*Jocelyn's Pov*
As I look up at the house I grew up in, all the memories-good and bad-rush into my mind as I place the last suitcase of mine in the truck of Niall's car. Everything comes rushing back to me like I just lived everything yesterday. But those will always stay at this house, no more negative thoughts only positive from now on.
My eyes water as I walk back into the house just to make sure I have everything I will need in California, I see one little thing on the floor peeking through underneath the door. I make my way to it seeing its an envelope with my name on it.
Dear My Amazing Daughter,
If you read this it means college has approached you, and we-your mom and I-are probably busy with all our work. We wish you the best of time at college, and we are so proud of you. We wrote this in the spare time of us not working, we wanted to tell you that your mother is pregnant and you're going to be a big sister. Yes, its a very big announcement but we hope you are happy. By time you read this the little bugger will be here but seeing as we probably won't be able to write you anytime soon might as well explain things now. Now you know I am not the coolest dad nor the brightest at times but I want you to know I love you very much and can't believe you are going to college. I remember when you were only two and spoke your first word and believe it or not you said 'dada' and I cried for three hours straight knowing you were my little girl. (If there's tears stains on this they're not mine.) I love you so much, Jocelyn Elle Stewarts and I am the proudest father there is.
Love you sky high, like apple pie baby girl.
(p.s. there's your little brother)----->
Love,
Daddy.
Shakily, I fold the letter back together placing it back in the envelope as a sob leaves my mouth. It was last thing he wrote before the crash, my eyes haven't left the picture of my baby brother's ultra-sound picture. I could have had a baby brother, but he and our parents were taken away.
I wipe the tears that run down my cheeks, picking up myself from the floor holding the letter close to my chest as I walk outside seeing everyone standing around. My eyes advert to Liam who is looking at me curiously he makes he way towards me when he sees the tears in my eyes.
"Joce, what's that?" he asks carefully pointing to the envelope I hand it to him watching as he reads it his eyes feel with guilt once he's done "Joce, I'm so sorry, oh god what can I do?" he asks I shake my head as my knees give out but he catches me
"Its okay, you're okay you'll get through this. Its okay, love just breathe." he whispers rocking us back and forth I feel everyone else around us he just hands them the letter letting them read
"I-I could've h-had a b-brother." I whimper he nods
"Shh, love breathe in and out." he soothes soon more arms are wrapped around us
They speak softly to me as I just sit staring into space feeling myself relax into Liam's arms, I close my eyes resting my head on his chest. We just sit there in silence while my mind races with the thoughts of having a little brother right now, seeing what he'd look like and what his name would be.
But I won't have that, I'll never have that 'cause I can't have kid to raise and I won't ever get a chance of having a baby brother or sister.
How sad.
Someone clears their throat making us all look up seeing Harry, Louis, and Zayn standing with their hands in their pockets,
"Everything okay?" Louis speaks up I feel myself nod releasing my grip from Liam standing up
"Y-yeah everything is f-fine, w-what are you g-guys doing here?" I asks they smile
"Wanted to say goodbye, until we meet again in the future maybe?" Harry asks shyly I smile lightly
"That's nice of you guys," I tell them "But what makes you think I want to see you guys again?" I asks serious seeing the look on their faces
"Well, I- just I mean we-we just thought, like maybe we w-would run into one another?" Louis splutters out causing me to let out a small giggle
"Kidding guys, just kidding." I say they sigh in relief
"Jocelyn could I talk to you for a minute?" Zayn finally speaks I nod walking over to the steps of my house he sighs "I'm going to miss you." he whispers
"Yeah, beating me." I scoff then look at his eyes that filled with guilt and hurt "Shit sorry its a habit." I explain quickly he nods
"I understand I mean I wouldn't go easy on me either from all the stuff I've done to you, but I wasn't lying about missing you because I will." he says I nod "And I will make sure the next time we see each I will be a different and changed person." he promises I nod again
"What are you studying in college or are you going?" I ask changing the subject he smiles
"Art. I will learning the technics of every aspect of different textures and structures of each element of paintings, sketches, murals, things like that." he tells me I send him a smile
"That's amazing what you're doing maybe one day I'll see a painting with your name on it," I joke he smiles
"And with your face on it." he mutters quietly thinking I didn't hear him I just let it go as we continue talking about anything and everything
~*~*~
"Okay, Joce its time to go or you'll miss your flight." Stevee calls I nod looking back at everyone I walk up to Talia and Calum seeing as they aren't going to the airport with me
"I'm going to miss you two so much, thank you guys for being there for me." I whisper as we hug one another
"God, I wish we met earlier in the year besides now." Talia's voice cracks I hug her tighter
"I know." I turn to Calum hugging him again "You take care of Stevee or I will haunt you." I whisper jokingly he laughs
"Always Stewarts." he promises I walk to Sophia and Liam
"Alright I will see the two of you in a couple of weeks so, I won't bother with a sob story." I giggle hugging them quickly my eyes lock onto three figures who seem to walk away
"Hey! I'm not letting you guys just leave," I call after them I bring Harry and Louis into a big hug "I hate to admit but I will miss y'all's rudeness." I say they chuckle
"We'll work on that, and we'll miss you too." Louis says hugging me again
"Yeah, and maybe I will come visit you who knows?" Harry smiles bringing me into a side hug I see Zayn kicking the dirt with his feet
"So you're not going to say goodbye?" I asks he looks up smiling lightly
"I figured I out stayed my visit," he mutters I shake my head smiling "Can, can I hug you?" he asks quietly I nod bringing him into a hug "I'm still sorry for everything, just remember that. And if you need me for anything here's my number I'm just a phone call away." he smiles handing me a piece of paper
"Thanks, and I'll probably text you sometimes seeing that I won't make any friends." I laugh he chuckles too
"I will be waiting." he says then Stevee yells for me to get in the car I nod
"Gotta go, see you later Zayn." I hug him once more
"Bye, Jocelyn." he says as I make my to the car
I open the side door, looking back at everyone who is still there waving and smiling my eyes fill with tears knowing I won't see this place for a while. I look around at the house once more before throwing my stuff into the front seat, but before I get in I turn to look at Zayn who is started to walk away again
"Hey Malik!" I yell he turns quickly "I forgive you." I say loudly getting into the car and the look on his face is everything sighing I watch as we drive to the airport.
Goodbye, Bradford.
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