Camila woke up cuddled into Lauren's side with a heavy duvet over them. She rolled over to face Lauren and couldn't help but admire how peaceful the girl looked in the morning. She gave Lauren a peck on the side of her mouth got out of bed slowly. Once she shuffled out of Lauren's embrace and the blanket, she threw her legs over the bed and walked over to the large window in Lauren's room. Camila rummaged through Lauren's drawers and found some shorts to put on. She closed the blinds, remembering how tired her sort-of-girlfriend was last night and wanted to prolong her slumber as best as she could. Camila walked back to the bed, pulled the blanket up to Lauren's neck, and was on her way.
She walked into the kitchen, stretching as she found her seat around the kitchen island.
"Morning, guys" she yawned.
"Mila, it's tomorrow" Normani leaned over on the counter with a mug in her hand.
"Pretty sure it's today?" Camila questioned more than stated.
"She's right," Dinah called from the other side of the kitchen. "you said you'd explain all of that." Dinah moved her index finger around and Camila quickly remembered the hickey on her neck as well as the promise she made last night.
"Maybe we could wait for Ally, or for me to talk to Lauren first?" Camila tried compromising.
"You wish! Ally can find out when she's back in town! Come on, spill!"
"Fine!" Camila groaned. "What do you want to know?"
"Who, what, when, where, why, and how?" Normani was quick to answer and then proceeded to give Dinah a low-five.
"Me and Lauren kissed three days ago, in her car, because we wanted to, and with our mouths. All done here?" Camila made a mental note to fill Lauren in on the conversation later on.
"What about that hickey? Are you guys dating? What does this mean?" Dinah asked.
"Ithappenedyesterdayinthebathroomstallatthehockeygame" Camila mumbled, howling she wouldn't have to explain further.
"Pardon me? Is that Spanish?" Dinah laughed at her own joke, high-fiving with Normani once again.
"You're hilarious. Lauren had to pee, I went with her, and we ended up kissing a little in the stall. Ugh, guys do you really need to know everything?" Camila stressed the last part.
"Yeah we do, and you're softer than Lauren so at least we'll be able to get it out of you" Normani answered but Dinah nodded in agreement. "So are you guys dating? I mean I know you guys like each other"
"No, no, we're not dating, were kinda letting what happens happen because if we rush into anything it could ruin something great. We want the gain to be bigger than the risk" Camila's lips curled at the thought of the conversation she had with Lauren about where they stood. She had imagined them being official on a few occasions but was more than content with playing it safe for now. "How'd you know we liked each other? Did Dinah tell you?"
"Mila, I've known since high school!"
"Hey I haven't liked her for that long!"
"You may have not been aware, but you for sure did. " Dinah looked to Normani for approval and she just shook her head 'yes'.
"Whatever, you guys are crazy"
"I'm just glad you're willing to give it a chance, we've all been rooting for you guys." Dinah shrugged, she just wanted her friends to be happy and them together equated to happiness in her mind; she hoped she was right.
"Me too" Camila answered simply.
"You up to anything today?" Normani asked. "I feel like I haven't seen you two in forever. "
"I'm not busy but Lauren has a class today. Wanna go shopping?"
"I thought you'd never ask" Normani smiled at her. "Dinah, you in?" Normani called out to the girl that was now on one of the couches. Their entire apartment, expect their bedrooms, was basically just a huge room, it was very lofty.
"Yeah, I don't care"
~~~~~
Almost two weeks Camila found herself up before Lauren. She sat sprawled out on the couches with a text book on her lap however her thoughts were elsewhere. She was thinking about how good things with Lauren were. In hindsight not much has changed except for how they showed their affection but those little things had a huge impact.
"Hey beautiful" Lauren greeted, walking towards where Camila was.
"Hey sleepyhead, I was worried you died." Camila giggled.
"And you weren't going to check on me? Make sure I was okay?" Lauren joked, lifting Camila's legs, sitting down, and them placing them on her lap.
"I figured I was home alone and it could make me seem suspicious. Someone would find you eventually, I was just crossing my fingers you weren't dead" Camila shrugged her shoulders.
"You're an ass"
"Yeah, well" Camila looked back down at her textbook, seemingly unbothered by what Lauren had said.
