Hey kateykat
Why am I so stupid? I really really hate myself for being so insanely stupid how could I let a guy use me like that? God why did I trust him when he said that he was single? I should have known he wasnt hes a football player for crying out loud! Shes beautiful definatly somthing I couldnt ever compete with but somehow I still try. katnip he cheated on her with me. I need to tell her but if I do ill lose every chance that I ever had with him
okay ill provide a little backstory we will call this boy R well it all started the begining of summer. I was on my way to the airport there was an accident and we were stuck in traffic I had given him my number the last day of school and he had given me his. I texted him since I had nothing better to do while sitting in traffic in those two hours he had told me that he had fallen in love with me over the years and wanted to know if I had felt the same. (which it was kind of obvious that I had anyone could see that) we ended up dating his parents wanted to meet me and everything they already thought that I was an angel and I guess R didnt like that his parents liked me as much as they did.
it was july 12 when I got his text a little after noon it was three days before id be heading back home. this was the day I got to pick anything I wanted to do. I picked jet skiing because I had tons of fun the last time. he told me that he was sorry that he had to do this but he thought it was just best for us to break up and just be friends that maybe we could try again in the future once he got everything in order. that he had too many things on his plate as it was that he didnt have time for a girlfriend right now and of course that broke me.
I still think back on it and feel a hint of saddness but now I still want him. and when he texts me its right when im about to get over him and move on and he tells me the same thing he loves me and misses me. and I ask why he doesnt just come and get me and thats when he stops messaging. I dont know what to do I hate myself so much for being so stupid.
love you
-caitlin♡