THIS IS FLASHBACK- memories to lahat ni Paris hehe, happy reading!!
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"London and Paris, meet my girlfriend, Ashley." Nakatulala lang ako habang tinitignan si France na ipakilala ang girlfriend kuno niya sa amin ni London.
"Ha? Anong jowa? Fifteen ka pa nga lang!" Reaksyon ko. Rinig ko ang pagtawa ni London sa pagsinghal ko at humagikhik naman si Ashley while France scowled.
"Oh eh ano naman? Matanda na kami." Napanganga ako sa sinabi niya.
"Matanda na ba yung fifteen? You're not even legal yet!" He just smirked saka hinawakan sa kamay yung babae niya.
"In three years time, we will be. Tatlong taon nalang din naman hihintayin." Sabi niya saka ngumiti nang humarap siya kay Ashley. I huffed.
"Hintayin para ano?" Tanong ko. He just shrugged then smirked na para bang may alam siya pero hindi niya sasabihin sa akin iyon. London smiled knowingly saka umiling.
I already met Ashley since last year pa nang una pa lang siya mapadpad dito sa private beach house na pagmamay-ari ng mga magulang ni France. She came and introduced herself to me while I was too busy picking some seashells to at least sate myself dahil bored ako noon. London and France was talking to their parents kaya hindi ko sila kasama.
"Hi! We met again!" Masiglang bati niya sa akin. Ngumiti ako sa kanya.
I admit, insecure ako sa gandang taglay niya. She is so beautiful, kind, and confident. Inggit ako sa kung anong mayroon siya. Sa edad kong twelve, I'm not that matured yet physically but I already am in mental aspect.
Siguro dahil sa galing siya sa ibang bansa kaya mukhang liberated siya tignan and she doesn't look like she's fifteen, she looks mature for her age. Dumako ang tingin ko sa dibdib niya and agad akong napanguso.
Pinagpala!
"Oh, nakanguso ka! Halata masyadong nagseselos eh!" Nakaakbay na biro sa akin ni London. He also pinched my nose kaya agad ko siyang inirapan.
Nang tignan ko sila ulit, they were busy talking to each other, whispering about something. Umirap lang ako saka humalukipkip sa inuupuan ko.
**
I spent summer in London's family's private villa and hinahayaan lang talaga ako ng parents ko to stay with London's family since they are a family friend.
Simula bata pa lamang ako ay dito na talaga ako namamalagi every summer with London and France, though, si France doon siya nags-stay sa private villa nila.
Palagi kaming magkasama and the two of them are my playmates. We play with each other, naliligo kami sa dagat at maglalaro ng pagandahan ng sand castle. Every year, I always feel excited whenever summer is coming dahil masaya silang dalawa kasama.
However, last year, France spent his summer in Europe. Bumalik din sila agad when summer is almost over and Ashley was with them. She was introduced as a family friend too kaya akala ko nagbibiro lang silang dalawa when they said they were in a relationship a year after. But looking at them now, they looked so sweet.
This year's summer is not fun at all. France is very attentive with her so-called girlfriend. Both families are very attentive to her as well, it was almost like she bewitched them and got them focused on her in a very short time. She gained their trust that fast and she became very close with France's and London's parents na para bang parte na siya ng pamilya.
She was very sweet. Kaya siguro siya minahal. Ako kasi ay nahihiya pa rin kina tito at tita kahit na ang tagal ko na sila kilala. And France, he looked really in love with her. Palagi na siyang tumatawa at ngumingiti samantalang ako nga ay palagi niyang inaaway.
I sighed.
"Paris! Look at these shells!" Napalingon naman ako nang sumigaw si London sa likod ko. I immediate diverted my attention sa mag-jowa kuno saka tumakbo papalapit kay London.
Upon seeing the shells, my eyes twinkled. Nakangiti akong tumingin kay London.
"Oh my gosh! Where did you find these?!" I exclaimed. He smiled and then held my hand to lead me somewhere.
"Look!" I gasped when he led me to the deeper part of the property just behind the rock formation and saw so many shells lying there. I giggled and then run over the seashore and giddily picked up whatever I like picking up.
"This place is beautiful! How did you find this place?" Nagtatakang tanong ko kay London.
"I was finding a place to make you happy and I came across this place." I looked at London. He chuckled saka niya ako hinawakan sa kamay.
