That was the first time i'd ever felt so much hate for myself, i'd stood in the shower for hours trying to wash the filth of HIM off. i'd cried for hours in the shower wishing i had someone, i was wishing for help ...and love. it never came, i was truly alone which is why i dont see a point in trying. im now 18 and a senior in highschool.I've been raped more times than i can count and ive come to the realization that no one can save me, the only way im going to get away is by either running away or die trying and im more than willing.
" come on worthless" said my sad excuse for a guardian, i know i should probably say father but ill be damned if that man will ever amount up to my father. we're moving today, im moving everything out as we speak but he's rushing me not even thinking about all the bruises all over my body that he had gave me the night before along with his buddy.
" yes, sir" i said in my usual small voice as i try to avoid him as i do every day.
" well hurry up you stupid bitch" he said walking out of the house that has been my own personal hell for the past 4 years.
*5 hours later*
i just sat there staring out the window waiting to see my new hell. i used to have hope that life would get better, that all this happened for a reason but after so many people turn a blind eye and leave you, you have to have yourself. i watched as we passed hundreds of trees and beautiful forests. i couldnt wait to go in the forest.
" the same rules apply here am i understood" said david while keeping his eyes on the road, i didnt answer and i realized my mistake all to late. the next thing i feel is a stinging cheek that is no doubt bruised..again."
"i said am i understood" he yelled
"yes, im sorry, i understand" i said in a small voice holding my cheek. it may have hurt but i wouldnt cry, that is something i learned, i cant afford to show emotion, i havent cried since that first night.
" good" he said as we pulled into a beautiful driveway that led to an even more beautiful house, id think it was the most beautiful house had i not known what was in store for me in this house.it was brick with beautiful statues and an even more beautiful forest surrounding it. we both got out and the first thing i saw was a bunch of scary looking men at the front entrance looking me up and down as if i were a peice of meat, though its not new to me, thats all david ever looked at me with along with his buddies.
" un pack the stuff slut then make dinner" said david as he went inside the house.im not only their whore but im also their maid.i did what i was told and unpacked and then made dinner. i made dinner for david and his buddies and went out to serve them their food, on my way there one of his buddies thought it'd be funny to slap my butt throwing me off balance and making me fall and fall on the glass that was the plates. i screamed in shock. i was about to get up but david kicked me on my side repeatedly , i refused to scream or cry, as this was going on all his buddies decided to laugh at my misery and when david was finished he yelled for me to clean this mess up and get ready for school tomorrow. i did clean it and then i limped upstairs finally crying once i got to my room. i went to the joining bathroom cleaned my hands that were cut by the glass. life was just a sick joke to me now, i cant wait to seen what school has in store for me tomorrow......
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------i know a long awaited update. hope you like it.