*~*~* Alex's POV *~*~*
"ALEX!!"
I heard AJ scream, but there was no way I was going to turn back, not when my brother and Spitz were trapped in the school. I sprinted through the door and was hit with darkness, the only source of light was the moonlight shining through the windows. As I sprinted down the hallway screaming for Spitz or J, I noticed that the once white walls were now a sickly gray. I was sprinting toward the fire when I heard a yell. I couldn't distinguish what they said but I knew it came from one of the dorms. I sprinted to every door in the hallway opening each door and yelling, and I always received the same answer, silence. I was getting closer and closer to the fire until I could see the flames making their way toward me. I kept on hearing the voice yelling, but now I couldn't tell what direction it came from.
Like the idiot I am, I just spun around looking down each hallway, until I heard a piercing scream slice through the air. I whipped around to the sound and I came face to face with the roaring fires. I was frozen to the spot, I couldn't move my legs even though my brain was yelling at them to run away, they didn't. I stood there in the middle of the hallway, everything began to fade away until all that I could see was the fire, stretching out as if inviting me in. I couldn't hear anything but a deafening silence that made the fire look more captivating. The smoke wrapped around me like a blanket, the heat instantly warming up my insides, took a deep breathe and that's when I snapped out of my trance and began to choke on the smoke. I couldn't hear the screaming or yelling anymore, all I heard was the fire's destruction as the ceiling began to slowly fall apart.
I dropped to the floor hoping that I could get under the smoke so I can stop choking, but the smoke followed me down and its long ghostly hands grasped at my neck as it blew its deathly breath into my face making me inhale more. I felt myself slipping away as my vision began to blur and I felt light headed. I tried crawling away from the fire, but the smoke blocked my vision, trapping me in its arms. I looked all around me, but couldn't see anything besides a dark grey that seemed to get darker, and darker, and darker until all I saw was black.
"Alex! Come on sleeping beauty its time to wake up! Mom wants you to help with breakfast!"
I slowly opened my eyes and saw a blurry figure in front of me. I slowly sat up, rubbed my eyes, and opened them again to see my dad standing above me, smiling down at me with love in his eyes. I immediately backed up to the furthest corner of my bed and felt the wall behind me. His face fell and he looked at me concerned.
"Alexis, what's the matter?"
he said as he reached a hand out and I whimpered as I cowered and pushed myself further into the wall.
"Sweetie, it's ok, I'm not going to hurt you, I would never hurt you, you are my little angel, my sweet pea, my everything"
He said and I can hear the hurt and affection in his voice as he reached his hand out again, but this time I didn't move away, instead I reached forward and placed my hand in his as he slowly pulled me to him and gave me a warm hug.
"I love you Alexis, and I don't know what I would do without you,"
he whispered into my ear and I felt a hot tear slip down my cheek and fall with an inaudible splash onto his shoulder. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and squeezed him tight taking in this moment that I thought would never happen.
"Come on Sweet Pea, your mom wants you to help with breakfast,"
I pulled away, nodded my head, and began to get up from my bed. I looked around the room as we exited and realized it was our old house before my mom died and before my father became the monster that he was. The walls were still a soft pink with posters of kittens and puppies around the walls. My bed was pushed up against the corner of my room where my pink princess sparkled netting was pulled to the side. I realized I was clutching something in my hand and when I looked down I saw the last thing I expected. Mr. Hoppers. I looked down at the blue soft bunny and brought it up to my chest and hugged it close. My mom got me this bunny when I was 3 and ever since than I always held it close, until she died, my father didn't want anything to remember her by because it hurt him too much so one night when I walked out of my room and was heading to J's because I had a nightmare, my little self was wearing a pink night gown and I held my bunny by the little paws and it was bigger than me so it dragged against the floor as I wiped away my tears and walked to J's room. Once I was at the door my dad came down the hallway, this was all before he drank, he looked at me and his eyes immediately started to soften until his eyes landed on my bunny and than he looked broken. He came up to me and kneeled down.
"Alexis, did you have another nightmare?"
I wrapped my tiny arms around him and he slowly got up with my in his arms.
"yes... I had a dream that mommy was here, she was laughing and smiling and than she just started frowning than her face went blank and I saw her collapse on the floor"
"its ok Alexis, it was just a dream."