"Oh my god!" Lauren laughed "I hate you, I was gonna take you driving today but I guess not..." Lauren began lifting Camila's legs off her.
"DRIVING?" Camila screamed. Both Lauren and Camila were startled by how loud it actually came out.
"NOT IF YOU'RE YELLING LIKE A CRAZY PERSON THE ENTIRE TIME" Lauren answered back, copying Camila's yelling but making it not quite as loud.
"Lauren you better not be fucking with me right now"
"I'm not, I promised I would take you and since we don't have anything going on today, I thought why not?"
"I don't know, what if I seriously fuck up?" Camila went from excited to nervous, she'd always wanted to learn but her fear usually got in the way.
"We're just going to be driving around an empty parking lot for now, alright?"
"Alright"
"Good, I'm gonna go shower and we'll leave in about and hour?" Lauren said leaning into Camila's lips and giving her a quick kiss before getting up.
"Can I come?" Camila wiggled her eyebrows at Lauren.
"You wish, babe"
~~~~~
"CAMILAAAAAAA" Lauren called out with her head sticking out of the bathroom door. She had just gotten out of the shower but had forgotten to bring underwear with her.
"YEAH?" She heard Camila call back.
"COME HERE PLEASE" Lauren asked then waited until Camila was in sight to begin talking again. "I forgot to bring underwear in with me and I'm still dripping"
"So dry off and go get some?" A confused Camila countered.
"No you don't understand, I need to put them on before I dry my hair so I don't need to hold my towel up at the same time. Plus all my clothes for today are already in here. Please?"
"I'm so confused, why don't you just dry your hair naked? You're in there alone?" If Camila wasn't following but in her defence, Lauren wasn't making much sense either.
"Camila, its my routine, please!" Lauren practically begged. It wasn't so much that she was superstitious but she had a certain order of doing things and if that order was compromised, well then so was the rest of her day. Camila was well aware of this however, she didn't really get it.
"You're by far the weirdest person I know."Camila groaned "What do I need to do again?"
"Well first you need to come a little closer so I can give you a 'thank you' kiss" A smile formed on Camila's lips and she happily leaned in and kissed Lauren.
"You're dumb" Camila said, it was little things like this that reminded her cute Lauren could actually be.
"Okay so I just need a bra and underwear, it's in the top drawer. I have everything thing else."
"Fine" Camila said, walking away into Lauren's room. She walked over to the drawers where she kept her clothes and opened up the first one. Inside was an organized mess, it was split up into three sections; underwear, bras, and socks yet none of them were folded, they were all kind of crumpled up together. She reached into the drawer, about to grab the first thing she saw but then it hit her; Lauren never specified what underwear she wanted.
The hunt for the sexiest underwear her roommate owned started. Lauren was the type of person who wore matching sets when possible so she started with the bra knowing that she'd most likely find matching bottoms. She settled on a royal blue, lace, revealing, yet classy, push up bra. Camila was pleasantly surprised with how nice all the lingerie was and told herself to go underwear shopping with Lauren soon. When she finally found the bottoms, she held them up. They were royal blue lace, like the bra, that seemed pretty revealing. It wasn't quite a thong, but it was pretty close. Camila figured she should probably bring them back to Lauren before she started thinking about Lauren in them and drooling. She walked to the bathroom adjacent to Lauren's room and lightly knocked. Immediately, Lauren poked her head and hand through.
"You're kidding right?" Lauren said looking down at the underwear. "I'm taking you driving not walking the Victoria Secret runway!"
"God knows you have the body" Camila winked and walked away.
"I hate you!" Lauren called back before closing the door. Camila walked over to her own room. She figured they would drive for a while and then probably go get a bite to eat so there wasn't much to dress for. She grabbed a pair of leggings and light grey loose sweater. Camila ran her hand through her hair and decided she was ready. She was walking down the hall when Lauren's door opened.
"Oh hey, ready to go?" Lauren asked, giving her a soft smile. She had an oversized tartan shirt-dress and Camila was shamelessly staring.
"You look hot"
"Shut up" Lauren walked over to the door and put on a pair of combat boots. When she reached up to get her keys from the hook, her dress lifted and Camila saw a flash of blue lace and she smiled, knowing exactly what Lauren was wearing underneath that dress. She put on a paid of converse before heading out with Lauren.