"You've been pouting these past few days and that's not good. We don't want our summer ending with a scowl right?" Malambing niyang sabi. I pouted more. Agad niyang hinawakan ang pisngi ko and then pinched it.
"Ouch!" sigaw ko saka ko siya tinampal. He just chuckled more.
"Kakasabi ko nga lang walang ngunguso eh! This is our last week here. Come on, let's have fun." Saka niya ako ti-nap sa balikat.
"Tag, you're it!" And then he went running while I remained shock.
We played all day hanggang sa nagtakip-silim na. Kung hindi pa kami bumalik ay hindi pa namin malalaman na private property rin pala iyon and we trespassed. We were scolded when we went home by tito and tita pero pasok kabilang tenga lang sa amin iyon ni London.
**
"Why won't you come with me?" Tanong ni London. We're in the movie room of our house. Watching a movie. He asked me to go with him at their villa again but when I asked him if she's there, I rejected his invitation.
"Ayoko nga lang! Ang kulit!" sigaw ko. He sighed saka niya inagaw sa akin ang bowl ng popcorn.
"Sus! Hindi pa sabihin na nagseselos siya kay Ashley!" I glared at him when he said that while he continued eating a handful of popcorn. Ew, baboy!
"Alam mo naman pala bakit mo pa tinatanong?!" Iritang tanong ko sa kanya. He wiggled his brows really testing my patience.
"Because I like teasing you." Agad ko namang binato ang isang sofa pillow sa kanya. His laughter boomed through the four corners of this room, buti nalang soundproof ang movie room kaya hindi kami nakakaistorbo.
"Come on, it'll be boring without you. My parents would be busy with themselves tapos for sure Ashley and France would be having their own world. At least if nandoon ka i'll be having fun." Pakiusap niya pa rin. I pouted.
"Eh ayoko, hindi naman na ako pinapansin doon. They are all focus to Ashley. Eh hindi naman siya babasaging bagay na kailangan ingatan." I pouted more. He sighed and then leaned on my shoulder. I remained not moving.
"But I'm there. i'm with you, always." Agad naman akong napatingin kay London nang sabihin niya iyon.
"Talaga?" tanong ko. He nodded and hugged me.
"Yes, lovely. Always."
**
"Good luck to your first day in college, lovely!" Masayang sigaw ni London. Pinagtitinginan tuloy kami ng ibang studyante dahil sa sigaw niyang iyon.
I'm already sixteen now. And i'm on my first day as a freshman. Kinakabahan ako but since I'm in the same college department with London ay medyo naginhawaan ako. Pareho kami ng kursong kinuha but London is already on his last year in college. Accelerated kasi siya kaya kahit na mag na-nineteen palang ay graduating na siya. He may not look like it but he's actually smart.
"Ano ba! Abot hanggang kabilang building iyang boses mo!" He just laughed with my remarks and then greeted me with a big hug. Agad ko namang sinuklian iyon dahil namimiss ko siya. We haven't seen each other ever since he went to college dahil naging busy siya and now that I'm in college too in the same university with him, I'm happy.
And France, he went to States. Doon siya nag-aral. Iyon nalang ang alam ko sa kanya. I don't even know if sila pa rin ba ng Ashley na iyon until now dahil hindi na ako kailan man bumalik pa sa villa sa mga nagdaang taon.
"May birthday's coming up. May gift ka na ba for me?" Tanong niya habang nakaakbay sa akin while we made our way to our department. Ihahatid niya daw ako sa unang klase ko.
"Hmm, what do you want?" Umakto naman siyang nag-iisip sa naging tanong ko sa kanya.
"A trip to Slovenia." Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa sinabi niya. He laughed with my reaction.
"Ang mahal naman!" I exclaimed. He ruffled my hair saka nangingiti pa rin.
"Eh wala ako maisip, ikaw na bahala." Agad naman akong tumango sa kanya.
**
"You're pouting again." Sinamaan ko ng tingin si London. He is wearing a black tuxedo at kahit na siya ang star of the night dahil birthday niya, ito siya, kinukulit ako. Well, it's not that i'm against it. Siya lang kasi ang tanging close ko dito.
"You did not tell he'll be here tapos kasama niya pa pala si Ashley. Imagine my shock!" Sigaw ko saka ko siya sinuntok sa braso. He acted like he was really hurt pero inirapan ko lang siya.
