Lamentations of the Heart

Madness I Tell You!

A wonderous thing it is to be a girl.
I found myself stark mad at someone for no reason. Not for a small thing as you might think I was literally mad for no reason. I mean I literally had to sit down and try to figure out why I was so angry at this person. I even began that process of slowly "deleting" that person from my life. You guys know what I'm talking about; short very straightforward answers eg "k" "Oh", responding with a smiley/emoji for nearly everything, no explanations, blue ticks, ignoring the person, puting them on mute, deleting their chats without reading them, watching the phone ring til the call is ended, the list is quite long you see; much longer than I've written as you know. Never really did get to the bottom of it, maybe I did and I'm just not willing to accept that I'd get mad over something so petty. Well I did end up doing a reversal of the process. It's interesting that I write about it like there was no emotion to it like it was just a bank transaction or something along those lines.
This just may be deeper than I thought
Maybe it's how those words were written
Maybe it's the bipolar I never knew
Maybe it's the denial that never left me smitten
Or maybe I'm just being plain old paranoid.