The entire car ride to the parking lot consisted of Camila asking Lauren questions about driving.
"But what if I forget which one is the break and which one is the gas?" Camila was getting more nervous by the second and before answering Lauren gave Camila's hand, that was already in hers, a squeeze.
"Then we're screwed, babe" Lauren chuckled.
"Lauren, I'm serious" Camila wasn't laughing.
"I'm being serious! You'll be fine, there's literally nothing to hit, its just a field of cement."
"What if someone needs the parking lot!"
"Camila, it's" She looked down at the radio's clock "11:23 on a Wednesday morning, who the fuck is going to need the parking lot in the back of the pharmacy?"
"The people that need to go in the pharmacy?" Camila asked more than answered.
"The main parking is in the front of the building, it's just empty space in the back."
"It could fill up!" Camila pressed, she was already regretting this.
"Unlikely"
"Unlikely" Camila repeated in a funny voice, mocking Lauren. Lauren released Camila's hand and, without taking her eyes off the road, she nudged Camila's shoulder. Camila expected for Lauren to bring her hand back down to Camila's hand but when it didn't Camila found herself following it with her eyes. Lauren's right hand when to her collarbone, sliding under the dress and gently scratching her shoulder. When she removed her hand, her collar shifted just enough for Camila to get a glimpse of Lauren's bra and the top of her cleavage. Camila and Lauren were both oblivious to Camila's staring until Lauren's hand found itself resting on Camila's upper thigh. Camila's gaze shifted down to Lauren's hand. She knew Lauren wasn't purposely doing anything to turn her on right now, but she was turned on anyway.
Camila looked back at Lauren, her lips were slightly parted and she was focused on the road. Lauren pulled up at a red light and felt Camila's hand turning her cheek. Camila gave her an open mouth kiss, full of lust. When they parted, Lauren sat there with wide eyes like she just saw a ghost.
"What was that for?"
"I already told you, you look hot." Camila shrugged her shoulders "It's green, babe" She pointed to the traffic light.
"Oh" She barely heard Lauren mumble before returning her gaze to the road. Camila got a kick out of how flustered Lauren was. She felt Lauren's hand travel slightly higher and was now sure that Lauren was testing her. They pulled into the parking lot and Lauren was right, it was huge and deserted. They should be fine, but Camila had other plans.
"Have you ever hooked up in here?" Camila asked.
"The car?"
"yeah"
"No, I've only ever kissed you a few weeks ago, why?"
"Move your seat back?" Camila unbuckled her seatbelt.
"Why?"
"Lauren, I'm trying to make out with you right now, can you please stop being so difficult?" Lauren's eyes widened at the realization, she quickly unbuckled her own belt and moved the seat back. Camila climbed on top of her and started kissing her neck. Camila started at the top of Lauren's neck, leaving long kisses that lingered even after she moved on somewhere else. Lauren's hands were resting on her bum but as Camila kisses went lower and lower, Lauren's hands went higher. Camila was getting dangerously close to Lauren's cleavage without even unbuttoning anything. Lauren's hands were under Camila's shirt, nails lightly grazing her sides.
"Camila" Lauren said, surprised at how weak her voice sounded. "Come here" Lauren removed one of her hands from underneath Camila's sweater and went to her cheek, bringing her up. They immediately started kissing. It was almost like they missed a step because now tongues were meeting tongues and teeth and lips in a mess. Lauren had forgotten about the build up and the slow kisses the second Camila's lips were on her neck. Lauren's hand returned under Camila's shirt, it was now resting on her lower stomach, occasionally playing, pulling, and tugging at the waistband of her leggings. Camila's tongue swiped Lauren's top lip before gently bitting down and pulling.
"Fuck" escaped Lauren's mouth and before she even knew what she was asking, "Let's move to the back" came out. Camila nodded slowly, looking back at her with swollen lips and lust filled eyes. They both had thought about being intimate, they just weren't sure how the other one felt. They had done stuff in high school but never went past either of the girls' definition of 'all the way'. Both of them knew the other wouldn't let their proper first time together be in the back of the car and because of that, they were more than willing to have some fun. Lauren reached over to pull the passenger's seat down and they both climbed to the back. Lauren lay down first, Camila was about to get on her.