"Daddy? I thought you said Mr. Hoppers was supposed to make the nightmares go away?"
I looked up at him with my big green eyes and I saw him on the bridge of crying, the tears were brimming his eyes, threatening to fall.
"Maybe Mr. Hoppers is sick. Here let me take him so that I can take care of him okay?"
I nodded my head and gave him Mr. Hoppers but not before hugging him close, giving him a kiss, and whispering
"its okay Mr. Hopper, Daddy's a doctor, you will be better, I promise"
He set me down and started to walk off to the living room, I walked silently behind him just to make sure he didn't die like how my mom did. When I peeked around the corner I saw him standing in front of the fire place, the fire lighting up his face as I saw a tear slip down his face. He was staring at Mr. Hoppers
"I'm so sorry Alexis, it just hurts too much to remember her."
I felt myself crying as he silently cried and he placed Mr. Hopper into the fire. I found myself whimpering and sobbing, he glanced up and saw me there and I saw his eyes look torn and hurt.
"Alexis.."
"You killed Mr. Hoppers!! You killed my memory of Mommy!"
I yelled and ran to J's room and banged on it until he opened the door looking pissed, but once he saw me crying he immediately looked hurt and pulled me into his room. My Dad always tried apologizing but I ignored him every time and as time passed he began to drink, and drink, and drink until it became an addiction.
I held Mr. Hoppers close to me as we made our way out of my room and down the stairs to the kitchen. I looked up to see J and Spitz talking at the counter while Court is at the table setting up with AJ. I ran up to J and knocked him down into a hug.
"Whoa! Why are you so happy?"
he asked laughing as he got up off the ground, I couldn't help but smile at him again before I tackled Spitz into a hug as well. Once I was done hugging her and we all stood up, I couldn't help the tears that were welling up.
"Hey, hey, hey what's wrong?"
J asked me as he drew me into another hug.
"I've just missed both of you so much"
I said as I let one tear fall. He let go of me and took a step back, but he kept his arms on my shoulders and looked me in the eye, a smile tugging at his lips.
"We saw each other yesterday, weirdo. Are you feeling okay?"
I just smiled and went to give Court and AJ a hug, this time not so roughly. I heard footsteps enter the kitchen, I turned and felt the tears begin to flow. There stood a beautiful women with short brown hair in loose curls that fall just above her shoulder, her green/blue eyes sparkling with happiness, her lips curved up into a radiant smile, she was wearing a white sundress that fell above her knee and complimented her tan olive skin. My mother looked at me just than and I rushed up to her and gave her a bone crushing hug.
"I've missed you so so so much!"
I sobbed as I pulled her even tighter against me, I felt her chuckle and stroke my hair as she whispered
"I've missed you too my little bunny"
"Where am I?"
I finally had to ask after I released my mom from my death grip.
"You're in a dream like state right now and your subconscious mind is taking you here and is picturing all of here with you."
I looked at everyone and smiled a soft smile, I didn't care if this was real or fake, all I know is that I am going to enjoy it while it lasts.
"Oh ok well lets eat!"
"We haven't made anything yet! we were waiting for your lazy bum to get out here to help us!"
AJ said while walking towards me laughing. My smile grew as he wrapped his arms around me from behind and rested his chin on my shoulder.
"Well than, what do you guys want? Maybe pancakes, bacon, some eggs, and toast?"
I received a chorus of yes' and sounds good. I immediately started working on the pancakes while AJ did the bacon, Court did the toast, Spitz did the eggs, and J was hitting on Spitz while she did the eggs. I smiled at the scene before me and realized that this smile might never leave my face. After about 30 minutes of cooking we were all done and seated at the table out on the backyard patio. We all stared hungrily at the food while my mom elongated the prayer just to put was through torture.
"...Amen"
"THANK THE LORD!"
J said as he began stuffing his face without even thinking about his manners and the others around him. I honestly couldn't blame him since I practically did the same thing and everyone started laughing at us saying how much we were alike. We both looked at each other with our mouths stuffed with food than turned to all of them and gave them a smile, in which Mom scolded us on manners.
