Thursday
Jamie's pov
I'm at crossroads :/
I love Liam... I think I like Carter.
Carter has always been "different" towards me.. I never really thought about it... I'm gay or bisexual ? I've always liked guys! I still do!?
I have a sweet spot for her😘
I'm in love with Him😍
I'm a wreck.
After school me and Destiny went langire shopping. We got facials, and got mani pedi's. I can't wait till Liam see's what I have in store for him.
I'm ready to have sex with him.
My dad is working all night so I wanna do it tonight and get it over with.
Carter is calling me ! I got butterflies for a second
"Hi Carter!"
"Hi Jamie, what are you doing?"
"Eating. I just got home"
"Where did you go?"
"Spent the day with Destiny."
"you never hangout with me anymore.. But it's cool"
"Yes I do !"
"At school"
"Fine, we can hangout Saturday"
"All day?"
"What are we gunna do all day?"
"Chill at park. Go to the movies. Ice cream parlor. Chinese food. Ice cream parlor." She loves ice cream🍦
"Ok."
"Anyway I was calling because Jesse has a girlfriend... And she's pregnant"
My mouth dropped 😵
"With his baby?!"
"Yes dip shit"
"He never told us about this so called girlfriend !"
"Her name is Jeannette.. 2 months"
"He told you ?!"
"No. Me and her talk. She goes to my old school"
"What school is that?"
"Allen-dale. The bad kids school"
"So she's bad and having Jesse's baby .... I don't like it. I wanna meet her"
"Me to. I wanna see if she's hot"
"Wow Carter."
"What?"
"We're talking about Jesse's pregnant girlfriend and you wanna see if she's cute?"
"Is someone jealous?" Her voice went high pitched-.-
"No!.... Maybe"
"Jamie?"
"Yes?"
"Who told you?"
"Told me what?"
"You know. Was it Jesse?"
"No... You told me; well you hinted it and didn't think I would get it... But I did"
"Great. "
"It's ok. We're still cool and BestFriends." She let out air
"It's different and now I look stupid"
"... Since I found out I'm not gunna lie... iv been thinking about you.. In a way that would surprise you. And me . Ha" I was nervous /:
"Don't !" She got mad?
"Carter"
"No! You were happy before my feeling came into all this. Keep it that way. Be happy"
"Thanks for caring about my happiness! But I'm in love with Liam... I like you . "
"Don't act on those feelings Jamie ! I gotta go. I'll talk to you later"
"Ok." She hung up.
Urghhh ! I'm confused....
I called Jesse
"Sup" you can tell he just woke up
"Hi Jess"
"What's up?"
"Nothing just wanted to hear ur voice"
"aww that's nice"
"What are you doing on Sunday?"
"Nothin' chillen"
"Let's chill together, I never see you?"
"Uhmm sure. Come over right now?"
"No I can't Liam's coming over"
"Hmm, I uhh" he was stressed about something...
"Just tell me Jesse. I'm here" I heard sniffling. He started crying.
"Al-Aly-Alyssa's pr- pre- pregnant. And I'm I'm scared Jay. My mom took Michael and left. I d-don't know where she went. Michelle is always asking about her. I have to take her to school and bring her back. I'm too young to be a 5year olds dad !" He broke down and confessed all his problems to me over the phone. I couldn't let him fall apart alone.
"Jesse I'm gunna come over"
"Ok"
"Just hang tight till i get there"
"Ok"
Liam texted me saying he's out front.
I got my jacket and walked quickly to his car. My dad was driving up.
"Liam I need you to take me to Jesse's"
"What?!"
"Please"
"I thought we were gunna spend time together?"
"Jesse needs me right now Liam"
"Need?! I'm ur boyfriend !"
"Liam stop acting like a 4 year old please !"
"Hmmm"
He was mad. But drove me.
"Thank you."
"Whatever. Is he taking you home?"
"Uhmm yeah."
"Alright." He was still mad
"i have a surprise for you"
"Whatever" I have him a look and got out.
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In his room
"I don't know where she went. I don't know when she's coming back"
"Jesse if you need help I can help you. Baby sit, food, whatever"
"Thank you..." He hugged me
"I'm just a phone call away"
"Yeah.."
"Now.. Who's this girl?"
"I met her 6 months ago.. We've been seeing each other for 4 months.."
"And you never told me.. Or Carter"
"At first I was in denial..."
"It's ok.. I'll be there for the both of you"
"Thank you"
"Ur welcome"
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Later that night
2 babies are coming in less than 7 months 😵 that's crazy
Destiny's Baby is my god baby/niece💜
Jesse's Baby is my god baby/niece💙
I can't wait till their born imma be the worlds most amazing auntie !