"Wait" Camila said, she plugged her phone into the auxiliary cord and was rushing to find a song. She pressed on the song and got on top of Lauren. Their lips met once again and the second Hands All Over by Maroon5 started playing, Lauren smiled into the kiss.
"Nice choice" Lauren husked, Camila just smiled. Camila straightened herself up in the car, Lauren's hands were on Camila's thighs that straddled her.
Camila grabbed the bottom of her shirt and pulled it over her head, revealing a neon orange coloured bra that fit perfectly and made Camila look even more tanned than she already was. It wasn't like there was anyone else in the parking lot but Camila was glad the back of Lauren's coop's windows were small and tinted. Lauren barely had a second to admire Camila's now shirtless body before Camila 's lips were pressed against hers again. She felt Camila's tongue circle her own and let out a loud moan. Camila's body grinded more into Lauren's and they felt heat between their legs now. Lauren's hand went to Camila's bum and gave it a harsh grab before moving back up and slipping one hand under her leggings and continuing to grip her now bare bum. With this, Camila's body pushed more against Lauren's hoping to find some friction but she wasn't happy with the result.
Camila groaned in frustration. She lifted her right leg, positioned it between both of Lauren's and, once again, grinded into Lauren. They both released a heavy moan, now aware of how warm their centres had become. Camila began kissing the top of Lauren's cleavage. She left a mark there before unbuttoning three buttons and working on the valley between her breasts. When she looked down at Lauren's chest, she was face with four hickeys in a perfect line down the middle.
"Fuck, Camila" Lauren spoke between closed teeth making Camila smirk.
Lauren's left hand came up to unclasp Camila's bra though it stayed in place due to Camila's body being against her own. Lauren's other hand that rested on Camila's bare bum under her leggings reached a little lower and purposely swiped a finger over her centre before grabbing her bum harshly. Camila's hips bucked into Lauren's thigh and her back arched in response. Camila felt a gush of wetness spread along her centre. Lauren pulled down her leggings as far she she could and Camila kicked them off.
Camila now sat up, slowly riding Lauren's thigh while unbuttoning Lauren's dress and the bushing it to her sides. She looked down, admiring how the lingerie looked on her and then slowly pulled off her own bra that Lauren had unhooked before. She reached back and unhooked Lauren's bra too, now letting it slide down exposing her breasts. Lauren immediately sat up a little, sliding backwards, pulling Camila still on her and then resting her back against the door so they were both sitting up now. She kissed Camila quickly before moving down to her chest. She ran her tongue over everything and it sent shivers down Camila's spine. Lauren moved her tongue closer and close to Camila's breast, occasionally leaving kissed before closing her mouth on Camila's nipple.
"FUCK" Camila called out, her pace against Lauren's leg had quickened. Lauren crashed their lips together once more and took Camila's breast in her hand while the other cupped her bum and followed her movements back and forth. She could feel Camila's wetness on her thigh. Completely turned on at this point, Lauren's centre was itching for some contact but she knew she would have to hold out for a little. The kisses were incredibly messy, neither of them were focused whatsoever. Camila kept moaning into Lauren's mouth. Camila was blindly looking for something to grab and hold onto. She settled on the head rest and dug her nails into it. It didn't matter because they were alone but she still didn't want to be too loud.
Lauren parted and looked at Camila. She was naked except for her underwear, eyes closed, riding Lauren's thigh, grabbing at anything she could, and completely on edge. Lauren shivered at the sight. Lauren's hand cupped her bum and were roughly guiding Camila on her thigh. She attached her lips right under Camila's ear and sucked causing Camila to let out another involuntarily loud moan.
"So fucking hot," Lauren husked, making her tongue swipe over Camila's jaw briefly. Lauren was surprised that Camila was still going but then became aware at how slow Camila was actually grinding. Sure, she had sped up, but it wasn't nearly enough to be considered 'fast'. Lauren had to change that. Her hands, began pushing Camila faster and faster into her. Camila had given up on gripping the headrest, she now had her arms loosely around Lauren with her mouth sucking, and occasionally, biting on one particular spot on Lauren's neck in attempt to control her volume and deal with how close she was getting.
Lauren realized Camila was basically putty in her hands now.
