chapter 1
In my room packing all my clothes and stuff I was going to need I looked around my room at my pictures my books and a and the sweet theme of my room made me realize I threw that all away just so I could feel good 1 time my recent bf damion comes in my room 'you the pregnant one u should not be doing this by yourself how bout this you go downstairs and eat and relax ill pack your stuff okay babe he says thanks i say wrapping my earms around his neck kissing him I appreciated damion for his generosity and helping me what the heck I'm saying he thinks its his baby I think it is his too but I'm not supposed to think it's his I'm supposed to know its his and I feel really bad not telling him I was sleeping with a few guys while he and I were dating but I needed him right now. I walk down stairs with my shorts robe and bunny slippers and my soft shiny blonde hair flowed everywhere i went but my good girl look was ruined because of my pregnant belly my mother had made a big sunday dinner and it smelled good but some other smell was drowning that smell pizza do we have any pizza I say no there is no pizza mom says i think I'll order I say I ordered pizza and I knew it was a craving cause I never liked pizza as much as I was liking it now.
I chewed down that pizza like that was the last time I would eat then I hear a knock on the door who is it I say mouth still a little full with pizza it jess! she yells jess was my best friend she was complete opposite of me I was a wild party girl while she was not she warned me of this but my head was harder than a brick wall she runs in my house with a little teddy bear monkey I know this is a pretty early gift but I think your baby deserves it she says rubbing my belly thanks jess i say hugging her I'm really going to miss u she says i see tears coming down her face i wipe them ill visit and u can visit then her phone rings I gotta go mk she says leaving out the door then my dad comes sitting next to me my dad was very dissapointed of me not like I could forget he told me everyday you know I'm dissapointed in u dad says yes dad I know I made a mistake we all make mistakes I say sarcastically hunny this is a huge responsibility u have to take on he says I know dad I know I say I really love you hunny he says kissing me on my forehead my dad had a heart of gold he listen to me.
all done damion says sitting next to me on our couch thanks babe your stuff ready I say he looks at me suprise my stuff then he starts laughing I'm not moving in I'm going to art college and I said i come see u did u get the text he said not like it matter now I realize I had a problem already I be completly alone in nyc.