Time: 12:55am
nag eemo na naman ako. wala nanaman humpay pag iyak ko. kala ko okay lang.. kala ko masaya na yung kausapin nya ako kahit saglit lang. pero after pala ng sobrang tuwa.. doble pa din yung sakit.. I'll sleep this off. hopefully makatulog agad.. ang sakit sakit pa rin..
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Update 6:32pm
October 14 na. and October 15 na sa pinas.. Birthday na NYA... Gustong gusto ko sya kausapin at batiin.. but I'm too scared of rejection.. right now nag papack ako ng gamit para sa trip namin.. we'r leaving tonight.. and I'm really testing my self control.. I want to call him so bad.. but I know he wouldn't answer.. I miss him so bad.. it hurts..
Update: 9:15pm
haha ang galing! all I managed to get done is make my eyes red and puffy. for some reason I couldn't stop myself from crying every hour.. what the eff is wrong with me..