"Fuck Camila, we're supposed to go driving and now we're both naked in my car where someone could look in at any time" Lauren spoke slowly, hoping to get even more of a rise out of Camila.
"Lauren," Camila moaned "I'm so fucking close" She lifted herself from Lauren, pressing her hands on the glass on either side of Lauren's head. Camila's eyes were closed but Lauren's were studying Camila intently.
"Let go, baby" Lauren reached down and grabbed at the front of Camila's underwear, pulling up and adding even more friction against Camila's centre. Camila felt her stomach tighten and her muscles contract. She came right then and there.
Camila screamed out. Various curse words, heavy moans, and even Lauren's name came out. Lauren kept guiding Camila back and forth on her leg, helping her ride out her orgasm. The mere sight of Camila coming undone was almost enough for Lauren to lose it as well but Lauren was more than content with what had happened. Once Camila came to a stop on Lauren's now soaked thigh she finally spoke.
"That was fucking incredible." Her head rested against Lauren's neck and her hand had been slowly caressing up and down Lauren's stomach.
"You're telling me?" Lauren chuckled. Camila made a move to return the favour but Lauren stopped her. "We have plenty of time, don't worry"
Camila just nodded, kissed her cheek, and started to get dressed. Lauren had buttoned up her dress and Camila now laid with a bra and and pants, leaving her shirt off. She cuddled into Lauren who was now laying on the seat. Camila's head rested in the crook of Lauren's neck and her hand resting on Lauren's stomach. Camila sneaked her fingers in between the buttons in the most innocent gesture and it made Lauren's heart flutter. Lauren's own hand was drawing circles on Camila's bare back and the other hand was on Camila's leg which wrapped around Lauren in a koala like fashion. They stayed like that for what felt like hours to the girls but in reality must have only been thirty minutes.
"Lauren" Camila said shyly, not wanting the moment to end but still very eager to drive. Her nerves were almost gone and she figured she should take advantage of that. "Do you think I could drive?"
"I was waiting for you to ask" Lauren flashed a smile before grabbing Camila's shirt and handing it to her.
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Camila did well, Lauren was pretty impressed by how at ease she seamed. She was in n position to get on the road or anything but she was pretty close. They had promised each other to find time to practice once a week and both were equally looking forward to their 'driving dates'. They were now walking to the door of their apartment when Camila had a burst of confidence.
"Laur, what are we?"
"Are we dating? Are we fucking? Are we best friends? Are we something?" Lauren laughed at her own joke but Camila wasn't too amused. It was almost a month since they had kissed in this very car and agreed to play it by ear but Camila was growing impatient. She didn't know what to tell people and she had mentioned it to Lauren many times but Lauren would just say 'it's no one's business' and Camila agreed it wasn't but it was a good enough reason to ask Lauren without straight up asking. Camila could and would probably wait forever for Lauren but she didn't want to.
"I'm serious, three weeks is almost a month and a month is along time in a relationship, if that's what this is" Camila said, hoping Lauren didn't catch the last part. They were now at their door and Lauren turned to Camila.
"Obviously it's a relationship but why do we need to make things official?"
"Because it means something, I want us to mean something..." Camila's voice trailed off. It wasn't so much about the label, it was more what it entailed that meant something to her. She didn't expect things to change once they made it official but she would finally be able to stop referring to Lauren as her sort-of-girlfriend.
"What happened to playing it by ear?" Lauren questioned, a little bit defensive now. She didn't want to have this talk, as much as she liked what they had, committing made it real and Lauren wasn't ready for real. Real was what she wanted but that didn't mean it didn't scare her.
"I was under the impression that we would stop 'playing it by ear' " Camila added hand quotes "when we realized there was a possibility of us actually working"
"It's early, Camila, we don't know if.." Lauren stopped herself because she knew those seven words dug a hole for her about six feet deep and she wasn't going to see how much further in the ground she could get.
"Oh excuse me, Lauren, I thought going on dates, kissing, hooking up in your car were all signs of something that was working! We haven't slept alone in three weeks, that made all of this pretty real to me!" Camila groaned in frustration. She reached over to the door, pushed it open, and stomped inside.
"Camila, come on, you know how into this I am!" Lauren called, basically running after her. Upon hearing the two girls, Normani, Dinah, and Ally's heads turned from the couch.
