I am Sakura Hara, twenty two years old and I want to confess.
I have sinned. I didn't meant to hurt someone but things got out of hand and I couldn't turn back time to change things. And I know, I will forever be sorry and will offer my remaining life to that person.
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The day of my college graduation is finally here and I am about to claim the promise my father gave to me.
(10 years ago...)
Daddy can you grant me a wish? I randomly asked my father while having dinner. Yes, baby and what is that?- my affectionate father replied. "But dad, I wouldn't be getting it right away it'll be after graduating college, it's when I grow up."
(Present...)
I've met my friends just outside the ceremony hall for picture taking. It was a great memory I will treasure, seeing my friends smiling my dad and my family friends gather chatting about the success we all gain at this moment.
All you could here in this hallway were chats over here and there, it was an amazing day though. I was so busy with my friends as well as my daddy but after greeting the principal he take me out for lunch in our hotel.
In that room over looking the sea. He silently hand me a ticket and a card. I almost choked my steak I was eating, I looked at my father with gratefulness in my eyes as I picked it up. I hurriedly stand-up and run to his side and hug him so tightly that I was unaware of my own tears. My father just drop his fork and pat me in the head saying "I will allow this but remember what did I tell you on that day Hara, my precious baby". I know it very well that it is a heartbreaking decision he will make but my father is a man of reason and promise. I always and forever sympathize with my dad.
(10 years ago...)
What is it that you want my little Hara? I remember being cautious saying my wish. Then I came-up with an idea from the rumors spreading. "Uh..Uhm dad, I've heard that I am engage to someone-" saying this I saw the expression of my dad and it was hurt. But I continue on, "I don't mind since its my duty as your daughter and for helping thousands and hundreds of people that were relying to you." Tears almost left my eyes but I hold it in and continue. I felt weird that my father is quite as I was speaking but grateful at the same time because if he responds or comfort me I might cry. " Daddy, before those responsibilities unfold can I travel for fi.. five err no ... just three years and I'll be going twenty six at that time and I promise I'll be there for you at tha...at that time." I choke-up with my words but hoping he will gave-in.
We had a long pause and I was anxious waiting for his response then, he stands from his chair and walks towards the window I heard him exhale deeply then says " My young Hara, life is hard and I want to give you everything life has to offer but because daddy dreams so big that you are also caught into this cunning world." then he walks towards me and kneel in front of me. "Hara we don't know what the future has, but I just want you to know what ever my decision is. You have your own choice just like your mother." After saying those words he hug me and I felt tears from his eyes. At that moment I vow that I wouldn't leave my father alone.
(Present...)
I smiled, I wiped away my tears and said. Yes, I didn't forget what you said to me on that day dad. Our brief family bonding comes to an end after Mr. Po interrupted our lunch, I already understand that I am not the only one that needs my dad there are also other people. So, he smiled and said few words and hug me. As I was looking at my fathers back moving farther from me I felt sad for him for some reason so, I told myself as the door closed in front of me. I wouldn't forget what I vowed on that day.
Basically, right now I was left in the room. My cellphone keeps on ringing but I don't have the strength to answer it I just look at it and it appear "Karl". Karl is my best friend, my other half, he knows everything about my family I think he even knows me better. Still, time passed- by but my phone still keeps on ringing and as I read it, it was still Karl. Then somehow maybe because I'm lonely in this big extravagant room I felt so down and in no time I was bursting into tears. I was sobbing for the future for my father and for me. I never thought my life was already plotted. I felt suffocated, I cry when I am alone I keep on questioning why does this kind of event happens to me. Yet, I am well aware of the responsibilities.
Then after awhile of solidarity I heard someone calling me. Then the door opened. It was Karl, his looks were so bad and worried yet he is the only person I can rely on. He ran towards me then hugs me, "Are you okey?" then he made me look at him. "You don't have to be like this Hana, Your overthinking things you know that?!".
Seeing Karl running towards me with his worried face, I felt special and safe. But, I know that I shouldn't relied on that comfort forever and thinking this makes my heart sunk. I know eventually I wouldn't be his priority. As much as I want him to be with me just equals on how much I could hurt him.
"Yes, yes my shining armor. Thank you for being there."-I am glad that Karl is here. As I stand-up he follows me towards the door I hug him tightly and whisper- "I will miss you Karl". Then I pushed him and lock the door that would separate us. I ordered the guards to open the door for him after three hours and hand them an envelope. I ask their favor to give it to Karl instead of me.
Karl is banging the door and shouting but I couldn't made what are those shouts because the door was thick in the first place. After bidding goodbye to my friends in the hotel I went back to where Karl was locked- in and say my farewell, even though he can't hear me.
THIS was my father and I promised. That I would be living my life on my own without any contact yet I know that he would have me followed but I guess its alright as long as the main deal is happening. And I don't want Karl to be drag into this plus, this was long agos plan.
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We are so sorry sir Karl but we are told not to unlocked you after three hours, but here please ms Hara instructed us to give it to you.
I was so flustered on why Hara did this so I guess I'll just confess to her some other time. Holding the letter her butler gave as I was walking I opened it and as I read the words formed by Hara's handwritten. I couldn't help but ran and drove like crazy to the airport. I felt so uneasy and almost on my tears like my heart sunk in the abyss . I was still hoping.....
Her letter read as.....
To my dearest other me, to my Karl,
First, I am so sorry for doing this to you. I don't want to hurt you like this but I have to do this. You know that I am also hurting like you do. But, don't worry we will see each other in the near future and I hope you will become that person you brag me to be.
And for not telling you all what I am thinking. I am sorry, but if I would tell I felt like you would come with me and I don't want to be the one to hinder you from reaching your dreams. I may be not there for you, cheering for you when your tired or fed-up but I hope you wouldn't hate me when you remember me.
I have my own worries that I couldn't tell my dad and I am scared Karl so, this is the only thing I thought of doing. It may seems like running away but I promise you when I come back I will be there for you no matter what.
Take care my beloved Karl.
Your stubborn mate,
Sakura Hara.
P.S.
Don't look for me, maybe by the time you read this I am flying to the other side of the world. And don't go ask my father because you wouldn't get any answers from him also.
I'm so blessed that I have you.
I was running around the airport until my feet tires and I haven't find Hara.
She left me like this, she is so heartless. I didn't know she is planning this for a long time now. She disappears like bubble without a trace. How could she?! when she has me I am not nobody.
I was so heartbroken and tired on that day.
Then I remember our promise back when were young. So I vow that I will be that person when we meet. At the same time I wouldn't forget nor forgive her for what she has done.
On that same day, I waited overnight until uncle Harry finished his meeting but when I meet him uncle Harry didn't even have even a small glint of sadness or worry. I can't believe he let Hara have her way and leave her like that. However, i wouldn't let uncle Harry nor Hara get away with this.
A/N.
IM A BEGGINER IN THIS SITE AND THIS MAY SEEM CLUMSY BUT I AM WRITING WITH MORALS IN MIND THAT I WANTED TO SHARE. SO, PLEASE BEAR WITH MY STORY AND I GUESS THIS WILL BE A SHORT ONE. THIS STORY HAS A ROMANTIC SIDE OF IT AND I HOPE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE MY PLOT.