VOTE.COMMENT.LIKE.TWEET
ENJOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I laid in Trey’s arms surrounded by complete bliss. A sense of euphoria occupied my body and my happiness was amplified. I ran my fingertips over his torso and up his chest. The room was dim due to the sun leaving our side of the earth.
I felt Trey’s hands run through my hair and I smiled in content. I was utterly in love with him. My heart belonged to him. Every part of me was supposed to be with him and that’s how I wanted it to be.
I slightly lifted my head up and stared at Trey; he looked back at me and stared into my eyes. He grabbed my face and pulled me towards him, bringing my lips to his. I nibbled on his bottom lip and he chuckled.
I parted his lips with my tongue and found his. The warm feeling in my stomach magnified, the tingling sensation augmented, and fire coursed through my veins. Leave it to Trey to make me feel this way with just one simple kiss.
I pulled away from him completely breathless. I smothered my face into his neck as I got my breathing back to normal rhythm.
“I love you,” I whispered in his ear.
“I love you too,” He replied. I placed my head back on his bare chest and closed my eyes in contentment.
I awakened abandoned in my own bed completely alone. A lonely feeling instantly rushed over me once I realized that Trey was no longer with me and I had the urge to let the tears fall, but I ignored it and held back as I got prepared for a day of school.
I quickly took a shower and got dressed. I walked downstairs and my mom was sitting at the table drinking a cup of coffee and working on her laptop.
“Hey mom,” I said as I looked in the fridge for something to drink.
“Good morning sweetie,” She replied.
“Bye mom,” I said as I grabbed a grape juice and walked towards the door.
“Bye sweetie,” She chuckled as I walked out of the door.
I walked into the school and made my way to my first class. I was about to head inside the class when I was pulled to the side by my arm.
“Hey,” Josh said as I turned to face him.
“Hey,” I said distancing myself away from him just a little bit.
“I texted you earlier,” He informed me.
“I haven’t checked my phone this morning.” I told him as I reached inside my bag for my phone.
“I was just seeing where you were,” He said.
“Oh, well I'm here.” I said awkwardly. After what had happened with Trey and I last night, I just kind of felt weird around Josh at the moment. It wasn’t quite guilt, but guilt definitely played a part in it. I mean I had slept with another guy last night and I was supposedly supposed to be with Josh. So maybe it was guilt.
“Are you okay?” He asked.
“Yea I’m fine,” I told him.” I should go inside.” I said as I motioned to the classroom. I just really needed to not be around him right now.
“Yea, I’ll see you later,” He said before leaning in to kiss me. I pulled away. I don’t know what made me, but I just did. It was like some sort of reflex.
“What’s wrong?” He asked.
“I think I’m coming down with something.” I lied. “I’ll see you later okay,” I said before pecking him on the cheek and going inside the class.
I shook my head trying to unscramble my thoughts. What the hell was wrong with me? I couldn’t just start pulling away from him like that. I mean he was my boyfriend. I really needed to get my shit together, because I knew that Josh would definitely start questioning my answers and he had always been a problem solver so I knew that he was going to figure out that something was going on.
I sighed and placed my forehead on the cold hard desk. I needed to keep away from Josh. I couldn’t be with two guys at the same time. It just wasn’t right. I would be considered a whore. I knew that we were in two different times, but that still didn’t help how I felt on the inside.
I felt bad for doing this to Josh, because it felt like I was doing it behind his back which I was, but It just wasn’t the same situation as anybody else’s. I lamely lifted my head from the desk and began paying attention to the lecture. I would think about all this at another time. Right now I should be focusing on school. I groaned. Who was I kidding? I couldn’t focus on schoolwork if I wanted to.
I sat down at my usual lunch table waiting for Josh. I knew that he would want to talk about whatever happened this morning but to be honest. I really didn’t want to talk to him about it. I just wanted to talk about a more cheerful subject, something that wouldn’t bring up the guilt that was resting in the pit of my stomach.
Josh sat down across from me at the table, but no one else came. “Where’s your friends?” I asked him.
“They’re not sitting with us today.” He replied.
“Why not?” I questioned.
“Because I asked them not too.” I looked at him curiously telling him to explain. “We need to talk Mya.” He said before taking a swig of his drink. I looked off to the side and stared at a group of teenagers at a nearby table.
“Mya,” he called out. “Why are you ignoring me?” He asked.
“I wasn’t ignoring you. I’m just waiting for you to talk.” I told him.
“Why’d you pull away from me this morning?” He inquired.
“I told you! I think I’m getting sick.” I lied once again.
“That’s bullshit and you and I both know it.” He replied.
“What’s going on?” he asked.
“Nothing Tr--- Josh.” I said correcting myself. “I’m just tired,” I lied for the third time today.
“I don’t believe you,” He said.
“Well then don’t, I guess that ends this conversation.” I replied getting defensive. I hated being constantly questioned when I didn’t want to talk about things and he knew that.
“What if I don’t want to end the conversation?” He questioned.
“Well that’s too bad because I’m done with it.”
“Whatever I don’t have time for this!” He stated.
“Time for what? Me?” I challenged.
“You and your bullshit.” He replied.
“I don’t’ come with bullshit Josh,”
“Mya you are still in fucking love with your dead boyfriend.” I looked at him stunned. Did he really just say that? How did he know? He must have saw the truth in my face or took my silence as confirmation.
“Why are you with me?” He asked.
“J-J-Josh…..I-I’m not-----“ I begun.
“Don’t lie Mya, you just almost called me by his name.” He stated. I hung my head low.
“I’ll see you around My,” he said as he got up from the table.
“Josh wait,” I called out.
“For what? For you to get over him. It’s been a year Mya, what do you expect me to do?” He asked.
“Josh just calm down.” I pleaded. “Don’t be mad.”
“I’m not mad,” he replied.
“I’m sorry,” I told him. He looked at me and then walked away. I buried my face in my hands. This whole time traveling thing was causing me to go insane. It was taking its toll on me and putting a heavy burden on my shoulder.
I collected myself and rose from the table making my way towards the parking lot. I didn’t feel like being at school any longer. I knew that all these missed and skipped days were going to catch up with me, but I just couldn’t stand being here any longer. I wanted to go home. I wanted to be with Trey.