"Well, I never thought you'd still be affected. I thought you already moved on." I huffed saka mas itinuon nalang ang pansin sa pagkain ko.
There he was, looking so handsome in his tuxedo, nakakapit naman si Ashley sa braso niya looking so elegant with her black evening gown. She looked more mature and sophisticated. Bagay na bagay sila. Napatingin tuloy ako sa sarili ko. I'm wearing a gown, too but unlike hers medyo pang-teen yung akin and the color, it's purple! Gandang-ganda pa ako sa gown na ito kanina tapos ngayon parang naging pangit bigla sa paningin ko!
I never thought I'll see him again after all these years. He stayed sa States kasi at doon nagpatuloy sa pag-aaral so I don't know why he is home now. Hindi naman siya umuwi nang nakaraang birthday ni London, ah.
"He'll be studying here, again." Parang nabasa naman ni London ang tanong sa utak ko nang magsalita siya. He looked so uninterested and bored while he roamed his eyes around.
"That's unexpected. Why? And school already started, behind na siya." Komento ko. He just shrugged and then remained not looking at me.
"He never told us but I think I know his reason. Dito rin kasi ulit mag-aaral si Ashley so,"
"Oh." Ang tanging reaksyon ko nalang sa sinabi ni London.
Ashley na naman! Palagi nalang si Ashley! Doesn't he have a mind on his own?!
**
"Will you marry me?" Gasps filled the crowd.
France just asked Ashley the question in front of everyone. I was watching them. Birthday ngayon ni France, his 21st birthday. And I was not expecting that. Mukhang ako nga lang yata ang hindi nag-expect nito eh, and also Ashley.
They were just dancing a while ago. They were talking so seriously and they looked so sweet while they hugged each other as they danced in the middle of the dancing crowd.
I clenched my chest when it started hurting. Lumakas rin ang tibok ng puso ko. I am getting nervous but hurt at the same time. My knees are getting weak na parang anytime now ay magco-collapse ako sa kinatatayuan ko.
"France,"
Her voice quivered and sound so sweet. I covered my mouth when I can almost feel my sob. Nanlalabo na rin ang paningin ko at alam kong iiyak ako.
Damn it! Why am I hurting?!
"Please, say yes." Agad namang may nagtakip sa mga mata ko nang sambitin iyon ni France sa napakamalambing sa boses.
"Lovely.." Agad naman akong napayakap kay London. Tumulo na ang luhang kanina ko pa pinipigilan.
I can't believe that he is this in love with her. I can't believe that he'll be this ready to tie the knot with her. This age! He is a fresh graduate but he is already so prepared to get wed with her.
I closed my eyes just waiting for her response dahil hindi ko kayang tignan sila. Alam ko na masasaktan lang ako sa kung ano mang masasaksihan ko. They are in love with each other, there is nothing that stops them into getting into a higher level. Their families are happy for them and the people around thought they looked good together.
Maybe this is the time I stopped this craziness? Hindi. Dapat matagal ko nang tinigil ang kahibangan kong ito. Dapat itinigil ko na ang nararamdaman ko noon pa man. Alam ko nang talo ako pero minahal ko pa rin siya.
"Hey, lovely, stop crying, please." Pag-aalo ni London sa akin. Agad akong umiling sa kanya. I looked at him ready to ask him to get me out of this place when Ashley spoke.
"Love, I'm sorry." Her words made almost all the guests gasped in shock. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa aking narinig.
"W-what do you mean, Ashley?" France's voice stuttered. Lumingon ako sa kinaroroonan nila at nakita ko si Ashley na umiiyak.
"I'm sorry, love, I can't," Were her last words before she ran out of the venue. France remained kneeling and frozen in the middle of the dance floor still shock of what he got as an answer.
**
Dumaan ang mga araw, France changed. He was not the same as he was before. He became cold, mean, and snob. Itinuon niya ang kanyang atensyon sa business nila while I continued studying.
Nalaman kong pumunta sa Paris si Ashley to study fashion designing thus her reason why she rejected France's proposal. Hindi ko na alam kung anong nangyari after basta ay iyon daw ang rason ng dalaga and also the reason of their break up.
That actually gave me hope. That maybe, we were really destined and that this was the sign I was waiting for. The sign for me to finally make a move.
