Gracelyn's POV:
I woke up the next morning sweating. I had been dreaming about the pool party and I couldn't take it. I know I shouldn't blame myself for her death, but how can I not? I was the only one watching her and I let her die.
I grabbed some clothes and walked to the bathroom. I turned on the shower and hopped in. I spent a lot of time thinking about how my whole life is going to change within the next few days. I know today reality is going to hit Liam and he'll be a wreck all day. I guess it's a good thing they don't have a concert tonight.
Once I was finished, I put on my clothes which included a white tank top with an infinity sign in navy blue. Jean shorts and my navy blue TOMS. I applied my normal makeup and straightened my hair. I brushed my teeth and headed back ito the room to put everything back in my suitcase.I usually woke up pretty early, so I was not surprised when I walked out, Niall was still asleep.
I grabbed my the TV remote and turned it on. The first thing that showed up was a news report about Liam and the rest of the lads. I decided to watch it until I heard my name and my eyes went wide. I immediately turned the Telly off and I heard a voice behind me.
"Hey, I was watching that"
I didn't think about anything and swung my arm around. It made contact with something and I screamed as did whatever I hit, which might or might have not been Niall.
"What was that for?" He asked gripping his nose.
"I'm sorry, I got scared and that's the first thing I thought of. Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I'm fine" He replied still holding his nose. He let go and I saw blood all over his hand.
"That's not fine, Niall. Do you have a first aid kit or something?" I asked.
"I don't think so, but if anyone does then it's Liam."
I nodded and knocked on the adjoined room. It was soon opened by Liam and his eyes were bloodshot and his face was tear stained. I knew exactly what he was thinking. I pulled him into a hug and he started crying again. I tried my best to be strong and not cry because he has been strong many times for me when we were younger.
"It's okay Liam" I said softly into his ear. This only made him cry harder and I flinched.
I have never seen Liam so upset and it made me feel terrible because it is my fault that he had to find out like this. After a few minutes he slowed his tears and I let go.
"Are you okay?" I asked.
"Yeah. Sorry about that" He said motioning to my soaking wet shoulder.
"Shut up, I don't care about that" I said smiling trying to make him smile too.
He chuckled and I came back to reality.
"Ok, the real reason I knocked on your door was because I might have given Niall a bloody nose" I said.
"How exactly did you do that?"
"Nobody has time for details!" I replied. He chuckled and walked past me and sat next to Niall and by now his nose had stopped bleeding.
"He looks fine to me" Liam said. I laughed awkwardly and walked away slowly hoping they wouldn't notice.
Once I had backed up far enough I sprinted into Liam's room and shut the door. I turned and saw Louis with a confused look on his face.
"Um, hi" He said awkwardly.
"Hey. What's up?" I asked.
"Wondering why you're in here and Liam's not"
"Oh, well you see. We switched places and wanted to see who would notice. Ha. Ha. You won!" I said and then laughed awkwardly once again.
"Bye now" I said turning and going back to Niall and I's room leaving Louis confused.
"So" I asked getting the two boys' attention.
"What are we gonna do today?" I questioned.
"Well, I was thinking that we could just stay in the hotel and you could get to know the lads" Liam answered.
"Sounds good." I said giving a thumbs up.
Liam called the other guys and soon everyone was in Niall and I's room. I felt awkward, like I didn't belong here.
"So Gracelyn?" Zayn asked.
"Yeah?"
"Wanna play Twenty questions?"
"Sure" I replied hesitantly. I was scared at what they were going to ask. I had a lot more secrets than most girls my age and they're called secrets for a reason.
"Ok, favorite color?" Zayn asked.
"Easy, blue" I replied happy that these were the kind of questions they were going to ask.
"Favorite movie?" Harry asked.
"Pitch Perfect"
"Favorite food?" Niall asked.
"Everything" I replied smiling.
This went on for a while until we got bored and the guys couldn't think of any more questions.
"Lets go swimmimg." said Louis.
All the boys nodded in agreement and looked at me to agree. My heart seemed to stop when he said Swimming. I couldn't let the other boys know that I was scared so I just nodded my head in agreement. All the boys left to go get ready so I was alone with Niall.
He sat down next to me and patted my hand.
"Everything will be okay." he said
"No it wont." I whispered.
"Yes it will Grace. No one will get hurt and I swear I will never let anything happen to you." he whispered.
