Zayns POV
My sister gave me this whole lecture about girls and shit so I decided to go and speak to Rosie.
She said that girls need their space but sometimes girls need attention . I decided to give Rosie attention because I don't like tension .
As I called out Rosies name before she entered , I felt my heart racing and I could feel my hands shaking .
"Zayn , wha-what are you doing here ?"she asked me as I walked slowly towards the porch .
"I uhm"I clear my throat .
"I wanted to a-apologize "I struggle to say because u hardly ever say sorry .
"Do you expect me to forgive you just like that ?"she spits and I sigh because u didn't come here to argue .
"I should learn not to take your love for granted "I told her .
Rosie's POV
When he said love my heart began to race because what if he bumped into Niall and , Niall told him that I have feelings for him .
"Well maybe you should of learnt earlier because I'm not speaking to you"I said coldly .
"Listen , please don't do this "he said and I laughed rudely.
"Don't make this difficult for us ?"he said and I just rolled my eyes .
"I can't forgive you Zayn , as much u want to but you hurt me "I said placing my hand on the handle .
"Just try"he pleased and I sighed wiping away a tear .
"I am but honesty it doesn't matter because I'm leaving -"shit ! I almost told him .
"Leaving ?"he asks and I sigh closing my eyes dreading to answer this question .
"You're leaving ?"he asks sounding a bit angry .
Why is everyone angry when I bring this topic up .
"Rosie , fucking tell me where you leaving to !"he begins to shout and I roll my eyes .
"No"I refused and he looked at me strangely like I'm suppose to tell him stuff .
"No? Well then I'm sorry that I'm not sorry!"he shouted and u laughed because I knew the real Zayn would show up soon .
"Well then fuck you"I said giving him an ugly stare .
"Fuck!"he shouts kicking the mailbox out of anger .
"Don't take it out in the mail box !"I shout as he jumps around because he hurt his toe .
"I'm going to L.A"i finally say and he looks up at me .
"When?"he asks calmly .
"In two weeks time"I tell him and he just stares at me .
"Well you have fun"he says breaking the emotion between us .
I know he feels something for me because the feeling I got when he looked at me in my eyes , I just felt that spark .
"I will"I say rudely because he turned his back towards me .
"Bye , Zayn"I say because he just stood there and not saying anything .
"Bye Rosie "he says softly and walks away .
I ran inside and the tears just began to fall .
"Sweetly , what's wrong ?"my mom asks me and I shake my head smiling to show her I'm fine .
"I'm going to my room "I say and walk up stairs .
I took my phone out and decided to go through my images . Suddenly a message pops up .
It's from Justin .
Justin : hey , is Lacey with you ?
Rosie : idk mayb u should ask her yourself
Justin : plz Rosie .
Rosie : bye .
Before he could message back I through my phone against the wall because of my anger and heart break .
"Fuck my life !"I shouted not caring if my parents heard me because I was hurting.
I walked to my draw and decided to take a blade out .
As I held it in my hand I stared at it .
I was holding the one thing that I actually didn't mind harming me in my hand .
I began to slowly cut through my wrist . Blood began to run out of the open scars .
Watching the blood flow , i walked I my bathroom mirror and stared at myself in the mirror .
Look at what you've became . What everyone turned you in .
I noticed all the make up that made me look fake as fuck . Why did I turn into same fake Barbie doll ?
I grabbed a wet wipe and began to remove the mascara that was smudged because of my crying .
I removed the blush and everything .
I looked at my bare face and stared at it for a while .
I wrapped a piece of my long blonde hair in my fingers and began to play with it . I remember always thinking I was Barbie or Repunzle and I just wanted to grow up and be a pretty princess . But look at me now , I'm a liar and all I want is a stupid guy to recognize me.
He doesn't even notice me for me .he only notices the bad qualities . He doesn't want to see Rosie Ross but only the slut that he thinks I am .
If Zayn doesn't want to notice me then in going to do everything I can to make him notice me .
It's time that I do something about myself .
I walked outside with a smirk on my face .
"Hey , mom ... Do you think it's possible if I could cut my hair ?"u asked her and she gave me a look and laughed .
"Rosie ? Actually wants to cut her hair ? Are you okay .. Did you bump your head ?"she asks feeling my head and I rolled my eyes .
"Seriously "I said and she laughed then she noticed I was being serious and stopped .
"Oh , you're serious "she said and I nodded .
"Well if that's what you want then okay"she agreed and I gave her a huge hug .
"Thanks so much mom!"u thank her and she awkwardly pats my back .
My mom called a hair dresser to come and cut my hair at home . It was exciting because u haven't cut my hair like since forever .
I sat in the chair staring at myself in the mirror .
"You're sure you want to cut your hair ?"she asks me and I nod quickly .
"This is for my own good"I said .
Laura ( the hair dresser ) takes the scissor in her hand and slowly lowers it to my hair .
I hold my breathe and close my eyes for the first snip .
I hear and feel the hair drop and I breathe out and open my eyes .
She began to snip and cut and I just started smiling because it actually suits me .
"You're look beautiful honey"my mom commented as Laura did the finishing touches .
I stood up and stared at myself in the mirror whilst playing with my new short hair .
"Wow , I never knew change could looks this good"I said and my mom walked towards my side .
"Now you look like me"she smiled and I laughed .
"You know that I live you right ?"I asked her and she nods .
"Thank you so much Laura "I thank Laura .
***
I decided to change my style and my look today for school .
Usually I wear some styling shit but today I'm just going to wee and white skinny jeans with a grey crop top .
I didn't put any make up in and left my hair loose .
Everyone was going to see a different Rosie . A better Rosie.
I came down stairs and my parents choked on their coffee .
"Rosie ?"my dad asks and I wink .
"Morning"I greet laughing .
"Uhm okay , let's get you to school"my dad says slowly and I greet my mom .
Getting out the car everyone just stares at me . I see them whispering to each other and I couldn't help but smirk .
Walking towards my locker I notice Zayn and Niall were walking towards my direction .
I grab the nearest boy .
"Put you hand in my hair and tell me I'm beautiful"i say quickly and he nods .
He puts his hand in my hair .
"You're beautiful "he says just when they walk passed and I notice Niall looks but no reaction from Zayn .
What must I do to get his attention !
"Thank you"I tell the boy kissing his cheek and then walked away .
Zayns POV
"What's up with her new look?"Niall asks me and i try not to show any interest so I just shrug .
"Don't worry about her , dude"I say because Niall is being such a baby about the break up .
"But she just looks so hot"he comments and I would say that to but didn't want to let anyone know that i noticed how she looks .
"We'll find someone hotter"I say and Niall nods slowly .
She walks passed us with her friends and her sweet scent blows passed me . Taking in the smell I close my eyes because it smells so good .
What was she trying to do ?
Her ass looked so good because the jeans fitted around it perfectly .
I didn't want to stare so I quickly walked over to Layla .
Rosie's POV
fuck !
I try and try but he still goes over to that bitch .
I need to get her out of my way !
"Rosie , you okay?"Chloe asks me snapping me out if my staring at Zayn and Layla .
"Uh yeah"I say tightening the grip of my books in my hand .
"I'm perfectly fine"I say afterwards looking infinity if me.
He is going to notice me .
A/N
What do you think Rosie will do to make Zayn notice her ? !
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