"What are you doing here, again?" Nanatiling nakatuon ang tingin niya sa kanyang laptop nang pumasok ako sa opisina niya.
"I brought you lunch." Hindi na siya agad sumagoot nang sabihin ko iyon. I just shrugged saka pumunta sa pantry upang i-prepare iyong mga dala kong take out.
I've been pestering him for two years now. Palagi ko siyang hinahatiran ng pagkain sa office niya saka ako pumupunta sa condo niya to cook for him. Wala naman siyang say doon. He'll just sigh tapos iisnobin ako. Hinahayaan niya nalang ako dahil mukhang nasanay na siya.
He became so silent. Hindi na nga niya rin ako inaaway unlike before noong mga bata pa kami. I am basically an air to him, lalampasan niya lang and act like i'm not there.
"Leave it there and go." Malamig na aniya. I acted like I didn't hear him.
"Halika, kain tayo." Pag-aaya ko sa kanya. He sighed again saka ako tinignan.
"Paris, I have no time for this, okay." Napanguso naman ako sa naging turan niya.
"Eh, sabi kasi ni tita that you've been neglecting your health na. Hindi mo ba na masama iyon ha." Umiling lang siya saka tumayo. Agad naman akong napangiti nang lumapit siya sa kinaroroonan ko at umupo sa tabi ko. He started eating kaya mas lalo ako napangiti.
"Kakain rin naman pala." Biro ko sakanya at nanatili lang naman siyang tahimik.
"Why are you doing this, anyway? Did my mom ask you to?" Tanong niya. I swallowed the food I'm chewing saka tumingin sa kanya. I bit my lips saka umiling.
"I'm doing this dahil gusto ko." He arch his brow at mukhang hindi naniniwala sa sagot ko. I swallowed the lump in my throat.
Should I say it? It has been two years, siguro naman ay nano-notice niya na ako? Maybe it's time I let my feelings out?
"At saka,"
"Hmm?" Hindi nakatingin niyang tanong. I gulped down the nervousness I'm feeling saka nanginginig ang labing sinabi ang mga salita sa kanya.
"And because I love you."
**
"What the fuck was that, Paris?!" Iyan agad ang sumalubong sa akin nang may bigla nalang magbukas sa opisina ko. France went in looking so feral and looking so pissed off.
It has been months when I confessed to him. And after that, nagsimulang lumayo ang loob niya sa akin. He told me that it was just my imagination and that i should just get rid of it. He told me to get rid of my feelings. Kung ganon lang kadali ay noon ko pa sana ginawa.
And imagination? Na umabot ng ilang taon? He became colder and more mean to me. He kicked me out of his condo everytime I try to visit him and banned me in his company. Masakit pero isiniwalang bahala ko nalang iyon.
I got tired of chasing him that I asked help from my parents. Iyon ang unang beses na lumapit ako sa mga magulang ko. I asked them to negotiate with France parents and merge our companies. They asked me why and then I told them the reason, that I was in love with him for how many years na.
My mother was happy that I finally shared my feelings to her and immediately agreed habang ang ama ko naman ay mukhang hindi nagustuhan ang sinabi ko ng araw na iyon.
I did more persuasion bago ko napilit si Daddy. And then I was introduced to France's parents again, this time not as a family friend's daughter but a candidate for their son's wife. Hindi ko nga inakalang tatanggapin nila iyon because they liked Ashley so much but I think they were disappointed with Ashley too kaya sila pumayag.
It may sound off because parang ginawa nila akong rebound like they had no choice pero kinapitan ko ang pag-asang iyon. Their hospitality and warm welcome made me so happy kaya mas lalo akong umasa. I assured them that I'll do the rest.
I used France's love for his mother kaya alam kong hindi siya makakapagtanggi. He loved his mother so much he'll do anything for her. Kaya kahit alam kong masama ang gumamit ng ibang tao, I did.
And based on his reactions now, alam kong napagsabihan na siya nina tita about the wedding. I smiled at him kahit alam kong galit na galit siya. I know France too well, he may be like this, cold and mean but I know he still has a soft heart. I know I can mend his broken heart, I know I can do it. I can make him fall for me.
"What?" I asked him acting like an innocent. He glared at me saka niya ako nilapitan. He grabbed my arm and forced me to stand up.