"Obviously not enough to show any signs of commitment! Just let me know before I take my clothes off next time." Camila stormed off. It's not the Lauren and Camila were oblivious to the girls on the couch, they just didn't really care at that point.
"What's up with your girlfriend, Laur?" Normani teasingly asked.
"She's not my-" Lauren started before being interrupted.
"That's the problem!" Camila's voice travelled out, making the three girls on the couch laugh.
"Fuck you guys" Lauren said, shaking her head at her three roommates.
"Stop talking to us and go talk to Mila!" Ally reprimanded and Lauren made her way to Camila's room.
She knocked once; no answer. Twice; no answer. Three times and
"Lauren no matter how many times you knock I'm not opening the door for you" Camila's voice spoke from the other side of the door.
"Can I please come in?" Lauren carefully asked, body pressed against the door.
"If you can get the door open then yeah, sure" Lauren played with the knob a little only to realize it was locked.
"Camz, baby, it's locked"
"I know"
"Of coarse you know" Lauren whispered to herself. She pushed herself off the door and headed for the bathroom. She rummaged through, looking for a bobby pin or anything that could work but was out of luck. She went into the living room, remembering that Dinah had a bun on, and grabbed the bobby pin right of her hair.
"Excuse me?" Dinah called out to Lauren who was down the hall.
"It's for Camren"
"Oh, okay" Dinah went back to her phone and a content smile appeared on Lauren's face.
She arrived in front of Camila's door and got to work. It took her 10 minutes and a ton of googling but she finally heard the lock click. Lauren gently opened the door and noticed Camila on the bed with her face in her pillow. Camila's room was very different from Lauren's, her bed was in the middle of the room, contrary to Lauren's which was against a wall. She always thought it was a good representation of the two. Much like their beds, Camila was a very open, extroverted person, who often found herself in the middle of things while Lauren was more closed off and observing everything from the outside. Though they both could be the complete opposite, that's usually how they were seen. It was a complimentary contrast. Pictures of family and friends lined Camila's light blue wall next to her bed, she had a dresser and full length mirror on the other side. Lauren noticed the box of pictures, identical to the one on her shelf, on Camila's desk and smiled. She took a seat on the edge of Camila's bed and ran her fingers through Camila's hair.
"I don't want to talk to you" Camila's muffled voice spoke from the pillow.
"Listen, please" Lauren continued combing through Camila's hair. "I'm sorry I made you upset, Camila. I really am. All of this scares the shit out of me. You're my best friend before anything else and a label, a commitment, ultimately changes things."
"It's not going to change any aspect of whatever this is!" Camila turned her head so she wasn't speaking into the pillow but wasn't looking at Lauren.
"If nothing is going to change then why do we need a label?"
"If nothing is going to change then why not?" Camila countered.
"Because a break up comes after commitment."
"Not always"
"Camila, you know how I feel about that."
"Yeah and not so long ago you told me you wanted someone to come along and change how you feel. Lauren, how am I supposed to do that without being given the opportunity to?" Camila sat up, now looking at Lauren with her legs crossed at the other side of the bed. It was only a few inches between them but it felt like miles.
"Why can't we just let it turn into that?"
"That's not how it works, Laur, one of us is going to have to make the conscious decision to ask the other. You want something meaningful, longterm? Work for it. You don't buy cookie dough, cut it up, and expect for them to be ready, you need to cook them, and check on them, and let them cool." Camila paused "Fuck, that was a bad example. Look, just cause you take someone out on a few dates doesn't mean you guys are dating. You can take someone out on dates for a year and it won't mean shit if you guys don't talk and aren't on the same page. It won't mean shit if you aren't committed." Camila looked at Lauren. "It's like you said, we're friends before anything else and I don't want to ruin that. Just, figure out what you want, no hard feelings either way, and let me know."
Lauren opened her mouth but Camila was too fast.
"Don't answer now, think about it." Camila got up and left the room. Neither of them would be sleeping that night.
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AN:
Okayyy so as you guys know I was going to update on Thursday but this morning I made some changes to the first few chapters and put them together so instead of this being chapter nine, it's chapter seven.
How do you guys like the story so far?
-Becca