People so close to me having babies make me think about me and Liam's baby. I don't want one anytime soon but in our future😌
Anyway I called Liam and told him to come over for his surprise. He was still kinda mad but he loves me.
I took a shower, shaved my legs and other places😉; and washed my hair. I crimped my hair so i would have the "sexy" wet hair look. I got all dressed in the special out fit and spritzed some expensive perfume on.
I looked in the mirror one more time and I approved myself. I was so judge mental of me... My thoughts shred me alive when ever I look in the mirror. I had some bruises left over from a fight I had with Liam a week ago on my hips-.-
I hit him, he hit me back, I hit him again, he tackled me to the floor kinda playfully, I bit his lip which he hates ! , he grabbed me and threw me to the other side of the room.
We have anger displacement\o/
I sat on the edge of my bed waiting for him... I was looking at all he shit on my wall. Pictures, posters, and letters. I actually love what I did to my room😊
I heard Liam at my window. He climbed in not really looking at me. He was still mad.
"Liam"
"What's the surprised?" His voice was cold.
"Look at me" I stood up slowly.
He looked at me..
"Surprise?" I was insecure about the whole thing anyone can see it on my face..
"Hmm" I walked over to him, wrapped my arms around his neck.
"Liam Jesse is having a baby, his mom left him with his 5 year old little sister he had a brake down"
"I guess I over reacted.."
"Yeah. He's no more important than you but he needed me"
"Ok..."
"Are you still mad?"
"I guess not"
"Good." I kissed his cheek. "Now! Do you like ur present?"
"Stand up for me again" I did. He took my hand and twirled me around slowly.
Jamie pov;
"Hmm you look sexy baby"
"Thank you"
"What were you planning this lovely night?" I stood up. She pulled at my belt buckle.
"I was thinking we could make my money for this outfit worth while"
"Shit lets do this" she smiled and I kissed her deeply.
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Hours later
Laying on her floor wrapped up in blankets naked.
I can't put in words how my night with Jamie was. I love her and I'm glad I found that out before tonight because she is the best "lover" when she gets going. She is an animal ! We did it 3 times !
She was insecure the first time but I made her feel beautiful the best I could. She said the cutest thing😘;
"Babe! Baby?!"
"Yes?"
"I'm coming, I'm coming"
"Me two!"
"I have to go pee !"
"No, it's not pee! It's cum . Let it out !"
Haha she such a virgin😉
I love my baby.
After we were done eating I cleaned up our mess and picked her by her hips and put her on the counter. I was in between her legs.
"Now"
"Now what?"
"We should live together"
"Ha' no."
"Why?"
"Living with you seems like work"
"Haha' I'm not that bad" she put her hands on my neck and played with my hair back there.
"I don't know.. Not anytime soon"
"Ok.. How about 3 years form now"
"Maybe" she smiled. I kissed her cheek
"We're gunna live in a big ass house with 3 kids. And a 2 dogs!"
"Urghh I can't even think about kids right now"
"Why?"
"Destiny and Jesse? That's crazy.."
"Oh."
"I don't want kids till I'm out of high school and have at least a year in my career."
"The smart way. Got it. I wanna be a parol officer"
"Good for you. Speaking of career... I sent in my application for modeling"
"And?"
"I don't know... I'm still waiting for a reply"
"Jamie ur beautiful. Ur gunna get it"
"Thank you baby" she kissed my lips softly. I got excited and squeezed her hips.
"Ou"
"What?"
"The bruises hurt" she said it in a low tone.. I lifted up my undershirt on her and saw the bruises I left on her...
"I'm sorry babe"
"Hmm it's ok"
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry" I kissed her cheek over and over till she smiled..
My night couldn't be made even better. Good sex, she made pancakes in my under shirt and her pink panties. Her brother knocked out cold. House basically to our selfs.
Good night✌
The next day
I woke her up for school and she gave me attitude?
"Wake he fuck up of I'll drag you to the shower and throw you in there" I'm so nice huh ❤😂
"Shut up. Go see if Aaron is awake"
"He just got out the shower"
"Urghhh Liam leave me alone!"
"I just took a shower I'm basically dressed. It's ur turn"
"Ok. Ok. I'm getting up"
"Ok." I went to the kitchen to get A small cup of water because I KNOW by the time I get back up there she's still gunna be asleep-.-
I got up there and I already knew.
"Jamie wake up"
"Shhh!"
"Ok" I slowly walked over to her and spilled the water on her head.
"You fucking ass hole!"
"Wake up"
"Leave me alone Liam" she's not a morning person as you see
She snuggled back up in a little ball-.-
"I picked up her new black and gray Nike Jordan's"
"Put them down !"
"Get up?"
"Leave them alone!"
"I walk over to the open window and---"
"Ok! Ok! I'm up" she got up ran over to me and snatched her shoe and put it In her closet.