"Don't act innocent, you stupid cunning bitch! Anong kasal?!" sigaw niya. I flinched. I can't believe he called me that. Ilang beses na kaming nag-away pero never pa niya akong natawag ng masasamang salita.
"France, nasasaktan a-ako." I plead him to let go of me but his hold tightened even more.
"Talagang masasaktan ka! Ano bang pinagsasabi mo kina Mommy?! You told them to have us wed by the end of this month?! Are you out of your damn ducking mind?!" Sigaw niya. Takot akong tumingin sa kanya when he shouted again.
"I did that because I love you!" sabi ko sa kanya. He looked shock bago napalitan ulit iyon ng galit. My tears are threatening to fall at alam kong anytime ay mahuhulog na iyon.
"That's bullshit! Hindi kita mahal!" Sigaw niya pabalik sa akin. I whimpered. He pushed me kaya napaupo ako ulit sa swivel chair ko.
"You can't just manipulate me like that, Paris! Hindi mo ako pag-aari!" sigaw ko niya saka niya sinipa ang isang office plant na nakalagay sa gilid. I screamed dahil nabasag ang kinalalagyan ng halaman.
"And you even use my mother against me!" He shouted again saka niya ako muling hinawakan sa braso. I flinched against his hold and glare.
"Putang ina! Noong umamin ka hinayaan ko pa but this?! This is already way out of line! This is pure madness, Paris! Are you crazy?!" I sobbed even more sa mga paratang niya sa akin. Ano bang magagawa ko? Naging desperada lang ako, nagmahal lang naman ako.
"Don't expect me to just accept this bullshit dahil lang mahal mo ako! I can't believe you'll stoop this low! Are you that desperate?!"
"Oo! Eh anong magagawa ko?! You rejected my confession and then hindi mo na ako pinapansin! I became desperate to have your attention and love! Gusto ko lang naman na pansinin mo ako!" Sigaw ko sa kanya. He clenched his jaws saka niya hinawakan ang beywang at tumingala para pakalmahin ang sarili niya.
I remained sobbing and looking at him. My tears are blocking my vision at hindi ko na klaro ang mukha niya dahil sa mga luha.
"And what about me? Hindi mo man lang ba naisip na magagalit ako sa kahibangan mong ito?! Are you out of your fucking mind?! Akala ko ba matalino ka?!" Hinampas niya ang mesa sa sobrang galit niya. Kung hindi lang ako nakaupo ay baka kanina pa bumigay ang mga tuhod ko sa sobrang takot ko sa kanya.
I thought I know him. Akala ko lang pala iyon.
"Hindi kita mahal! I don't want you! May mahal akong iba, Paris at alam mo kung sino iyon!"
"Oo alam ko! Si Ashley! Si Ashley na naman! She already rejected your proposal! She chose her dreams over you yet why are you still hanging on to her?!" Galit niya akong tinignan sa sinabi ko.
"Hindi na siya babalik! She's living her dream now! She's over you!" Agad naman akong napasinghap nang sampalin niya ako. I looked at him and saw him so outrage of what I said. I held my cheek dahil ramdam ko ang pagpintig non.
"Wala kang alam, putangina mo!" Sigaw niya saka hinawakan ang panga ko. He held me harshly on the jaw saka hinila papalapit sa kanya.
"Gusto mo ng kasalan? Sige, ibibigay ko iyon sa iyo! But do not expect that I'll let you off that easily! That marriage you're dreaming about will be the consequences of your actions! Naiintindihan mo?!" Nang tumango ako ay saka niya pa binitawan ang panga ko. He pushed me on the floor saka nilisan ang opisina ko. He closed the door with force and agad akong napapikit sa lakas ng tunog noon.
I hold tightly on my cheek saka napahagulgol na nakaupo sa sahig.
**
"You may now kiss your bride." He leaned in and just kissed the side of my lips saka siya umaktong nakangiti sa harap ng mga magulang namin at iba pang guests
Our wedding was a civil wedding. Ang mga magulang ko at magulang niya pati na rin ang pamilya ni London lamang nag naroroon bilang witness namin.
My mother and his mother actually wanted to have a grand wedding but he made an excuse about our safety na may kalaban daw siya sa negosyo and he doesn't want to risk our privacy and safety at mabuting huwes na daw muna. No questions were asked at sumang-ayon nalang ang mga magulang namin sa suhestiyon niya.