I honestly couldn't stop enjoying smiling because of all the good things that was happening. I wish I could stay in this moment forever. I licked my plate clean and started to clean the table. When everything was cleaned and put away, we all sat on the lounge chairs outside while talking but I was starting to get really sleepy which was weird since I just woke up not even 3 hours before. I was fighting to stay awake because I honestly was scared that if I closed my eyes this dream would end. I felt some ones hand on my shoulder, I looked up and saw my mother there smiling down at me.
"Its okay, Alex. Its time to let go,"
she said and I knew she was right but I didn't want to leave her.
"I don't want to leave though,"
I whispered as she sat down next me and pulled my close to her.
"You will have to leave, Alex but before you leave, I just want to feel you in my arms one last time."
I felt a hot tear run down my cheek and land on my finger. I looked up and saw silent tears running down her cheeks also. We looked at each other with so much affection and heartache.
"I love you Mom, forever, always, all the way to eternity"
I whispered her little saying to her as I saw the tears start to flow down her face at a more rapid pace.
"I love you Alexis, forever, always, all the way to eternity"
She sobbed out, and I held her close as I felt her start to fade away.
I opened my eyes but immediately closed them as a white light pierced my eyes. I slowly fluttered my eyes open and recognized the beige coloring of the hospital walls. I slowly turned my head to see AJ asleep on one of the chairs in an odd position that must be hurting his neck. Just than a nurse came in.
"Oh good you're awake! here drink some water"
she said as she gave me a water bottle on the stand next to my bed. I greedily downed the water as she walked over to AJ and began to slowly wake up.
"Sir. Sir she's awake"
she said while slightly nudging him, he fluttered his eyes open and when he saw me siting up, he shot up from his seat and rushed over to me.
"Oh thank god! Are you feeling ok?"
He asked as his eyes roamed my face looking for any sign of pain or agony. I smiled a small smile and finally spoke.
"I'm fine. What happened?"
He looked like someone just told him his sister died, which only made me panic.
"when you ran into the school, the fireman showed up and ran in after the principal told him you were in there along with 2 other students. They said that when they found you, you were knocked out on the floor and your heart beat was getting weak because of the smoke and that you were lucky that the fire didn't catch you. They brought you here and you have been asleep for the last 2 days,"
I started to remember everything that happened that night and than like lightening struck down on me, I popped out of the bed so fast I lost my balance and almost fell but I caught myself.
"Where's Jamie and James?!"
I yelled looking around panicked, hoping they would just pop out of no where and say they were okay. I looked back at AJ and he had solemn expression on his face.
"The- the firemen searched all over for them as long as they could before the building caved in. They-they couldn't find them, I'm so sorry Alexis"
He whispered as a tear fell down his face, but I refuse to believe it. Jamie is smart and knowing my brother, he wouldn't let anything happen to her so I knew they had to be fine.
"You're lying!! They are fine!! Where are they? Are they hiding somewhere!? OK come out guys this isn't funny anymore?! it actually never was?!"
I kept on yelling hoping that I was right but when I looked back at AJ I saw his show something I haven't seen since the day my mother died. True and utter heart break. Right than I just broke down, I fell to the floor and kept crying and crying, thrashing around yelling about how he was a lying and how they were okay. I knew I was only lying to myself but I just didn't want to think that my one and only family died, that my best friend that stayed with me through thick and thin was gone. The last thing I remember talking to Spitz and J about was how excited they both were to be going on a date with each other and now it made my heart break into a million pieces just thinking that they will never get the one date they were dying to have, they didn't get to tell each other how they really felt, and most of all, they died without even knowing that they loved each other and belonged together but never had a chance to act on that passion. I don't remember ever stop crying, every time I tried stopping I would think about all the memories I shared with them and start crying even more. After what felt like a decade, I stopped crying and just felt numb, I didn't feel anything besides depression, my face was void of any emotions, my whole body just felt numb, that night I lie in bed just staring at the ceiling feeling my heart clench, and silently cried, not once making a sound, or falling asleep.
I realized than that this depression will never go away, losing one person you loved was enough to make me depressed for a year or two, but loosing your father shortly after only lasted a year, but loosing 2 people in one day? Makes me question if I want to live anymore.
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