"Thank you Niall."
"Your welcome Gracie." He pushed a stray hair behind my ear and smiled.
He got up and went to go change into his swimsuit. I sighed and put on my Red swimsuit from Hollister and I threw my hair into a messy bun. I got my sun glasses and my beach towel. I knocked on the bathroom door and Niall came out.
"Lets go Gracie."
We walked into the hall to meet the other boys.
When we got to the pool Niall suddenly picked me up. I started to panic and my palms were getting sweaty.
"Niall what are you doing?!" I yelled.
"Helping you." He whispered into my ear.
I felt him kiss under my ear. My cheeks turned bright red and my face was hot. Suddenly he jumped in the pool with me in his arms and I felt like crying. When i went up for air, the tears started.
"Shh Gracie it's okay." he said in his soothing voice.
He wiped away the tears and took me into a hug. For once I let him hug me. When he let go he smirked.
"I knew you couldn't get enough of me."
"Whatever." I said laughing.
"Wanna get on my shoulders?" he asked.
"I don't know Niall..."
"I wont drop you I promise Gracie" he said looking into my eyes. His eyes twinkled and I knew that I could trust him.
"Okay.." I said.
He smiled and went underwater. He went under my legs and I was up in the air.
"See Gracie? Nothing to worry about." he said.
I was about to say something but i was interrupted by Louis cursing.
"The paps are here" he said irritated.
Suddenly the paps bursted through the door and saw me and Niall. They all surrounded the pool taking pictures and asking questions. Niall went underwater and I went off his shoulders. When he came back up he was smiling.
"Niall we're going to be all over the papers. We're all they will be talking about." I said scared.
"Then lets give them something to talk about." he said.
Before I could process what he just said he smashed his lips against mine. I didn't know what was happening, but all I did was kiss back. I don't know why I did but I just felt a spark that I didn't want it to end.
When we ended the kiss all we did was look at each other. Niall picked me up bridal style and carried me outside the pool. He picked up my belongings and ran inside. We went into the elevator and we finally escaped the paps. He put me down and you could feel the awkward tension between us. I was mad at him for kissing me but i was even madder with myself for letting him do it.
"Look Gracie I'm sorry that I kissed you but you can't act like you didn't feel the spark."
"I did feel it. But I already told you that I'm not letting you break down my walls that easily Niall."
"Gracie I care about you. I knew that you were different since the first time I saw you.. and I loved that. I know that you won't let me into your life that easily but I promise myself that I'll do everything I can for you to let me in." We stayed silent for a while and then he got up.
Niall told me that he was going to go spend time with the boys so I had the room to myself. I plopped down on my bed and thought about everything Niall said. I would let him in if it wasn't for everything that has happened to me this year. Niall's a nice guy but I know that I'll get hurt somehow. If he wants me to let him in my life he's going to have to try pretty hard.
I decided to watch the Hunger Games to try to calm down from everything that is happening. As I watched the movie I couldn't concentrate. I kept thinking about Niall and the kiss. Why did I feel a spark? I have been telling myself for the past few days that I wont let him in and I still got a spark when he kissed me. I really don't understand. I decided I would do what helped me escape from everything. Writing. I dug around in my suitcase and found my notebook and pen.
I wrote down everything I was feeling. How my mum died, how my father was in prison, how my best friend died, but I put it into a completely different story with different people. I continued to write for what seemed like hours until Niall came back.
"Hey Grace." I decided I would ignore him for now.
"Oh come on Gracelyn you can't be that mad at me." he said.
He sat down next to me and looked at me with those beautiful blue eyes, but I ignored him and kept my full attention on my book.
"Gracie, please I don't want to fight with you. Please talk to me." he whispered. I shut my book and looked at him.
"What Niall." I said with a frown.
"What do I have to do for you to let me into your life?" He whispered.
"Show me that you truly care, that you actually care about me and wont just use me like everyone else does. Show me that you'll go out of your way to show me you care because it will take much more then kissing me to get me to let you in." He nodded and went to the bathroom to change so he can go to bed.
I sighed and took out some shorts and a
t-shirt and climbed into bed. I curled up in the blankets and thought about everything that was happening. I was so confused on what to do and what I wanted to do. All I know is, I will try with all of my strength to not let Niall James Horan into my life.