I know people are going to judge me, I already feel like the people that have me on social media are going to ask why I'm not at school, why I keep missing days...the very few special people in my life that I trust deeply, might text me at the new number I gave them. My regular high school would be set to start a month before my homeschooling. My online academy is a college prep; supposed to prepare me for College. Little did I know that my classes would actually be college leveled, it does more than prepare me, I'm basically going to college at fifteen years old. The transition was hard, from school who taught 8th grade math to high school students, to college math.
" How's online school ? Do you like it so far ? Is it hard ? What is it like ? Why did you do online school going ? "
" Dude, Ronnie slowwww down haha. "
Yeah, it's true my academy did suck, but I knew it'd be for the better.
" well do you make any friends ? " Macalister asked.
" No Mac. I just sit at home and eat my feelings away. Yes I can fucking make friends, there's always the internet. I don't know if I would want to be friends with any of them because I'm sarcastic sometimes and its kinda hard to tell over the internet and what if they tell on me haha. " I laughed off.
" Um, Katrina. You never answered me, why online though ? " Ronnie basically yelling at me.
" Fuck Ron, pipe the fuck down will ya ? I love you guys but fuck man, don't make me deaf. I have to do online because my parents are always working and like I told you guys, it's to prep me for College. I can't be the only one who wants to get out of this piece of shit town. Am I right ? "
Ronnie continued making screeching noises while playing video games with the rest of us during our skype call. It was his thing, the guys were annoying, yet funny, in their own little way. A quiet-ish yell and singing happened to be Ronnie's.
" True. Could you graduate faster or no ? " Danny asked.
I had to think about it for a little bit, I thought to myself, the possibilities there could be in my life. " Damn...Imagine me...Katrina, Katrina Michelle Simmons graduating early. Honestly the faster the better, if not, then two more years I go. "
" I mean I don't know, it's not really at my own pace but it is one-on-one. So what do you guys want to do after high school ? I want to become a Veterinarian and go to College in California. I really want to go to UCLA or University of California; either of those just as long as I can live in the L.A area. That's been the dream, just imagine. "
I could imagine it alright. As an aspiring YouTuber, I would vlog my way traveling to my destination, giving an apartment tour, videos with my roommates....just living the life. I would wake up probably grumpy, realize my new surroundings. My white sheets, big bed, amazing new room, the sun peaking through my window. I walk to my window, moving the blinds to the side so I could look outside. The view was beautiful, the city was amazing. I just really want to be happy in life and be with my friends and my family going through it all.
" I'm going to the military, not really sure yet. What about you guys ? " Danny said.
" hmmmmmmm, I don't know but I'm going with Kat to L.A haha. I just need to go to college and get my shit together fam. " Ronnie laughed.
"Jee, thanks for asking what I― "
" I DID MACALISTER ! SHOWS HOW MUCH YOU FUCKING PAY ATTENTION ! " Danny rudely interrupted.
" Jesus Christ Danny. Chill out aha. Anyways, I'm staying in Arizona, I'm moving to Phoenix, I want to go to ASU. " Macalister finished.
Yeah, we fight a lot, had different goals and dreams; but what friends don't ? I love these guys, yeah we'll ignore each other, cuss each other out, maybe even be rude in general....but we have each other's back through it all. I think we all just want to sit down one day, drink some coffee (or any other liquid substance because y'know, coffee isn't for everyone) and look out into the sky. I think we all just want to be happy with ourselves, happy with what we've done, what we're doing, happy in general, just genuinely happy... The guys were right...it would be harder for me to make friends, I can't really communicate with the other students; that's why I turned to the internet. Usually I would always get random messages from strangers, and let me tell you, people are fucking creepy and weird. I would get spam messages, creepy ones, I would receive threats, etc. But not everyone is rude on the internet, I met some great friends through the internet.
I met Will in early August, August 19th to be exact. I know what you're thinking,
" What the actual hell Katrina...why do you know the exact date ? Creep. "
Okay okay okay okay hold the phone.
I remember the date because he was the nicest guy ever. We instantly clicked. I didn't know what Will looked like at first, if that makes any sense. When he first messaged me, his profile picture was his dog. Usually I wouldn't message people back if they didn't have themselves in a profile, I found it sketchy. But this time, I did for some reason. I always tell myself that things happen for a reason. Anything that happens to you is meant to happen for a reason. Whether it be good, bad, things happen for a REASON. I remember talking to Will for the longest time, hours on end, telling our life stories, how we both got out of a shitty relationship. We facetimed, messaged for hours and hours, then things changed. He told me his mom didn't want me speaking to him anymore, her reason ? Her reason was because I lived in Arizona while they had just moved to Virginia from California. She made him block me on every social media, my number, just blocked me out of his life, literally. My good friend Artemis told me I should message him using TextNow, and I decided to make the area code the Virginia Area Code. I messaged him telling him it was me. At first he didn't believe me, but then I proved it. We talked for a little bit, but then he stopped answering...and I stopped trying...I don't see the point in it, I don't want to be the only one trying to make an effort, but like I said these things happen for a reason (holla @ lil Gerald). If Will ever does message me...I don't know how I'll react. It could be months, years, decades....I don't really know. I do have my doubts, I just hope he's doing okay. It hurt a lot trying to get over him, he was the sweetest guy ever and liked me for me. Months pass by, I get a random message.
" New message with: Trevor ! "
" Hey. "
I decided to , and give this 'Trevor' guy a chance and decided to reply.
" hello. "
It went on from there I suppose. He wanted to Skype me, so I did. He was with his friend Reed at the time. I got invited to my cousin Liza's house, so I told them I'd finish skyping them there. That's where it all went downhill.....I fucking regret sending that first hello...