I ran as fast as I could to my room, I hear him chasing me, yelling profanities at me, telling me how I'm such an abomination. I didn't choose to be gay, I was born this way. I'm not ashamed of being gay but it doesn't mean I'm happy about it either. Me being gay made my family hate me so much they can barely even look at me
I tried countless times to try and be normal, liking girls, but it never works I've always and will only be attracted to men. Being at the age of 20 you'd think I'd be out of there, living on my own having my own life.
What a dream come true that would be but I unfortunately made the decision of coming out to my family at the age of 16. They took me out of school, saying that I have no right to be around others, its a disgrace for me to be in other peoples presence. Who wants to actually hire someone who left school at 16?
The only people I actually interact with is my two best friends Colby and Marcus Marks. They're twins and they're like me. They've been together for two years now. They're parents accept them wholeheartedly even if it is them together.
I'm happy they fell in love, I long for that. To be able to feel ture love, it's something I've been wishing for ever since I was 16. That was the day father first laid his hand on me. He slapped me across the face and yelled at me, so many words that run through my head everyday.
I slam my door shut and lock it. I hear him bang on it, yelling for me to open the door. I know what will happen if I do open that door. It's a daily thing, when he's mad at me, mother or just wants to take out some stress I'm always his first choice.
I suddenly hear him begin to open doors. Oh no, he's looking for the spare key. I know he's angrier than he usually is today. I messed up twice today. First I made the wrong breakfast, second I accidently dropped a glass.
If he gets in here I know I'm good as dead. I've never made this many mistakes before and last time I just made one mistake I almost bled out, luckily I texted Colby before I could black out and they took me to a hospital.
I was questioned and I told them what happened but when they went to my father to arrest him he conjured up this huge lie that made them believe him and not me. Still to this day I do not know what he told them. Let's just say I ate anything I could find for that whole month.
I stood up and packed a bag quickly. I texted Marcus telling him I'm coming to the club, they own a very interesting club. After my bag was packed I climbed out the window just as father unlocked my door and barged in.
I jumped and landed, though I hurt my ankle but I didn't care I had to get out of there. I got to my bicycle and rode away from that house. It hasn't been a home for a very long time. I could hear father yelling, telling me he'll get me.
I ignored him and just kept pedalling. After an hour I finally made it to the club. I parked my bike and saw Ben guarding the door. I tried to make myself look presentable as much as I could. I'm so happy its not Danny who's working tonight. That guy just doesn't take no for an answer.
"Hey Ben." I greeted him, he looked away from the group of girls and smiled which he only does to me and the guys. "Hey Carter, they're at the top." He simply says and turns back to the girls. I stop when one of those girls call me. "Hey you free tonight?"
I'm not going to lie I am a very attractive guy, another problem girls try and flirt with me but I'm never interested. "No sorry, I'm not interested." I say trying to be discreet on what I mean. "Oh come on Baby I can make you feel so good." She walks over to me and rubs her fake breasts on me.
I look at Ben for help but he only laughs into his hand. "I'm sure you're really big. I want to feel you in my-" I quickly put my hand over her mouth. It's not like I've never heard dirty words it's just that I'm not comfortable with it.
Ben see's my discomfort and comes to my rescue. "Sorry ladies but he's not interested...in women." He clarrifies for them when they still don't understand. The girl infront of me looks up at me with wide eyes. "You're gay?" I only nod and await the insults to fire at me.
"That is so fucking cool!" The girl screeches. I look at her like she's lost her mind. "Okay." I say then walk inside the club. Colby and Marcus are the owners of course, they're club isn't an ordinary one. Sure you have your normal club in it but the top floor is for customers who are interested in other persuits, by that I mean BDSM.
I've never actually taken part in it but I think I'd do that someday when I find my love, if he's comfortable with it. I walk up the fancy staircase and see unfortunately Danny is gaurding the door. He notices me and smirks.
I walk over to him and try to get past but he's huge so it's impossible for me. "No hello Baby? Isn't that a little rude?" He says teasingly and stepping towards me. "Not tonight please Danny." He sees the pain in my eyes and immediately loses the teasing interest and turns serious.
"They're in the usual spot. Stay safe Carter." He says and lets me through, I nod and give him a small smile. He may be persistant in trying to get me interested in him but he understands when I need him to stop.
