1:17 am
camila: cmonnn can u pls stop ignoring me
camila: im sorry
camila: can u pls listen to me now
camila: i cant even sleep
camila: pls just text me back when u get up
9:04 am
lauren: iM SORRY I WAS LITERALLY WATCHINF PROBABLY ALL YOU GUYS' INTERVIEWS
lauren: THE NOTEBOOK ISNT EVEN THAT GOOD
camila: for like 2 days?
camila: id fight u but i dont even have the energy
lauren: no no not for 2 days
lauren: i was watching them today, i've been thinking about the concert a lot
lauren: and what happened
camila: the kiss?
lauren: yeah
lauren: i dont know why i kissed you and i didnt want to talk to you until i figured it out myself
lauren: but i still havent and here i am so
camila: are you mad at me?
camila: about anything
camila: the kiss or not telling you
lauren: not about the kiss for sure
lauren: im stubborn so im a little upset over you not initially telling me and all but ill get over it
camila: and you know i only didnt tell u bc i was scared
camila: and in case u would treat me differently but i didnt think u would
lauren: yeah yeah i get it
lauren: im just stubborn
lauren: ill get over it
lauren: how are you though?
lauren: since we last talked
camila: im not sure
camila: ive literally had maybe 1 hour of sleep since then
camila: so exhausted but physically im fine i guess
camila: what about u
lauren: i was fine
lauren: ive been thinking about kissing you a lot though
camila: oh
camila: oH
lauren: ok no like ive been thinking about that kiss
lauren: and what it meant
lauren: did that mean anything?
camila: did it mean anything to you?
lauren: i have no idea
lauren: i usually ignore my feelings
camila: and im too invested in my feelings
camila: wanna switch
camila: okay but really
camila: you tell me what you think it meant to you then ill tell you
camila: deal?
lauren: ok ok
lauren: i think im either lonely and just seeking comfort
lauren: or
lauren: i might actually start to be developing feelings idk
camila: wellll
camila: u initiated it soo ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
camila: it didnt mean anything to me
lauren: camilaaaa cmon
camila: ok fine
camila: i was pretty upset you pulled away that quickly and acted the way you did
lauren: i love how you use you and not u when you're trying to be serious
camila: im gonna ignore that
lauren: but im sorry, i noticed it and i wanted to say something to comfort you or literally anything but i was confused
lauren: i didnt know why i kissed you
camila: ok
camila: you said didnt tho? so do you know now
lauren: no
lauren: well
lauren: idk
lauren: you're insanely attractive so i mean
camila: oooOoOOooo
camila: u like me
camila: admit it
camila: u like me just admit it
lauren: no i just think you're hot lmao
camila: :((((
camila: so theres like no chance of any emotional feelings there?? at all
lauren: wellll
camila: WELLLL
camila: ????
camila: lauren is typing
lauren: idk
camila: seriously
camila: are u kissing me
camila: kidding*
camila: that was a nice typo
lauren: good job child
camila: i am not a child :((
camila: but srsly a whole min of typing for an idk are u kidding me
camila: what do u actually wanna say
lauren: ok i was gonna make a joke about how you wanted to fuck when we met
lauren: then i deleted that so i was gonna be genuine but i suck at being honest and genuine so you got an idk lmao
lauren: but you're a great person so i wouldn't be surprised if i did end up developing feelings for you
camila: yk if u lost the filter we'd be a lot further in life than we are rn
camila: js
lauren: true
camila: soo
camila: wanna fuck?
lauren: yeaah
lauren: but wait
camila: ur ruining the moment lern
lauren: why are you not talking about your feelings but you want me to talk about mine so badly
camila: idk
camila: i just feel too much
camila: im too invested in them but i never talk about it so the second someone asks i kinda panic i guess
camila: u dont have to answer me answer tho
camila: seeing as i dont say anything anyways its not fair
lauren: no no no camz
lauren: its fine, if you dont want to talk about it we dont have to
lauren: i want you to be comfortable so we'll take baby steps with it if you want
camila: okay
camila: remember when we first met?
lauren: yeah of course
camila: and you thought you were annoying me
lauren: yeah
lauren: where are you going with this?
camila: i guess the tables have turned a bit
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A/N: yoo would u guys rather i put this on hiatus till its finished and then ill update every couple days or do u wanna just read as i write, just wonderingg
psa next chapter isnt so lovely im sorryy