Saturday^.-
"Arielle come here buttface"
"Liam I want cookies"
"No cookies... Apple slices?"
"Will you have some with me?"
"Sure I will." I picked her up and put her on the counter. I got the apples and started to cut them next to her. Brian came in.
"Brian !" Her face lit up
"Hi baby girl" he sat next to her on the counter and kissed her cheek
"What's up?"
"I'm having a son"
"That's awesome bro! Congratulations"
"Thank you thank you!"
"What's going on Brian?" She was confused.
"We'll baby girl my girlfriend Destiny?"
"Yeah"
"Is having a baby. My baby."
"I'm gunna have a baby cousin ?!"
"Smart girl Arielle" I pinched her cheek.
"When is he coming ?"
"In 4 months"
"That's a long time"
"It will fly right by"
"Whatever you say"
"Arielle"
"Yes?"
"Who has the best uncles in the world?"
"Me!" She pointed at her self
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Hour later
"Hi babe"
"Hi Liam"
"What are you doing?"
"Just hanging out with Carter and you?"
"Babysitting princess Arielle for the day"
"Are you having fun?"
"Very. I let her paint my toenails... Their pink and purple!"
"Haha"
"That's not funny"
"I'm sorry babe. Cherish the moments Liam"
"Yeah yeah."
"Babe I got to go but have a nice time with Ari ."
"Yeah ok." She hung up..
Jamie's pov;
My baby's such a good uncle😊
So far me and Carter are chilling pretty well.. She so protective! We were walking and this guy yelled out his window "hey sexy!" From behind. I was wearing leggings-.- Carter told him "fuck off perv ! She's married and has twins" -.- not true but the guy left me alone.
She kissed me....
So were on a park bench.
"Carter"
"I'm sorry"
"Carter you know I like you ! Don't put it against me ! ..... Please"
".... If I do I don't mean to."
"This can't happen anymore.."
"Then we should just not be friends!"
"What?!"
"We shouldn't ! If its gunna be hard and if I can't have you then ?!"
I Started to cry..
"Carter... I may not want to be in a relationship with you but ur my BestFriend"
"I can't go every day seeing you with someone who's not me. I'll be glad ur happy.. But it will just hurt to much" she got up kissed me softly on the lips and left. I was hysterical...
I walked home slowly. Longest walk of my life.
I felt like Carter broke up with me.. She basically did.. I have to tell Liam what happened... If I don't he's gunna know something is wrong with me. He's gunna be mad... I hope he thinks about my feelings..
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He came to the door because he hurt his ankle in baseball yesterday and because Arielle was with him .. My dad let him come up to my room only because I told him about his ankle. He asked Aaron if he can watch Arielle while he talk to me.
I'm so scared and nervous. . . I hope and pray he tries to understand where I'm coming from, but because I know him so well I know he's not going to:/
He sat on the edge of my bed
Tears fell. I'm shaking.
"So what's up? Why are you crying?"
".... Carter Kissed ... Me and I kissed back"
His whole face expression changed.. He frowned small.
"Liam please don't be mad"
"You cheated on me with a girl?!" He was confused
"Liam?"
"This is nothing to be so... Scared about Jamie" he looking at me up and down. He noticed I was shaking."unless there's something bigger to it.." He paused and looked in my eyes. I looked looked away."you like her!?"
I didn't say anything.
"You like Carter?!"
"Liam please!"
"No ! You like Carter ! You kissed her!" He was pissed:/
"It just happened.. I didn't want it to. But it did"
"This isn't something we can just look past Jamie! You like her!"
"But I love you"
"Do you love her?!"
"No!"
"Do you like her?!"
I didn't reply.
He came closer to me; grabbed my hair
"Jamie!"
"Yes! Yes Liam I like her ! But... I love you, that is never gunna change"
"I'm not ok with that, Cause now it was just a kiss? What about later?!"
"Let me go ! "
"See people told me about you !" I cried more..
"Let me go and leave !" My dad came in and grabbed Liam off of me. He threw him to the opposite side of the room.
"Keep Ur hands off my daughter ! " Liam stood up got his self together and left.
"I told you about guys like him Jamie ! Now maybe you know !" He left and slammed my door.
I was all by myself.. I went to my bed; curled up in the sheets and started balling. I felt alone. I feel small . I want to rip out my heart and give it to an angry cat for a scratching post. I want to die.
Aaron poked his head in.. Usually I would tell him to leave me the fuck alone but at this moment I needed someone.
Hours later
I love my brother<3 he cheered me up a lot but I'm still pretty sad I don't have my Liam.. He told me to give Liam some time and be in the wrong and tell him Ur aware of Ur mistakes.
He is right, but I need to find out if I want Liam as a lover or Carter....