back to the stove, "I'm making bacon and eggs. Hope you're hungry!"
"I need foooooood!" I yelled, sitting down at the table as the sound of Evan's laughter filled the room.
"I should've known you were going to say that you, bitch."
I smiled at Evan as his chuckles died down and he placed a plate of bacon, eggs, and a slice of toast in front of me.
"I need syrup." I said as Evan sat down.
"Syrup? For what?"
"My bacon." I said in a 'duh' tone.
Evan looked at me for a minute and laughed, "You like syrup on your bacon but not your pancakes?"
"Uh, yeah?" I chuckled.
"You're just something, aren't you?" Evan said, as he got up to get my syrup and sat down again, sliding it to me.
"Yum." I commented as I slowly poured the syrup across my bacon.
I could see Evan watching me out of the corner of my eye, as the sticky liquid covered my bacon.
"How are you going to eat them now? Your fingers will get all sticky." Evan asked, scrunching up his nose like when I poked it earlier.
"That's the fun part!" I said, grabbing a syrup covered bacon and popping it into my mouth.
Evan tilted his head as he watched me enjoy my bacon. After a moment, his hand shot across the table and dove into my bacon, grabbing and piece and picking it up, making syrup sling across the table before it made it into his mouth.
I laughed as I watched Evan slowly chew the bacon with a look on his face like he was trying to decide if he liked it or not.
"Do you like it?" I smiled.
"Yeah, it's pretty good actually." Evan said with his mouth full, and I couldn't not notice the syrup that was on his chin.
"You have syrup on your chin, Evan." I laughed.
He looked at me and grinned, sticking his tongue out and slowly swiping it across his chin, making me squirm in my seat.
"Y-You got it." I stuttered.
'Tease' I thought to myself.
Evan closed his mouth and smiled, continuing to eat his own breakfast. I cleared my throat and did the same. Finishing up the last of my bacon and putting my now empty plate in the sink.
When I turned around, I almost ran into Evan with his plate held out to me. I rolled my eyes and grabbed it from him and laid it in the sink for me to wash later.
"I need you to help me with something today." Evan said, as I followed him to the couch.
"Yeah, sure." I nodded.
"Okay." He paused, "You know how Sydney and I got into a fight last night?"
I nodded.
"Well, I want to apologize to her, so I was wondering if you could help me plan something?"
I stared at Evan for a moment, not knowing what to say.
'Yeah, Sure. I'll help you.'
That's all I had to say, but yet, I couldn't bring myself too.
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A/N: Hey guys! I'm so so sorry for the wait but here it is finally!
"And as always, I hope ye enjoyed!" -Nogla
Xoxo, Briney <3 (::)