The recption was held in the mansion kung saan kami titirang dalawa. It was bought by France's parents for us. Simpleng salu-salo lamang iyon at tanging kami lamang ang naroroon.
"I still can't believe you'll actually go with it, Paris!" Disappointed na singhal sa akin ni London. Nakayuko lang ako habang pinapangaralan niya.
"I never know you'll stoop this low! You forced him to marry you?! You made him have no choice!" It's my wedding day but I'm crying. Not because of joy but because of mixed emotions. Guilt, disappointment sa sarili ko, at sakit.
"Nagmahal lang naman ako, London." Humihikbing sabi ko. He sighed and then hugged me. I leaned my head on his chest saka yumakap pabalik sa kanya.
"But, lovely, this is wrong,"
"Hayaan mo na ako, please? I can do it! I can make him fall for me, don't worry! I know France, he has a soft heart! Mawawala rin ang galit niya." I assured him. He doesn't looked convince with what I said.
"If you need someone, call me, okay?" Napaiyak naman ako uli dahil doon saka tumango. Humihikbi akong muli yumakap sa kanya.
**
"Oh, don't act innocent on me, you conniving bitch. I know that act too well! Get out!" Agad naman akong napalabas ng kwarto niya when he shouted.
I just wanted to fix his bedroom dahil makalat pero nahuli niya akong inaayos ito kaya nagalit siya. He doesn't want me touching his things at tanging si Manang lang ang hinahayaan niyang gawin iyon kaya nang sigawan niya ako upang tigilin iyon, I tried reasoning with him pero lalo lamang iyong kinagalit niya.
It has been a year simula nang ikasal kami. Never ko naramdaman ang pagiging asawa niya. He'll go out early and then go home late kaya hindi ko siya masyadong nakikita. On weekends, he'll spend them mostly on his office or sa mga bars.
One time I stalked him, pinuntahan ko siya sa isang bar at kitang-kita ko kung paano nakipag-landian ang babaeng lumapit sa kanya. I tried going to him para sana hiklatin ang buhok ng babaeng iyon but when I saw him flirt back, parang nanghina ako.
I saw them making out and I immediately head back to my car and cried. Umiiyak akong umuwi sa bahay at hinintay na lamang siya doon.
The morning after, hindi ko siya nadatnan. Saka ko lang nalaman na hindi pala siya umuwi.
Ganon lamang iyon hanggang sa umabot ng tatlong taon. Hindi ko inakalang aabot ako ng tatlong taong magtitiis sa kanya. Na magpaka-martyr at hayaan siyang sumbat-sumbatan ako sa kasalanan ko. Na saktan ako sa pamamagitan ng mga salita at pambababae niya.
**
I started the ignition of my car again at muling nagmaneho habang umiiyak.
Okay na eh! Bati na kami! We had an amazing four-day trip. We even made love! Isang linggo na nga lang yung hinihingi ko eh! Isang linggo na nga lang! Ayaw pa ibigay sa akin ng tadhana! May tatlong araw pa dapat ako eh! Pero bakit?
Bakit isang tawag niya lang, wala na siya sa akin ulit? Bakit, bakit isang kita lang nila, nawala na naman ako sa landas niya? Bakit ganoon lang kadali para sa kanya na baliwalain ako porket bumalik na siya?
And she was pregnant! They were already back together habang kasal kami! Yung mga pambabae niya, pinalampas ko because I know it was only a one-time thing and alam kong hindi siya seryoso pero sa babaeng iyon? Kay Ashley? I know! I know he'll go back to her immediately na para bang wala man lang itong ginawang kasalanan sa kanya.
I know he'll even kneel in front of her just to take him back. I sobbed.
"Bakit hindi ako?" I sobbed and asked myself that. I continued crying until I heard a loud honking. It was already too late for me to turn the wheel as I felt the impact of the loud crash of the truck that hit my car. Ramdam ko rin ang paghampas ng ulo ko sa isang matigas na bagay at ang pagkabasag ng salamin before I blacked out.
***
04/02/20 — hey!! hmm, this took me three hours to write! Woah! And by far this is the longest chapter i've wrote im so proud of my self hehe!! And tomorrow is my birthday and so this serves as a gift to myself as well,, lol skl
I hope this went well!! Enjoy reading,,
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