I see them sitting on the leather couch Colby at Marcus' feet. I admit they are both good looking guys but I'd never try to be with them I think of them as brothers nothing more. I don't really come here often I think I've been here two times before this and it's always because of my dad.
They see me and nod me over. Marcus puts Colby on his lap and I sit down on the single couch next to them. "He didn't hurt you right?" Colby asks completely forgetting his rules. He quickly looks at Marcus and apologises profusely for not following the rules.
"It's fine Colby I understand why you just asked, you are forgiven." Marcus says and Colby immediately gives Marcus a kiss. It's quick, like always when in front of me. I always tell them they don't have to stop being intimate in front of me but they don't listen.
"I'm fine but I cannot go back, I made two mistakes today. You both know what will happen if I do." I say and burry my face in my hands. Marcus puts his hand on my shoulder and rubs it soothingly. "You can stay with us Carter, I tell you this all the time." I just chuckle lightly as he throws his hands up in the air.
He may be a serious dominant but he's the funniest guy I know. "And I always tell you I don't want to intrude in your guys lives." That just earned me a slap over the head from Colby. I look at Marcus and see him smirking at me. I just fold my arms over chest and pout.
They eventually convince me to stay with them and I stupidly agree. "When do the guys get here?" Marcus asks Colby. Colby checks his watch. "They should be here in 5 minutes." He says and goes back to Marcus' feet.
"I'm gonna get a drink. You two want anything?" I ask them, Marcus shakes his head no and Colby asks if he can go with me. Marcus allows it and Colby stands up and we walk to the bar. "So who are the guys?" I ask as I look over at Colby.
He has short brown hair and blue eyes, while Marcus has brown eyes. That's how you tell them apart. "Oh they're old friends of ours, they're not very social but they come here every night. They're all Dom's, no Sub yet. Though they love to share, seriously they can't not all have sex with one person." He rants while swinging his hands all over the place.
I chuckle at him and order my drink. I'm not to big on alcohol so I order a Coke. "They sound interesting." I say and he immediately grins at me. "Very and they are like greek gods, you'll definatly like them. I can say the same for them with you." He says and winks while I just I roll my eyes.
We walk back to Marcus and I see five men sitting there. I think my eyes literally popped out of they're sockets as I see how good looking they are. Colby wasn't kidding. I quickly straighten myself up but I still hear Colby giggle next to me. When I know Marcus doesn't see I smack Colby on the arm.
What I wasn't counting on was that Colby glares at me then smirks, he then runs to Marcus. "Baby, Carter hit me." He whines and sits down on Marcus' lap. I roll my eyes and sit on the single couch. "Big baby." I mumble loud enough for him to hear. He gasps and I do the same mocking him.
Marcus just smiles at our antics. A voice is cleared from in front of me and I look at a man who has blonde hair and green eyes. All these men are really buff and good looking so I have to stop myself from drooling.
When his gaze meets mine all the blood rushes to my limp cock making it erect immediately. I discreetly cover my bulge and luckily no one notices. "Guys this is Carter a very close friend of ours. Carter these are some friends we've known for a long time as well." I don't immediatly answer, I just observe them like they do to me.
"Nice to meet you...?" I trail off wanting to know they're names. The blonde first speaks.
"Romeo." Oh gawd, he's Italian and he's accent immediately makes my cock swell even more. I nod and look at the rest.
"Angelo" One with dark brown hair and brown eyes says.
"Luca." Black hair and blue eyes
"Alessio." Black hair and green eyes
"Stefano." Light brown hair and dark blue eyes.
Fucking hell they are all Italian, I don't know how but each time one of them talked my cock swelled even more. "Nice to meet you guys." I say and they shift uncomfortably. I look at them and see them with bulges as well.
"Um excuse me I'll be right back." I say and speed walk to the bathroom. I get to one of the stalls and pull my pants down. I take hold of my large shaft and start to pump myself quickly. I'm interrupted when the stall door is slammed open. Dammit I forgot to lock it.
There stands all five of them. Romeo enters and he looks like a predator and I'm the prey. He see's me holding my shaft. He pulls me towards him. I see Luca lock the door to the bathroom.
"What the hell? Get off me asshole!" I yell and try to break free from his grip, which only tightened. "Struggling only makes us want you more Bello (Beautiful)." He whispers into my ear and nips it. I let out an accidental moan and all they're smirks grow.
I am so screwed with these five men.
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Okay so this is my first BDSM and gay book. Hope you guys like it so far